inluvwmygirls

I have decided to quit drinking but feel so much shame for my recent behaviors. Last night I drank 1 1/2 bottles of wine, but hid the first bottle so my husband would not know. I cannot believe I let this happen.

julez

Hi inluv,
Take a breath, and get a plan together. You can do this!

BadCompany

Welcome to SR. I hope you find it as helpful as I have.

Anna

Yes, I think that's how most of us feel when we finally know that we need to stop drinking.

I'm glad you are seeking support and that you found us.

kdr143

I've been there before....hiding the first bottle so someone would think i'm haven't really drank that much.
You are in the right place...lots of love and support on here.
I am about 70 days sober...i never thought in a million years i could do....but i am one day at a time. And the rewards are AWESOME!!!

startingagain

Welcome! I am all too familiar with hiding bottles. Ugh. I hope you find all the help you need. Good luck!

inluvwmygirls

Thank you so much for responding...I really appreciate it

Hooped

I only quit drinking 5 days ago and I gotta tell you, it is SO worth it to get up in the morning with a feeling of self respect again.
Good Luck and Welcome to this place. Its my still my lifeline at the moment.

Thumpalumpacus

I'm pretty new to sobriety as well. In addition to all of the above advice, ratchet up your willpower. It was, and still is, damned hard for me, but it's getting easier as the fog lifts and I can see more clearly.

StuartW

You will find plenty of good advice and support here. Read other's stories and you will find you are not alone.

I wish you well.

Kjell

Towards the end of my drinking, it was very scary as to what I had become, but it was even more scary to think I shouldn't and really couldn't ever drink again.

I'm not sure which thought was worse.

...and this pain, this awkwardness, this fear got me to come to SR and to go to AA. I've now been sober for almost a year and it's getting better each day.

You never have to drink again. We can and do get sober and you can be living proof.

SSIL75

I can relate A lot of us can! Welcome.

Murray4x5

I see you joined in March but posted for the first time today, 7 months later. You saw this day coming.

It seems like an insurmountable mountain to climb right now, but it's all in your mind...it truly gets easier the longer you stick to being sober. It was inconceivable to me how I was going to make it a week without drinking, but thanks to the good folks and the links to information found here on SR I've been sober for over 4 months.

You want to do this, you need to do this, you can do this!

Murray

Dee74

Hi inluvwmygirls - welcome to SR

I felt a lot of shame too - often that shame led me back to the bottle so I think it's important to focus on today - I believe the best way to make up mistakes of the past is to do things right today - live right, be the best person you can be...and stay sober.

Leave the shame in the past where it belongs
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least

Welcome to the family! The longer and happier you are sober, the less shame and regret you'll feel. You'll come to love yourself again, and that's such a joy. I was so sick and tired of hating myself....

No matter how you stay sober, just put your heart and soul into it 'cause it IS a matter of life and death. Find and keep your peace. We CAN recover.

inluvwmygirls

Thanks to all of you. You have no idea..well, I suppose you do. I blew it tonight and gave in to the feeling that I can start tomorrow. I clearly see the issue, but give myself excuses. I told my husband tonight that I need him to stay home this weekend. I need to take baths, drink tea and be around noone but my family. He is totally supportive. Wish me luck...

Dee74

The trouble with drinking is we stay in the cycle...I always said I'd start tomorrow....before I knew it 20 years went by.

It is a scary step...and many of us baulked a time or two - including me....and it is hard work - but it's absolutely one hundred percent worth it.

Everyone here will tell you that, inluvwmygirls

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inluvwmygirls

absolutely..I couldn't agree more. Thank you for saying it. This is the first time I have ever reached out, and I must say I already feel better knowing I am not alone. I CAN do this...and I ahve to ...thank you

nawneet

Inluvwmygirls

I am only on day 11 and was new to all of this too, but i'm feeling great no hangover in the morning, no sneaking about the house trying to pour that sly drink and the support in SR is over welming. Keep it up, I also joined AA which i also get a lot of support and enjoy the face to face meetings.

You have taken the 1st step one day at a time.

Nawneet

artsoul

welcome inluv - I'm glad your husband is supportive - that's great! It's scary to think about quitting and scary to think about not quitting. That's where I was 6 months ago, too. But like others have said, with support (and together) we can do this.