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I drank until I reached the point where there were only the options of early death, jail, or some other institutionalization ahead of me.
I know that the first few months are very taxing and can wear you down. If you can get past them though, and have the right help, it really does get easier. After a certain point, I became more able to pause and think before the impulse to self-destruct kicked in with the slightest catalyst.
I'd suggest looking at your vulnerable situations, and organizing emergency support you can turn to when at risk. (With a year sober, I still have these in place for myself. I still have some difficulties with being alone, having my own inner demons... I haven't entirely sorted that out yet, it's still a work in progress, probably always will be to a point.)
Early in my own recovery, I went to counseling primarily out of a sense of obligation to, to keep others in my life happy and off my case. It took a few more ugly incidents to really convince me of the crucial need for recovery, and to change my attitude. It may be a cliche but I was finally broken down to the point of surrender, and that's what made the difference. I was just too damn tired to fight anymore, I was going to listen to others and take their advice on board, as I'd really only messed things up for myself trying to do it my way, as I thought I knew best.
Nobody has a recovery that is an entirely smooth trajectory, we all have our up and down moments, it's not always pretty and rosy and it's a lot of work. But it sure beats the falsity and self-degradation of the existence of an addict.
I know that the first few months are very taxing and can wear you down. If you can get past them though, and have the right help, it really does get easier. After a certain point, I became more able to pause and think before the impulse to self-destruct kicked in with the slightest catalyst.
I'd suggest looking at your vulnerable situations, and organizing emergency support you can turn to when at risk. (With a year sober, I still have these in place for myself. I still have some difficulties with being alone, having my own inner demons... I haven't entirely sorted that out yet, it's still a work in progress, probably always will be to a point.)
Early in my own recovery, I went to counseling primarily out of a sense of obligation to, to keep others in my life happy and off my case. It took a few more ugly incidents to really convince me of the crucial need for recovery, and to change my attitude. It may be a cliche but I was finally broken down to the point of surrender, and that's what made the difference. I was just too damn tired to fight anymore, I was going to listen to others and take their advice on board, as I'd really only messed things up for myself trying to do it my way, as I thought I knew best.
Nobody has a recovery that is an entirely smooth trajectory, we all have our up and down moments, it's not always pretty and rosy and it's a lot of work. But it sure beats the falsity and self-degradation of the existence of an addict.
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Look at all the recovery in on day
I miss a day and Firestorm is back. YEAH!!!!! But aside look at all this great support and advice in just one day. I hope a few of our other friends make their way back.
SH
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Join Date: Feb 2009
Location: CA desert
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Hey, did I mention that I love you guys and gals?
If not, I'm mentioning it now.
hey, don't get a big head over this, it's just love, ya know.
Here, have some love with that coffee.........and don't skip the donuts, lol.
You can take all the love I give ya, plus two dollars, and get a good cup of coffee, lol. But I love ya anyway!!
If not, I'm mentioning it now.
hey, don't get a big head over this, it's just love, ya know.
Here, have some love with that coffee.........and don't skip the donuts, lol.
You can take all the love I give ya, plus two dollars, and get a good cup of coffee, lol. But I love ya anyway!!
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Join Date: May 2009
Location: Land of Cotton
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Originally Posted by firestorm090 
Here, have some love with that coffee.........and don't skip the donuts, lol.
You can take all the love I give ya, plus two dollars, and get a good cup of coffee, lol. But I love ya anyway!!
(A man after my own heart!)
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Join Date: Sep 2010
Location: Lomita, California
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Alcohol is the Devil. He just waits until our guard is down. A weak moment, bad day at work or just a bad day coping with life, and it slams you. Again. I had 3 years and went right back to a bottle a day. It took another trip in an ambulance to the hospital to get me back on track to my recovery. No, it's not easy. But the more I stay busy, the less the temptations. When I was drinking, life was a "I'll do it tomorrow" kind of mess. Hang in there, Fire.
Speaking of food, I know a lot of great places, if you ever get down to the South Bay. Yes, food does help. For me, anyways. Not over eating, just a few snacks, and the cravings aren't so bad.
Speaking of food, I know a lot of great places, if you ever get down to the South Bay. Yes, food does help. For me, anyways. Not over eating, just a few snacks, and the cravings aren't so bad.
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Originally Posted by firestorm090
Here, have some love with that coffee.........and don't skip the donuts, lol.
You can take all the love I give ya, plus two dollars, and get a good cup of coffee, lol. But I love ya anyway!!
You can take all the love I give ya, plus two dollars, and get a good cup of coffee, lol. But I love ya anyway!!
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