discoveringme

Day 70, Well...I went to a surprise birthday party tonight for one of my very best friends. It was a mexican restaurant that served alcohol. On top of my social anxiety, we had to be there 1/2 hr before she came. I had 2 diet cokes in 30 minutes. my husband and I stayed for about 2 hours of the party. Almost everyone was drinking except for my husband and I. This was a major trigger for me and was so difficult. I should have stayed home, but this was such a huge deal for her and I really needed to be there. So I made it thru, but Im so scared that I will obsess about it. I put myself in a dangerous situation. I guess i feel better already just letting this out. I need to let it go now..I am safe..and sober.

crisplover

Well done! That is one tough challenge, I know. When I have been sober before I have been to events where everyone is drinking and it's hard.

I also found it very dull (but if I was drinking, I would have had a 'great' time) and sad when drunken people kept talking rubbish to me. But I felt so left out and weird for not drinking and I think I decided after that to start again.

Well done again...but don't put yourself in too many situations like that. Your sobriety is so precious.

least

Glad you didn't cave in. When you have more sober time under your belt these types of events probably won't be so stressful. I know for me, once I 'turned the corner' and no longer wanted to drink, it doesn't matter what's going on around me as I'm a non drinker - period!

VeeTee

Well done! I hope this has further strengthend you!

coffeenut

Rather that obsess about what might have been....how about celebrating the fact that you came through it sober! Good for you!