RunningTheRace

I will take any prayers, positive thoughts, etc. Wanted to check in with the forum. Thanks to those who have reached out before. I wish I had good news. But, I don't. I have been drinking myself to sleep since I last checked in...I have been trying yoga, exercise, etc...honestly, the only thing that keeps me from drinking at night is making love to my girlfriend, but she has moved to another state for work, so those wonderful moments are few and far between. When she is not here or I am not there, I drink. I hate this part of me and I know where this will lead if I do not address this part of my life. So, please pray. I am pretty much out of ideas. And feel like such a failure that I have crawled back into the bottle. Sorry.

eremc08

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time.. The only thing I can say is that you can do this, and even though you don't have your girlfriend around anymore, you need to do this for you! It's a battle but I think it's one worth fighting.. You only get one life, one body. Talk to your doctor.. perhaps you're falling into depression as well.

Another option is joining an AA group. Coming here has proven to help a lot of others, including myself. You can beat this and never have to do it again!

Welcome !

bellakeller

Codependency is so painful and sounds like something you might want to talk with a therapist about along with getting help for alcoholism. Have you tried AA at all?

Sweetie, you probably will lose this girlfriend altogether if you don't get some help. Nobody likes to have all that responsibility for someone else's happiness in a relationship. Relationships like that become toxic for all involved.

I am talking from experience....

LaFemme

Hi! I am sending you my positive thoughts and prayers. Also a question....why not try a meeting?

jamdls

Sending Ts and Ps your way don't let alcohol win you are better than that.

Draciack

RTR -

Is there anything new you can try - a recovery program, counseling, CBT, anything?

Every alcoholic and addict has been where you're at. Beating this thing is possible.

Dee74

Hi runningtherace

yoga and exercise are great but I'm afraid they didn't do a lot for my alcoholism.

I spent years drinking over loneliness and emotional pain when my gf moved out for example - it did me no good at all but I did lose 18 entire months of my life.

Please take action to nip this in the bud now.

I think the advice here is good - have you tried AA or some other recovery programme yet, or some counselling perhaps?
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tomdecel

The only thing that can change YOU is YOU. No amount of prayers, positive thought etc will change YOU unless you find it upon yourself to resolve to live without the bottle.

Don't mean to be too harsh here, but I wish someone would have given me a kick in the pants when I needed one. I bid you strength to do it for yourself.

least

I am sending prayers your way that you take action soon to stop this before it gets any worse... and it always gets worse. Do something different this time: go to AA or another recovery program, start counseling with an addiction counselor, go to an out patient therapy program, see your doctor for help in quitting - anything you haven't already tried. Maybe even a detox program or rehab if possible. Just DO something.

Anna

I will definitely send prayers for you, but I hope that you will take action too.

Make the changes in your life that will help you to live a sober life.

readythistime

You are in my thoughts and prayers. You've been to the other side, you know that there are better things in life for you. You can do it. Know you can. You are never alone.

Aurora80

praying for you...

((hugs))

sobermax

Thinking of you. There is hope.

CarolD

Welcome back.....

Passing out is not sleeping.
A partner is not required for sex either.

Are you afraid to sleep alone?
Have you considered getting professional assistance for your sleep issues?

Please see if this is useful ...

Insomnia? 42 Simple Tips to Help You Get to Sleep - Insomnia treatment, cures

Praers that you find whatever you need to
enhance your future....

Lilly03

Are you praying for yourself? Something that helped me was praying for strength and help...While still looking for help from people. I had never prayed for myself and it helped in my surrendering.

I'll pray for you, don't give up