fighttowin

Why am I feeling so weak? UGH!!!!!! I go back and forth have a drink don't have a drink. The craving is so strong for some reason. This has to be the most I ever craved in 3 weeks. Is it because the bad things are fading???

just want to make it and yes it is second by second I am living right now.

Anna

I do think that the addict voice reacts strongly when it's challenged. You don't need to listen to it though. Just let it go. Do whatever it takes to stay focused on your recovery this moment - listen to some good music, go out for a walk, whatever works.

least

It might be that the bad memories are fading and that makes the cravings seem worse. I agree with Anna - do whatever you can do to occupy yourself. It helps me to remember why I quit in the first place, even tho the memories aren't as fresh as they were, they're still a nightmare to recall.

Don't give in to the addict voice! Your cravings will get less and less the longer you're sober.

Dee74

Hi fighttowin

for me recovery was a lot more than just not drinking - I had to change some of my habits, and even some of my friends and look deep inside myself at why I wanted to drink so badly - was I scared, angry, bored or what?

what else have you changed in your life besides not drinking?

D

LexieCat

Drinking isn't an option. You are struggling with "have a drink/don't have a drink" because, in your mind, drinking is still an option.

It isn't. You are an alcoholic, therefore, you cannot drink. Tell your disease it's wasting its time.

CarolD

Please see if this might benefit you

Post Acute Withdrawl - Relapse Prevention Specialists - TLC The Living Center

Try distracting yourself when the craving hits...
Walking....Showering....Eating....Brush your teeth...
Drink cold water.....Dance around the room

Do anything you can think of ... except drinking alcohol.

artsoul

Good for you for hanging on..... The cravings can get really strong, I know. I had several during the first few months, and occassionally still do. But it's getting rarer and rarer with time.

For me, it seemed like things would go along smoothly and then out of the blue I'd feel like I was hanging by a thread. I did/do exactly what you're doing: come here and read/post to remind myself why I really didn't want to start down that road again.

Most likely, it's just that our subconscious is coming out at the moment, bringing up memories and urges. Combined with other feelings (maybe) or thoughts, it can seem overwhelming. BUT IT PASSES. Give it time. Be patient. You're trying to change an addiction, ya know? (I'm talking to myself here, too!) Do something else to reward yourself and give yourself something to look forward to.

You can make it!

Kmber2010

FTW, many of us face that in early sobriety. You need to ignore it, find positive activities to do when that ugly little voice comes along and know that all of it will pass.

I found working harder in my recovery was extremely helpful. By overcoming each challenge I faced.....it made me stronger and more confident.

Hang in there and know you are far more stronger then that urge.