firestorm090

Going on six weeks without a drink and today I'm all out of whack.

Some days I feel like I can walk on water, other days I feel like I'm just tooling along in a row boat, and on days like today, I feel I'm bobbing up and down with no life preserver, with a huge shark hot on my tail. Today, my attitude just plain sux. I don't want a drink, but ...... arghh, can someone smack me real hard upside the head, lol.

OK, that's my vent for today.

Dee74

Recovery would be much easier if it was a simple straight linear journey from A to Z - but then again life's not really like that either, is it? - everyone has their 'bobbing' days, I think D - whether alcoholic or not.

Be kind to yourself today
D

smacked

That's life..

Glad you're sober.

alexvt

I feel the EXACT same way! STG! I am on day 53. I was doing so good up until last week. I feel your pain!

SSIL75

Man has that realization been eye-opening for me! Some days are just crap. No need to drink a box of wine over it.

Are you doing enough nice things though? Got to have fun!

fighttowin

I feel your pain. been out of whack too. keep telling that little voice take a hike. a moment on the lips, life time of regrets!!!!! we can do it

Live

change your brand of bottled water

LaFemme

SMACK!!!! darn...now there's blood in the water and the sharks going to get you...just goes to show violence is never the answer;-p

Hope you are feeling better...I had a stinker of a day yesterday so I feel your pain.

michelle01

I had some big mood swings in early recovery. For some people, it resolves itself. In my case it didn't though and in the end I sought some professional help, it helped me find a more even keel. But as they say, it's 'life on life's terms', there isn't really a fix all for everything in sobriety, some ups and down are to be expected.

We get so accustomed to the quick, easy solution, and I think that often that carries through unconsciously to the recovery stages. We're still looking for something to work instantly, when recovery is really an unfolding process that requires some time and patience.

It helped me to remember that cravings on those not-so-good days always pass, and each time you make it through is another positive step forward. Why give yourself a setback now, after six weeks on a good track?

firestorm090

Thanks for the support SR friends!!

I still feel a bit off, but then again, I've always been a bit off, lol. Off my rocker, off in lala land, lol.

Life is what it is, and it's been good for six weeks, so I'm bound to have a downer day here and there. It's all good, just another day in paradise, lol.

Thanks for the help!!

Kmber2010

FS...glad to see your feeling better. Know that I had plenty of ups/downs and in the middle for quite some time. Guess what? As we keep working along and making more positive change.....we begin to have more ups and just ok days and not so many of those down days. As I have shared many times....I am ok and I am ok with that. Its nice to just relax and have uneventful days

You are doing great! Keep it going.

Fandy

I've had 2 extremely stressful weeks at work and it is wearing on me too. I woke up today feeling like something in the catbox....very depressed and Flock it all.

I KNOW this is a trigger for me and i do not want to go down that road again, last time it took me to a big round of depression that made it difficult to get out of bed and drinking.

i have my plan B and C in place to combat the bad days, but they sure do sneak up and make me feel terrible....I am starting with strong coffee, breakfast and vitamins....followed by a round of housechores...(a clean house makes me feel better), so i am off to start scrubbing down the bathrooms.

thanks for sharing, somehow it makes it easier.