musicman66

Some days are harder than others I guess....It was my 38th birthday 2 days ago. I celebrated without my family, working late, and by myself that night. I fought the urge to drink.

Today, I have my kids (they are sleeping right now) - the ex came over with a birthday present from them for me. This made me want to drink too....Isin't it funny that when staring at everything that I lost by drinking right in front of me - 22 days without a drink - all I can think about is how much I want a drink.....It is amazing that power that it has over you. I am not in AA, but from listening to you all I can understand why Step 1 is so important.

I will not drink tonight. I will wake up sober and have a great morning with my kids and see them to school. I will continue to fight the urge. I will continue to fight the loneliness. I will remind myself of the things that I lost by drinking. I will take comfort in the fact that I will be a better person without drinking, even though there are times right now when I may not be able to see that far ahead. I have learned this from you all. Thank you.

fighttowin

Hang in there!!!!go snuggle with the kido's and remember what the last 21 days felt like when you woke up.

Dee74

Sometimes it's hard because, if you're like me, your reaction to just about any kind of stimulus was...drink.

But learning those urges are more a memory and not a command is a turning point I think - you're doing well musicman...

congratulations on day 22!

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Anna

Good for you, Musicman!

And, yes the power that alcohol has over us cannot be overstated. But, it's getting through days like today was for you - a tough day - that will help you get through the next tough day. And, each time will get a bit easier.

firestorm090

Gotta keep hanging tough!!

You're doing great.

Day 22 here as well, and feeling good.