9 months clean today
dopeless hope fiend
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Join Date: Jan 2010
Location: Here. Now.
Posts: 1,021
9 months clean today
Nine months ago i was a hopeless oxycontin addict, drunk, and part time cokehead. I couldn't live with or without drugs. I didn't want to live but was chicken to die.
Something that can only be described as grace, led me into the rooms of NA, where i introduced myself, and chose life. It hasn't been easy, hasn't always been fun(though much of it actually has), but i stopped using, and have lost the desire to use. I am learning to live a new way of life that is meaningful, simple, and covers the scope of human experience, not my twisted selfish, primal existence of before.
Most of the things in my life that i valued have returned, and my physical appearance and health have remarkably changed. But most importantly, i'm untying the knots of who i am, am becoming ok with that person, and am making decisions for my life that benefit myself and those around me. I actually care about the world, and people around me.
Given the lying, stealing, manipulating, narcissistic, grandiose wind bag that i was not so long ago, it's a miracle.
I have found a home in NA and a solution in the steps. The salient point here though, is that if this hopeless addict can do it, you can too!
Whatever it is for you, may you find it!
Something that can only be described as grace, led me into the rooms of NA, where i introduced myself, and chose life. It hasn't been easy, hasn't always been fun(though much of it actually has), but i stopped using, and have lost the desire to use. I am learning to live a new way of life that is meaningful, simple, and covers the scope of human experience, not my twisted selfish, primal existence of before.
Most of the things in my life that i valued have returned, and my physical appearance and health have remarkably changed. But most importantly, i'm untying the knots of who i am, am becoming ok with that person, and am making decisions for my life that benefit myself and those around me. I actually care about the world, and people around me.
Given the lying, stealing, manipulating, narcissistic, grandiose wind bag that i was not so long ago, it's a miracle.
I have found a home in NA and a solution in the steps. The salient point here though, is that if this hopeless addict can do it, you can too!
Whatever it is for you, may you find it!
12-Step Recovered Alkie
Join Date: May 2010
Location: West Bloomfield, MI
Posts: 5,797
Congrats AW.... and don't you be so crazy as to ever forget what keeps you feeling the way you're feeling now. Keep working on the quality of your recovery, keep showing up at those meetings, and keep working on your relationship with whatever power it is out there that keeps you separated from drugs and alcohol. I can tell ya....it really DOES keep getting better if you keep working at it.
Awesome job!!
Awesome job!!
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