gr8t2bme

One night I went to the Casino and lost about $600, drank a few glasses of wine, then drove to a bar and had a few more glasses, I then started to cry due to being extremely depressed about my life.

I then came home and finished off the bottle of wine I had in my house and took the bottle of Klonopin and threw 12 klonopin in my mouth and swallowed.

I got scared and called the local emergency room and told them what I did.
They asked me my address and then about 15 minutes later the Sheriff showed up at my front door and took me to the ER.

That was one of the lowest part of my life with drinking.

I went to the ER twice when I was drinking because I threatend to kill myself.

The next was I was so drunk I called the domestic abuse hotline after separating from my abusive husband and told them I didn't want to live anymore.
The next thing I remember is that I was laying face down on my deck with my 17 year old daughter watching me being taken away by the ambulance and police. Again I spent the night in the ER.

Drinking has led me to hell and back. I feel so free now. I haven't had a drink in almost 30 days and I feel so much better.

I just wanted to share. Thank you for listening.

Theresa

LexieCat

Great to hear, Theresa! It's important that all the people out there feeling utterly desperate and hopeless know that there IS hope. Congrats on your sober time.

SweetCityWoman

I too am on day 30 and know how good it feels. I also know how good sharing feels and also how important support is. So thank-you for sharing your story.

Anna

Theresa, I am sorry for what you have gone through. I know that alcohol changed me into a person that I really didn't like at all. And, I wasn't aware how much of a depressant alcohol was, until I stopped drinking.

Congratulations on your 30 days sober!

Klynn33

what a great ending to that story!!!! congratulations!!

cat1961

Thanks for sharing Theresa.

Reading stories like this brings back the tough memories for all of us and just makes us stronger for the present and future.

I drank heavily from my depression and I guess that didn't get me to far. So now I don't drink and the depression has eased off..... Funny how that works.

Congrats Theresa!

CarolD

I'm really glad you survived and are finding a sober life.
Congratulations.....

firestorm090

Hi T,

I've literally lost thousands of dollars by going to the casino while drunk, and it's still tough to think about it. Drinking and gambling is one of the worst combinations I know of.

Congrats on the 30 days!!

I'm on day ten, so you've helped me today by sharing your story, for contained therein is the seed of hope that helps keep our recoveries alive.

wvuwhat

Thank you for this story. I was one of the lucky ones that went to the casino and won 10,000+ while I was drunk. Thankfully, that 15 or so K that I won was able to fund my 600 dollar a month insurance (diabetic). I could have easily been at the end of my rope, because I was betting 500 a hand in BJ, and then moved onto a poker tourney, which I surprisingly won after 15 hours. I'm currently trying to figure out how to live sober, and I'll be honest, it's extremely hard, but I'm done with gambling. I have way too many vices and I'm trying to overcome them one at a time.

Fandy

totally agree.....I drank because I felt so depressed and drinking made my depression 10X worse, it's a vicious cycle with a double whammy of insomnia thrown in....after my Lterm relationship ended....i felt his uncontrolled gambling was MY fault...now I know that's not true.

He left me for the ponies and preferred to spend all of his free time at the OTB "racino"....I stopped drinking and my depression is GREATLY DECREASED.

now I realize that he is the loser and I am winning the war.

congrats on your 30 days and feeling better....keep posting, there is lots of support here.