There Are Days When...
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Join Date: Sep 2010
Location: Indiana
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There Are Days When...
I think I can have just one.
I've been sober for over 10 years. But I know the farther away I get from my last drink the closer I get to my next drink..and to death.
Still, the disease is such a liar!!
I still avoid bars and and parties with co workers. My closest friends know of my alcoholism and "try" to understand--but yet, one of them offered me a beer two weeks ago!! I was SO hurt that he did that. I don't even think he understands how I felt. I wanted to scream, "Uh, Hello! Weren't You Listening when I TOLD you where this crap took me?"
But you what? I'm not new to sobriety, but I am new to Recovery! Does that make any sense?
I've been sober for over 10 years. But I know the farther away I get from my last drink the closer I get to my next drink..and to death.
Still, the disease is such a liar!!
I still avoid bars and and parties with co workers. My closest friends know of my alcoholism and "try" to understand--but yet, one of them offered me a beer two weeks ago!! I was SO hurt that he did that. I don't even think he understands how I felt. I wanted to scream, "Uh, Hello! Weren't You Listening when I TOLD you where this crap took me?"
But you what? I'm not new to sobriety, but I am new to Recovery! Does that make any sense?
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Yes, it does make sense.
Sobriety and recovery are not the same thing.
It's hard for others to understand what we go through, so that's a good reason to hang out here where we 'get it'.
Sobriety and recovery are not the same thing.
It's hard for others to understand what we go through, so that's a good reason to hang out here where we 'get it'.
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,238
It's hard to except people places
and things just the way they are
or suppose to be.
People, especially family members
who just don't understand the
alcoholic.
They surely remember the h*ll
we put them thru tho.
I got so sick and tired of being
sick and tired and worn out trying
to explain who and what I had become.
Im pretty sure my entire family
circle thinks im cured especially
since I havent had a drink in 20 yrs.
I should be able to handle a drink
by now.
Well....I moved on changing and
growing in recovery leaving a trail
of dust in the wind.
Today, I dont have to explain myself
to anyone anymore. And what a relief.
Whew...!
People dont need to a know my history
and if im confronted with alcohol, I simply
say no thank you and away I go.
Or avoid confrontation all together
by not setting myself up for an alcoholic
situation.
10 yrs is nothing too sneeze at and each
day is a gift and joy.
I dont let anyone today steal my joy
or rewards in recovery because I
treasure each day emmensely.
My recovery is mine and your is urs.
How awesome is that?
and things just the way they are
or suppose to be.
People, especially family members
who just don't understand the
alcoholic.
They surely remember the h*ll
we put them thru tho.
I got so sick and tired of being
sick and tired and worn out trying
to explain who and what I had become.
Im pretty sure my entire family
circle thinks im cured especially
since I havent had a drink in 20 yrs.
I should be able to handle a drink
by now.
Well....I moved on changing and
growing in recovery leaving a trail
of dust in the wind.
Today, I dont have to explain myself
to anyone anymore. And what a relief.
Whew...!
People dont need to a know my history
and if im confronted with alcohol, I simply
say no thank you and away I go.
Or avoid confrontation all together
by not setting myself up for an alcoholic
situation.
10 yrs is nothing too sneeze at and each
day is a gift and joy.
I dont let anyone today steal my joy
or rewards in recovery because I
treasure each day emmensely.
My recovery is mine and your is urs.
How awesome is that?
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Join Date: Aug 2010
Posts: 861
Welcome! Thanks for posting. Your post helped me.
I had 16 years of sobriety until this past summer. I was triggered and bought into the belief that maybe it would not be a problem to drink again. And then I drank for about a month. And now it is hard to stop again- so much harder than 16 years ago. But I have 16 days of sobriety today!
I had 16 years of sobriety until this past summer. I was triggered and bought into the belief that maybe it would not be a problem to drink again. And then I drank for about a month. And now it is hard to stop again- so much harder than 16 years ago. But I have 16 days of sobriety today!
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Join Date: Aug 2010
Location: Canada
Posts: 3,413
Welcome to SR... and I can relate to your post.
I didn't have a drink for 7 years... and then a (so called) friend, who knew I didn't (couldn't) drink and who I explain to the reason I didn't drink anymore...which was because I felt I couldn't control my consumption. She convinced me to have a drink (my fault) and that drink led to a two year "out of control" drinkathon. What a waste of time along with a lot of pain and suffering.
Yeah, crazy, isn't it. Lesson was learned... and I will NEVER pick up a
drink of poison again.
It was very wrong of your friend, just like it was of my friend... and something that I will remember for the rest of my life. Some people just don't understand what alcoholism is all about.
I am now drink-free for one month tomorrow... and feel fabulous.
Hang around SR, you will love it! Great friends, wonderful support, inspiration and we are all in this together.
I didn't have a drink for 7 years... and then a (so called) friend, who knew I didn't (couldn't) drink and who I explain to the reason I didn't drink anymore...which was because I felt I couldn't control my consumption. She convinced me to have a drink (my fault) and that drink led to a two year "out of control" drinkathon. What a waste of time along with a lot of pain and suffering.
Yeah, crazy, isn't it. Lesson was learned... and I will NEVER pick up a
drink of poison again.
It was very wrong of your friend, just like it was of my friend... and something that I will remember for the rest of my life. Some people just don't understand what alcoholism is all about.
I am now drink-free for one month tomorrow... and feel fabulous.
Hang around SR, you will love it! Great friends, wonderful support, inspiration and we are all in this together.
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Cary, NC
Posts: 715
Welcome to SR
My friends don't understand either, which is fine 'cause I don't understand them. Leave a drink unfinished? Psssch. Wackos
Glad you're here. Abstinence is nice but recovery..well, it's something amazing.
My friends don't understand either, which is fine 'cause I don't understand them. Leave a drink unfinished? Psssch. Wackos
Glad you're here. Abstinence is nice but recovery..well, it's something amazing.
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: UK
Posts: 4,682
Makes complete sense...reminds me of my dry stints where i would put restrictions on people, places and things...even reading your post made me feel a bit cringy...its no way to live!
Good news is you got a real opportunity to turn it around with a solid base of 10 years away from the last drink...ive seen it happen recently with someone 8 years away from last drink, did some work on himself and now says why the hell did no-one tell me to do this 8 years ago?! Respect for wanting a better life and hope you find the way for you soon:-)
Good news is you got a real opportunity to turn it around with a solid base of 10 years away from the last drink...ive seen it happen recently with someone 8 years away from last drink, did some work on himself and now says why the hell did no-one tell me to do this 8 years ago?! Respect for wanting a better life and hope you find the way for you soon:-)
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
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Location: Serene In Dixie
Posts: 36,740
For me....when I began doing my formal AA Step work...
I felt a shift in my perception.....
from sometimes shakey sobriety into solid recovery....
Welcome to our recovery community
I felt a shift in my perception.....
from sometimes shakey sobriety into solid recovery....
Welcome to our recovery community
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