Class of September 2010
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I will say...its hard, this morning was harder than yesterday...I'm already sick of my brother and friends calling me asking me to go to the bar although they know that I AM QUITING...but they dont believe me. So last night i got several calls to come out, each time i said NO. then, my brother shows up this morning around 530am talking about last night...and how much fun it was, and alll our friends where out...i'm like "nice".
more so... I have a problem with xanax, and a even bigger problem with drinking and xanax and all he did this morning was talk about it...not a good way to start my day off at all. grrrrr I just listened and chugged coffee while giving him a burnt stare
and the sad thing is my brother and i grew up in a some what sober home, dad's been clean for 22 years we were raised in AA and NA so you'd think he'd show some compasion.
I just need to get over myself and just realize that i had more fun with my family sitting on the couch watching movies with my better half and my daughter than i would have if i would have if i'd gone out. plus my brother looked like **** this morning, and i awoke with ease!
sorry for the rambling...had to get it off my chest...gota justify it somehow!
more so... I have a problem with xanax, and a even bigger problem with drinking and xanax and all he did this morning was talk about it...not a good way to start my day off at all. grrrrr I just listened and chugged coffee while giving him a burnt stare
and the sad thing is my brother and i grew up in a some what sober home, dad's been clean for 22 years we were raised in AA and NA so you'd think he'd show some compasion.
I just need to get over myself and just realize that i had more fun with my family sitting on the couch watching movies with my better half and my daughter than i would have if i would have if i'd gone out. plus my brother looked like **** this morning, and i awoke with ease!
sorry for the rambling...had to get it off my chest...gota justify it somehow!
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That is a tough situation Nate...not nice of your brother and friends. It will take time but they will get it. When I was sober for those years people finally figured it out and left me alone a bit. One is too many and ten is not enough or "I'm a lush" is all it took me saying for people to finally figure it out. People who don't have a problem, or think they don't for that matter, have to be reminded over and over when you are trying to get better and stay strong. I would suggest sitting down with the brother one of these days and having a heart to heart with him. He may think this sobriety is just a temp thing for you and may not really believe that you are trying to make it stick. Make your efforts and wishes clear to him and he may better understand.
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That is a tough situation Nate...not nice of your brother and friends. It will take time but they will get it. When I was sober for those years people finally figured it out and left me alone a bit. One is too many and ten is not enough or "I'm a lush" is all it took me saying for people to finally figure it out. People who don't have a problem, or think they don't for that matter, have to be reminded over and over when you are trying to get better and stay strong. I would suggest sitting down with the brother one of these days and having a heart to heart with him. He may think this sobriety is just a temp thing for you and may not really believe that you are trying to make it stick. Make your efforts and wishes clear to him and he may better understand.
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I just wish someone could have followed me around for the past 15 years with a video camera documents my stupidity...though extremely depressing, i'm sure it would have helped.
and just from my last 2 posts I feel better getting this out in the open. thanks agian!
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Imagine how early we would have stopped our BS had we actually seen the way we were - I hear you on that. You seem to have a really great attitude and that is a great thing. I'm travelling right along with you...the support is all over this site Nate...keep up the g8 work!!!!
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Hello classmates!! Lovely morning here in my world. You all are doing so good and I'm proud of you all. Today is #16 for me. Yesterday a few thoughts inched in my mind but it wasn't overwhelming. I had some spare time on my hands, but realized spare time can be dangerous thing. I thought it through and reminded myself that each day I EARNED ( <------get it?) meant more to me than trying to have "just one". It was easier than I thought it would be and my concious is clear for making a positive decision.
So, here's to day 16 and a nice cup of coffee instead!! LOL!!
So, here's to day 16 and a nice cup of coffee instead!! LOL!!
Good morning all Septembers! I am Soph and I am back after a summer of trying to drink normally.
I am a high functioner. I can do my work at the office, I never drank during the day, and I exercise, and pick up my kids at school and even take my dogs to the dog park. All great on the outside: very sad on the inside. Wine is not my friend but sometimes it's been the one thing/constant that I use to help make friends or see friends or date men or whatever I use it for..and have since college.
Anyway I am back, committed, and happy to join the September 2010 family. (I wrote team and then changed it to family
I am on Day 4 and have been sleeping great although evenings are toughest. Eating more than usual to keep stomach full! Good but bad - you know what I mean!
Hugs to all...Soph
I am a high functioner. I can do my work at the office, I never drank during the day, and I exercise, and pick up my kids at school and even take my dogs to the dog park. All great on the outside: very sad on the inside. Wine is not my friend but sometimes it's been the one thing/constant that I use to help make friends or see friends or date men or whatever I use it for..and have since college.
Anyway I am back, committed, and happy to join the September 2010 family. (I wrote team and then changed it to family
I am on Day 4 and have been sleeping great although evenings are toughest. Eating more than usual to keep stomach full! Good but bad - you know what I mean!
Hugs to all...Soph
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welcome soph, and congrats on day four! keep that belly full of high protein, healthy fats and lower carbs and you wont gain to much...i promise the empty cals from tha alcohol is much much worse! lol, I'm kind of a health freak (yea i know and alcoholic that tries to eat right har har har) but i try to stick with a 60/20/20 Protein/fats/carbs...just thought i'd share
and agian! thanks for sharing and stay strong!! with every post i read i feel better about the choice that i'm making and i'm sure others feel the same!
and agian! thanks for sharing and stay strong!! with every post i read i feel better about the choice that i'm making and i'm sure others feel the same!
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Hey all days...day 13 here and though it was a rough night last night and a bit of a down morning, I had my noon meeting and took the afternoon off of work and feeling much better. The sleep thing is coming along...not great yet and still sweating profusely in the middle of the night, but getting there. Happy whatever day you are on...it's great to be alive..and imagine this...we will remember it tomorrow!
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