TOPIC: *Admit* *Accept* *Believe*
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TOPIC: *Admit* *Accept* *Believe*
Hi, Im Sharon and I'm an Alcoholic.
By the grace of my HP and people
like you here in SR I haven't found
it necessary to pick up a drink of
alcohol since 8-11-90.
For that and you I am truely grateful.
Everyone here has a story to share.
What is your?
In speaker meetings we r given an
hour to share, but here i'll condense
it. 20 yrs sober and 51 yrs of life to
share. YIKES..!!!!
A child. Daughter. Sister. Wife. Mother.
Born to working parents. Engineer,
Cosmetician. Middle class family.
2 brothers, 1 sister. 2nd oldest.
Chain of abuse from mother to me.
Verbal, physical, emotional.
Singled out. Preyed upon.
Outcast.
Fears, resentments built.
I left home at 19 after graduating
HS. after one last object was raised
to hit me. Never again was she
to tell me what to do.
The toll of her abuse on me
drove me to seek comfort in
alcohol, men, shopping, lieing,
stealing, munipulating.
A marriage of love and convienence
for 25yrs with 2 children.
I concealed my drinking very
well that no family members
knew i had a problem. All so
prim and proper with every
hair in place. Rigid.
Unhappy miserable and discontent
led me to infidelity, shame, remorse,
arguments.
Drinking numbed me and kepted
me on a rollercoaster and merry
go round of highs and lows.
Into my 7th yr. of marriage, I
had a horrible accident at 2am
returning from a club, running
into road construction less than
a mile from home. Hit a concret
culvert sitting on top the ground.
10 day stay in the hospital with
removal of spleen so i wouldnt
bleed to death. Numerous broken
bones, ribs, contusions.
I didnt drink for 3 months while
on meds as I healed quite nicely
to only assume like many times
before i could resume drinking
safely.
WRONG.
Feb.90 was my accident, Aug.90
I went out to club, returned to
another argument, then on a
dared I tried to end my miserable
life with a hand full of pills.
Intervention by family took place
Aug. 10th when my little ones
couldnt wake me for their last day
of Bible school. However....
A distant ringing of the phone in
my drowsy head right next to my
bed alarmed me as I weakingly
reached for it. My mother in law
called to find out where I was with
my kids for VBS.
OR......
Was it God letting me know He
wasnt thru with me yet?
Rehab began with Aug. 11, 1990
as my 1st full sober day. 2 weeks
and I was to be released. Halfway
house out of state was discussed
as I pleaded not to sent me away.
Upon agreement I stayed 28 days
and a 6 week outpatiant aftercare
program was issued.
I was handed the tools and
knowledge of a recovery program
that was to be my new way of
life without drinking.
I was told early on that I wouldnt
stay sober, but in my gut I wanted
to show them I would. So I did
whatever I needed to do following,
listening, absorbing all I could
of this so called program of recovery.
I *admitted* I had a drinking problem.
I *accepted* I had a drinking problem.
and...
I '*believed* I could over come this
drinking problem with faith in Something
greater than I to guide and protect me
as I lived a program of steps and principles
set down before me one day at a time.
20 yrs. sober from......
Aug. 11, 1990 to Aug. 11, 2010
Miracles as I call them have happened
in my life. Promises continue to be
granted to me as seen fit.
Today, I continue to share my own
experiences, strengths and hopes
with new comers in order to keep
what was so freely passed on to me.
That as long as I do I will be granted
another day sober living happy joyous
and free from this dreaded disease of
alcohol.
Today I am happily remarried.
We both have our AA recovery
program as a foundation to grow
upon.
My 2 children are grown and
living happy normal lives.
I have so much to be grateful
for today and having you my Sober
Recovery family and support
to share it with means even
more.
Thank You SR.
By the grace of my HP and people
like you here in SR I haven't found
it necessary to pick up a drink of
alcohol since 8-11-90.
For that and you I am truely grateful.
Everyone here has a story to share.
What is your?
In speaker meetings we r given an
hour to share, but here i'll condense
it. 20 yrs sober and 51 yrs of life to
share. YIKES..!!!!
A child. Daughter. Sister. Wife. Mother.
Born to working parents. Engineer,
Cosmetician. Middle class family.
2 brothers, 1 sister. 2nd oldest.
Chain of abuse from mother to me.
Verbal, physical, emotional.
Singled out. Preyed upon.
Outcast.
Fears, resentments built.
I left home at 19 after graduating
HS. after one last object was raised
to hit me. Never again was she
to tell me what to do.
The toll of her abuse on me
drove me to seek comfort in
alcohol, men, shopping, lieing,
stealing, munipulating.
A marriage of love and convienence
for 25yrs with 2 children.
I concealed my drinking very
well that no family members
knew i had a problem. All so
prim and proper with every
hair in place. Rigid.
Unhappy miserable and discontent
led me to infidelity, shame, remorse,
arguments.
Drinking numbed me and kepted
me on a rollercoaster and merry
go round of highs and lows.
Into my 7th yr. of marriage, I
had a horrible accident at 2am
returning from a club, running
into road construction less than
a mile from home. Hit a concret
culvert sitting on top the ground.
10 day stay in the hospital with
removal of spleen so i wouldnt
bleed to death. Numerous broken
bones, ribs, contusions.
I didnt drink for 3 months while
on meds as I healed quite nicely
to only assume like many times
before i could resume drinking
safely.
WRONG.
Feb.90 was my accident, Aug.90
I went out to club, returned to
another argument, then on a
dared I tried to end my miserable
life with a hand full of pills.
Intervention by family took place
Aug. 10th when my little ones
couldnt wake me for their last day
of Bible school. However....
A distant ringing of the phone in
my drowsy head right next to my
bed alarmed me as I weakingly
reached for it. My mother in law
called to find out where I was with
my kids for VBS.
OR......
Was it God letting me know He
wasnt thru with me yet?
Rehab began with Aug. 11, 1990
as my 1st full sober day. 2 weeks
and I was to be released. Halfway
house out of state was discussed
as I pleaded not to sent me away.
Upon agreement I stayed 28 days
and a 6 week outpatiant aftercare
program was issued.
I was handed the tools and
knowledge of a recovery program
that was to be my new way of
life without drinking.
I was told early on that I wouldnt
stay sober, but in my gut I wanted
to show them I would. So I did
whatever I needed to do following,
listening, absorbing all I could
of this so called program of recovery.
I *admitted* I had a drinking problem.
I *accepted* I had a drinking problem.
and...
I '*believed* I could over come this
drinking problem with faith in Something
greater than I to guide and protect me
as I lived a program of steps and principles
set down before me one day at a time.
20 yrs. sober from......
Aug. 11, 1990 to Aug. 11, 2010
Miracles as I call them have happened
in my life. Promises continue to be
granted to me as seen fit.
Today, I continue to share my own
experiences, strengths and hopes
with new comers in order to keep
what was so freely passed on to me.
That as long as I do I will be granted
another day sober living happy joyous
and free from this dreaded disease of
alcohol.
Today I am happily remarried.
We both have our AA recovery
program as a foundation to grow
upon.
My 2 children are grown and
living happy normal lives.
I have so much to be grateful
for today and having you my Sober
Recovery family and support
to share it with means even
more.
Thank You SR.
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