I just wanted to express that I am having an extremely hard time right now. I have been on a dry drunk. That is how I found this website in the first place.
I am sharing this for the new person and those not so new to sobriety. I am not going to pick up a drink
, though. I don't need to do that. Over the past year, I have turned less and less to my AA program and sought fulfillment in some unhealthy ways. It brought me to my knees but I repeat, I don't need to drink over it.
I am facing my actions and the emotions they create (and they are hell) but I don't need to pick up
. I am at the raw, open place of pure desperation and I am not going to drink.
I am at the place full of the possibility of growth and recommitment to my recovery and I am choosing that over a drink.
Thank you for being here. I am heading to a 12 step retreat today and I don't need to pick up over the pain that I am feeling.
I need you and thank you so much for being available to me.