Death, 67 days minus one and feeling strong
Death, 67 days minus one and feeling strong
Today I received an e-mail. My mother died.
Two weeks ago I wrote here that my father had found my email address and against my wishes had sought to contact me and as a result I fell of the wagon.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...hours-1-a.html
I was pre-warned and when the mail from my aunt arrived I could read it with some detachment. I could see the manipulation for what it was and the heart string pulling left me cold.
I will grieve (as I have grieved throughout my life for the relationship that never was) for the damaged sad woman who gave birth to me here in my new country and I am so relieved not to have to attend her funeral.
I will not drink and share this day which also happens to be our 23th wedding anniversary with my equally sober husband.
Bless you all for being here and for you journey towards sobriety which I am able share with you.
Two weeks ago I wrote here that my father had found my email address and against my wishes had sought to contact me and as a result I fell of the wagon.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...hours-1-a.html
I was pre-warned and when the mail from my aunt arrived I could read it with some detachment. I could see the manipulation for what it was and the heart string pulling left me cold.
I will grieve (as I have grieved throughout my life for the relationship that never was) for the damaged sad woman who gave birth to me here in my new country and I am so relieved not to have to attend her funeral.
I will not drink and share this day which also happens to be our 23th wedding anniversary with my equally sober husband.
Bless you all for being here and for you journey towards sobriety which I am able share with you.
Margareth, I'm sorry for all that you've had to endure & for the sadness you feel regarding your family. I'm proud of you for staying sober and clearheaded to face this. It's the only way - and I wish I'd realized it many years ago. Trying to kill the pain only keeps us from growing and moving forward.
Congratulations to you and your husband - 23 years together is wonderful.
Congratulations to you and your husband - 23 years together is wonderful.
Sunny Side Up
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Location: Sth Australia
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I think I may understand a little Margaret. I hadnt seen my father for 3 years before his death. I was there when he died and I did go to his funeral. I was very angry at him for years but also over the years I have slowly accepted 'he was who he was' 'it was what it was' and I cant change that, so this helped me move forward. I hope you find peace sweetie.
JJ
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