Hello, newbie here.
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Join Date: Jul 2010
Location: Montana
Posts: 142
Hello, newbie here.
Greetings from the great State of Montana!
My name is MTWildflower, and I am an alcoholic.
This is the first time I've ever said that, because of personal shame, because I thought it was something you had to try to become or because of the old-fashioned notions of being a bad person, or weak-willed, etc.
I don't know how this is going to go, but I've heard that in meetings there is sometimes a prayer/moment of silence for those who still suffer. I cry every time I think of it, because it is so wonderful to know that people all over the world take time to think of people like me.
My name is MTWildflower, and I am an alcoholic.
This is the first time I've ever said that, because of personal shame, because I thought it was something you had to try to become or because of the old-fashioned notions of being a bad person, or weak-willed, etc.
I don't know how this is going to go, but I've heard that in meetings there is sometimes a prayer/moment of silence for those who still suffer. I cry every time I think of it, because it is so wonderful to know that people all over the world take time to think of people like me.
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Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
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Welcome Wildflower to the SR family!
I'm glad you found us. I wish you the strength and passion to get and stay sober one day at a time.
I don't go to near as many meetings as I used to, but really enjoy when I do go. I get a feeling of great compassion and understanding from the people in those rooms.
This site has been a godsend to me the last couple years. I've gotten so much support and encouragement that I never could give up on myself or feel hopeless for too long. And after many false starts I've finally reached seven months sober! That used to seem impossible. But I did it.
You can too. Give it your all, whether it's AA or counseling or this site or any number of methods for staying sober. I'm so glad I found this place. It's saved my life I'm sure. I'm also blessed with a wonderful counselor. SHe helps me in all areas of my life, not just staying sober.
I wish you the best. We have a lot of support and good info here so avail yourself of it.
I'm glad you found us. I wish you the strength and passion to get and stay sober one day at a time. I don't go to near as many meetings as I used to, but really enjoy when I do go. I get a feeling of great compassion and understanding from the people in those rooms.This site has been a godsend to me the last couple years. I've gotten so much support and encouragement that I never could give up on myself or feel hopeless for too long. And after many false starts I've finally reached seven months sober! That used to seem impossible. But I did it.
You can too. Give it your all, whether it's AA or counseling or this site or any number of methods for staying sober. I'm so glad I found this place. It's saved my life I'm sure. I'm also blessed with a wonderful counselor. SHe helps me in all areas of my life, not just staying sober.
I wish you the best. We have a lot of support and good info here so avail yourself of it.
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Join Date: Feb 2010
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Welcome MTWildflower. I am glad you are here. Keep coming back and keep posting. I think you'll find a lot of caring, wise people here who can offer lots of support.
This site has been a big help to me.
Wishing you all the best and will certainly remember you in my prayers. Heck, I'll do it right after hitting the reply button just to be sure!
This site has been a big help to me.
Wishing you all the best and will certainly remember you in my prayers. Heck, I'll do it right after hitting the reply button just to be sure!
Glad you are here. You are not alone. Help is possible. We do recover. 
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Join Date: Jul 2010
Location: Lexington Kentucky
Posts: 36
you made a great couragious choice MT! I just joined yesterday, and I too have the demon. This is a great place and we are here for one another. You have taken a huge first step: admitting to yourself that you have a problem and are no longer in denial. It will be a long road, and if you mess up, itll be okay. A wise man once said,"....fall seven times rise 8..." you just hang in there bro and we are here for you!
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
Join Date: Jun 2002
Location: Serene In Dixie
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Because you mentioned AA meetings.....you might find this interesting.
It's what many groups use to begin a meeting ...
Good to see you here with us....Welcome....
It's what many groups use to begin a meeting ...
The AA Preamble
ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from alcoholism. The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking. There are no dues or fees for A.A. membership; we are self-supporting through our own contributions. A.A. is not allied with any sect, denomination, politics, organization or institution; does not wish to engage in any controversy; neither endorses nor opposes any causes. Our primary purpose is to stay sober and help other alcoholics to achieve sobriety.
ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS is a fellowship of men and women who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover from alcoholism. The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking. There are no dues or fees for A.A. membership; we are self-supporting through our own contributions. A.A. is not allied with any sect, denomination, politics, organization or institution; does not wish to engage in any controversy; neither endorses nor opposes any causes. Our primary purpose is to stay sober and help other alcoholics to achieve sobriety.
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Mississippi
Posts: 7,910
Welcome MTW! You're making the best decision you can possibly make right now in your life, so give yourself a hug for that! It's scary to think about being an alcoholic, but I found that when I finally accepted it, the answer seemed pretty clear. Sometimes I still can't believe I'm an alcoholic, but then I step back and look at the evidence...... and we can call it what we like: alcohol abuse, alcohol addiction, or whatever. I don't think it matters as long as we can see that we're out of control when it comes to drinking.
Didn't know if I could get sober, but taking it one day at a time really helped. Keep posting and reading - I'm glad you're here!
Didn't know if I could get sober, but taking it one day at a time really helped. Keep posting and reading - I'm glad you're here!
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Join Date: Jul 2010
Location: Montana
Posts: 142
Thanks. I've been so afraid to say the "A" word that I needed to say it at least once to punch through that barrier.
I am an alcoholic.
I'm still a bit surprised that the world didn't end when I said that.
After that new flash, back to dealing with my problem.
Thanks for your patience as I start to figure things out. There will be some problems I have that others don't (like saying the "A" word), but please don't imagine that I think that everyone does or should have the same hang-ups I do.
Wildflowers come in all colors and sizes.
P.S. I think I have a smiley addiction now.
I am an alcoholic.
I'm still a bit surprised that the world didn't end when I said that.
After that new flash, back to dealing with my problem.
Thanks for your patience as I start to figure things out. There will be some problems I have that others don't (like saying the "A" word), but please don't imagine that I think that everyone does or should have the same hang-ups I do.
Wildflowers come in all colors and sizes.
P.S. I think I have a smiley addiction now.
Snarf Snarf
Join Date: Mar 2010
Location: ATL
Posts: 835
MTW, I can almost guarantee you that the crazy hang-ups, behaviors, ways of thinking, and other things you've experienced or will experienced are shared by many on this site. I used to think I was the only person in the world who did certain things, and then I find out that a lot of alcoholics knew exactly where I had been.
Thanks for joining us. Lots of good people on this site with tons of knowledge and experience. It's a neat place to be.
Thanks for joining us. Lots of good people on this site with tons of knowledge and experience. It's a neat place to be.
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Land down under
Posts: 433
Welcome MTW
I can relate. The moment I admitted I was an alcoholic I felt a great burden lift from my shoulders. It is what it is and now I can deal with it. As you can.
Taking one day at a time, i have been able to stay sober for 101 days. A new life is possible.
I can relate. The moment I admitted I was an alcoholic I felt a great burden lift from my shoulders. It is what it is and now I can deal with it. As you can.
Taking one day at a time, i have been able to stay sober for 101 days. A new life is possible.
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Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: us
Posts: 115
Originally Posted by Snarf 
MTW, I can almost guarantee you that the crazy hang-ups, behaviors, ways of thinking, and other things you've experienced or will experienced are shared by many on this site. I used to think I was the only person in the world who did certain things, and then I find out that a lot of alcoholics knew exactly where I had been.
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