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New here .. hello
This is my very first post. I have been lurking a little bit but realized it was time I said something. Im 33 years old and am an alcoholic. Im not the person who drinks everyday or by myself but I drink beyond all control almost every weekend. I never touched alcohol until college and then I met my new best party friend.
I considered myself a "social drinker" and used to life the problem was, I was always social. I can't seem to control any of my decisions I make after I start drinking. I have amassed all sorts of legal problems and am in fact just arrested for a 2nd DWI. I always though Im not hurting anyone. But 2 DWIs? its clear I am endangering many.
I always believed I was in control but the reality is I never had control. Alcohol was my social escape plan to make me loosen up. My friends would say I drank too much and acted like an idiot but I just shrugged it off because I would say, "you get drunk too and act crazy."
Denial was my biggest problem because I never believed I had a problem. I just felt I was in the wrong place at the wrong time. My stupidity has led me to where I am. But I found hope in the darkness of what I have done. I attended my first AA class two days ago and have made 2 since. Walking in there took everything I had but I basically sat there and just cried.
I am now focused on leaving my old life behind and with help and the power of Jesus I believe I can move on. My daily battle is just letting go. I have been partying like I was 21 for almost 12 years now. Im very afraid as I realize I need to cut ties with all those people who encourage me to drink. Ive always been afraid of the unknown but I guess the reality that giving God control means he will take care of things.
Change is a process not an event.
I considered myself a "social drinker" and used to life the problem was, I was always social. I can't seem to control any of my decisions I make after I start drinking. I have amassed all sorts of legal problems and am in fact just arrested for a 2nd DWI. I always though Im not hurting anyone. But 2 DWIs? its clear I am endangering many.
I always believed I was in control but the reality is I never had control. Alcohol was my social escape plan to make me loosen up. My friends would say I drank too much and acted like an idiot but I just shrugged it off because I would say, "you get drunk too and act crazy."
Denial was my biggest problem because I never believed I had a problem. I just felt I was in the wrong place at the wrong time. My stupidity has led me to where I am. But I found hope in the darkness of what I have done. I attended my first AA class two days ago and have made 2 since. Walking in there took everything I had but I basically sat there and just cried.
I am now focused on leaving my old life behind and with help and the power of Jesus I believe I can move on. My daily battle is just letting go. I have been partying like I was 21 for almost 12 years now. Im very afraid as I realize I need to cut ties with all those people who encourage me to drink. Ive always been afraid of the unknown but I guess the reality that giving God control means he will take care of things.
Change is a process not an event.
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Mississippi
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Glad you're here, hearnerules! I think that's one of the hallmarks of alcoholism: once we take that first drink, we don't want to stop. I spent years trying to drink without consequences and finally realized it just wasn't going to happen!
Keep strong and hang onto your faith!
Keep strong and hang onto your faith!
I'm glad you're making positive changes. Living sober really rocks!Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
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Location: Serene In Dixie
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I found a whole group of new party people.........
in the fellowship of AA.
"We are not a glum lot" is a bit from our text book
Alcoholics Anonymous....also called the Big Book.
AA members do all sorts of fun things otside of meetings.
You will find sober does not mean dull....
Glad you are here....Welcome....
BB quote.1st Edition
in the fellowship of AA.
"We are not a glum lot" is a bit from our text book
Alcoholics Anonymous....also called the Big Book.
AA members do all sorts of fun things otside of meetings.
You will find sober does not mean dull....
Glad you are here....Welcome....
BB quote.1st Edition
Wandering Student of Life
Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: MSP MN
Posts: 126
Welcome welcome welcome 
Whew, 12 years is a long time - but think about how smart getting sober is now, instead of even another year later? It's never a good idea to pick up a drink, but it's always a good idea to spend another hour sober. Your future self will be very happy you decided to stick around and post here.
Blessed be,
WW
Whew, 12 years is a long time - but think about how smart getting sober is now, instead of even another year later? It's never a good idea to pick up a drink, but it's always a good idea to spend another hour sober. Your future self will be very happy you decided to stick around and post here.
Blessed be,
WW
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Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: los angeles, ca
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Hey Welcome! 12 years wasted is better than 25 years like myself. Good for you, for wanting to get sober now, it will be the best thing you've ever done and I only have 17 days sober! Just wait..sobriety feels so much better than drunk or hungover! Post and read here everyday it really makes a HUGE difference!
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