90 days
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90 days
So...here I am at 90 days. It is unfortunate that I also happen to be going through a bit of stress at the moment but I do want to acknowledge my achievement.
This journey we call life is one that I used to take for granted, well actually not only took for granted but really didn't give two hoots about. It is ironic that during my drinking days I was looked after by a force greater than myself, because believe me there were many times when I probably should not have come out looking so good.
I lived for my daughters. My beautiful girls who have put up with so much crap from me through my drinking. They always knew I loved them, but they still had to watch their mum self destructing and at times making an absolute idiot of herself. (I cringe to think of these times) They are my rocks and it is humbling to see how proud they are of me for taking control of my drinking.
Now, I still live for my daughters, but more importantly I live for myself. I am starting to like myself for the first time in my life. What is past is past, I now look forward to a bright future but I do this one day at a time.
The current stresses in life will be there regardless if I drink or not, so better to face them with a clear head to make wise decisions. I talk to my higher power on a daily basis for guidance and strength. I do not ask for more, my problems are mine to solve and I will solve them.
To my SR family - I love you all. We are all unique people, with different experiences, yet we all come together through a common thing called addiction which means we can all bond instantly. I may have said this before but it is like being wrapped in a warm blanket.
I look forward to continuing this journey with you all.
This journey we call life is one that I used to take for granted, well actually not only took for granted but really didn't give two hoots about. It is ironic that during my drinking days I was looked after by a force greater than myself, because believe me there were many times when I probably should not have come out looking so good.
I lived for my daughters. My beautiful girls who have put up with so much crap from me through my drinking. They always knew I loved them, but they still had to watch their mum self destructing and at times making an absolute idiot of herself. (I cringe to think of these times) They are my rocks and it is humbling to see how proud they are of me for taking control of my drinking.
Now, I still live for my daughters, but more importantly I live for myself. I am starting to like myself for the first time in my life. What is past is past, I now look forward to a bright future but I do this one day at a time.
The current stresses in life will be there regardless if I drink or not, so better to face them with a clear head to make wise decisions. I talk to my higher power on a daily basis for guidance and strength. I do not ask for more, my problems are mine to solve and I will solve them.
To my SR family - I love you all. We are all unique people, with different experiences, yet we all come together through a common thing called addiction which means we can all bond instantly. I may have said this before but it is like being wrapped in a warm blanket.
I look forward to continuing this journey with you all.
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Way to go on 90 days, ozgoddess! Three months is a major, and it only gets better. Isn't it great to find out who you really are. Wishing you the best of the best on this new journey of discovery.
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Stay Strong my friend you are well on your way!!
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Congrats OzG!
I think I had that same benevolent force looking after me too in my drinking days...I needed it...
I think it's still there to be honest, but it's content to look on a bit more now... I'm learning to deal with stuff myself...it's a necessary thing for me....all part of the learning curve of how to live sober, and wanting to be that way.
You're not alone tho - we're all here for you if you need us
well done, again
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I think I had that same benevolent force looking after me too in my drinking days...I needed it...
I think it's still there to be honest, but it's content to look on a bit more now... I'm learning to deal with stuff myself...it's a necessary thing for me....all part of the learning curve of how to live sober, and wanting to be that way.
You're not alone tho - we're all here for you if you need us
well done, again
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90 days!!!!! That's really a milestone, ozG!! I loved this part: It feels so good to know what a clear head feels like again! Way to go!
The current stresses in life will be there regardless if I drink or not, so better to face them with a clear head to make wise decisions.
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Originally Posted by ozgoddess 
Now, I still live for my daughters, but more importantly I live for myself. I am starting to like myself for the first time in my life. What is past is past, I now look forward to a bright future but I do this one day at a time.
I look forward to continuing this journey with you all.
Great post Oz,
Thanks for being here at SR, and our April Class
.....and Congratulations on the BIG 90 !!!!
Stay Strong Ozgoddess
Grateful in Carolina
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OzG - I'm so happy for you. What a wonderful achievement. After the 90-day mark I started to relax a bit & felt so much better. At first, I couldn't quite believe I was actually doing it.
You're right - this is an amazing community. We're from many nations, all ages & backgrounds - but we hold each other up and pull each other through the rough spots. There's no place like SR.
You're right - this is an amazing community. We're from many nations, all ages & backgrounds - but we hold each other up and pull each other through the rough spots. There's no place like SR.
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Congrats on three months sober!!
I feel like this too! (only today it feels like a nice cold pool!
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To my SR family - I love you all. We are all unique people, with different experiences, yet we all come together through a common thing called addiction which means we can all bond instantly. I may have said this before but it is like being wrapped in a warm blanket.
(only today it feels like a nice cold pool!)
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What an amazing post, Ozg ~ congratulations on 90 days - that's an awesome achievement!
Couldn't agree more that while it stings to look back on some of the crap, I'm also grateful to have come through it relatively unscathed (by the grace of God) and was given another chance at making this thing called life worthwhile.
I'm also grateful that although we all met through a monitor and keyboard, the bonds we've formed and what we share in our hearts continues to grow stronger each and every day.
Here's to lots more of those sobering days!
Couldn't agree more that while it stings to look back on some of the crap, I'm also grateful to have come through it relatively unscathed (by the grace of God) and was given another chance at making this thing called life worthwhile.
I'm also grateful that although we all met through a monitor and keyboard, the bonds we've formed and what we share in our hearts continues to grow stronger each and every day.
Here's to lots more of those sobering days!
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