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Day 6 - i am self centered!

Old 07-03-2010, 06:03 AM
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Day 6 - i am self centered!

I needed some work today. Made it through the week without drinking. And couldn't wait for Saturday to get here. This morning I woke up at the crack of dawn, walking around the house, I am nit-picking everything that is wrong in the house. From cleaning to minor maintenance and being hungry. Silently in my mind blaming my wife, who has stood by me for 28 years through all my drunks. What bullcrap! I started to think, do I realize what I am thinking. Where have I been? So I took off on a run with the sun and my Lord. This helped to clear the cobwebs. This is the way I have always been. Looking to put blame somewhere else, when I'm the one that should be helping.

Meditation today says, "blessed are they that hunger and thirst after righteousness, for they shall be filled." Much of life is spiritually unexplored country. Only the consecrated and loving people who walk with God in spirit can these great spiritually discoveries be revealed. Keep going forward and keep growing in righteousness.

While running I ask my Lord, "Am I this far removed from you, that I don't understand who I am? Did you walk this earth so long ago that I don't know who you are? His answer to me was "No" to both questions.

Funny, my wife just handed me a cup of coffee. Today, my goal is to be sober, righteous, clean the house and watch the World Cup sober. Something I could not do last weekend. This addiction really is moment by moment - 24 hours a day.
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Sounds like you're definitely on the right (running) track, Tom

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Old 07-03-2010, 02:09 PM
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Good for you for focusing on yourself and your recovery!
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