HFA

Didn't make it. I stopped for 2 days , then binged 1, then stopped 2 days and binged last two nites.

As I've said hundreds of times, this is really going to be the one.

Hangover is bad, but I deserve it i suppose. Was an hr late for work, and have not been very productive. I'm sick of hiding the beer and smokes from everyone. My girlfriend thinks I've beaten it and have it all under control. She doenst even know about the cigs. I'm so nervous about being caught by her or my kids when they are over. I want to be the person who beat this and got it under control that they think I am.

so yeah, let's hope this is the one.

Kjell

Hi HFA-

Good job coming here and posting about this. It sounds like you've tried to quit before.

Late for work, not being productive, lying to your girlfriend, anxiety about your lies and drinking - it's all right there in your post. I can relate to the madness and insanity of it all for sure - I remember it well.

I had to change myself in order to get better. What's your plan this time?

HFA

Well this site for one.

I also need to get out from in front of the PC, thats where I drink. I bought an old car to tinker with, so that will get me outside.

There is a SMART recovery group that meets on wed, in a little I will go check them out.

I have had good success with some supplements I took in the past. Seemed to work, but then I got lazy and stopped taking them.

Spend more time with my kids and my girlfriend.

Try like hell.

Thanks for the question.

NewMe11109

Hi HFA -

Welcome. This alcohol thing is really tough. I know.

I highly recommend that you start some sort of program of recovery (yes, good idea to go to SMART).

Unlike most other things in life, alcoholism usually requires us to depend on others while working hard on our recovery.

Just "trying like hell", in my experience, won't do it.

Kjell

The smart meeting on Wednesday is a great start.

When I was getting sober, in those first early days, I went to AA just b/c I didn't know what else to do. It turned out I kept going and here I am.

I hope you find the same in Smart.

Dee74

I got sick of hiding stuff too. Living free is such a relief HFA.

Glad you're back on the right road.
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alexvt

No worries.. Just start over again today. Still have time to make the June group!
Have Faith and try and again. Thats all you can do, at least your back trying again! Be proud of that.

XO

traderjane

Hi HFA! Good for you to check out SMART. Let us know how it goes. I have really found their meetings to be quite helpful. Great to see you on the June thread as well!

Laura