spilledmilk

The funny thing you said about the warm feeling starting in your stomach and going to your hands is similar to what i told a friend of mine when she asked me why I liked drinking so much. i told her it just warms me up, I can feel it running through my body mainly my arms. Drinking also made me feel invincible, not depressed or at least easier to ignore when your drunk. Sociable, maybe too sociable, Adventurous. Laughing. Also just liked that I didn't have to think about anything to say or do, I just did it. Which now being sober was actually a huge mistake. I thought a lot of the things I said or did while drunk were going to be as funny to everyone else as they were to me. They weren't I hate all the things I did while drunk, but that feeling it gives you I still think about. Why can't I feel like that all the time. Or if only I didn't screw up so much or only got kind of drunk I would still get to feel like that.