StevenD

Wow, two weeks - Who am I?? Ha.

I am so grateful. I kind of don't recognize myself today. The old Steven would be coming up with excuses to drink and going out to get it. That's exactly what I did two weeks ago when I said a nd did all kinds of insane things and ended up in jail for 7 hours. I remember being drunk in that jail and sitting there defiantly thinking that it was no big deal and that all of the cops could go to hell.

The next day I woke up scared to death and so sick. Shaking, vomiting, diarrhea, fear, dread and more. Sweating nonstop and not sleeping, unable to eat.

I can't believe the huge shift in thinking that has occurred. Today I still don't want to drink WAY more than I want to drink. I have been waiting/hoping for that feeling for the last 5 years. I truly didn't think it would ever come. I am starting to think rationally and logically - well, at least I think so. I've realized that I can't really trust my thinking so I run everything by my friends in recovery and my family before I act. They tell me that I'm being WAY more rational so I choose to believe them. :-)

I still have plenty of consequences to face. I know today that if I don't drink I will get through them and be able to truly move on to a new place in my life. This painful period is helping me to grow. I feel that today and know it to be true.

This is a great day to be sober. I choose to not drink today! And that feels GREAT!!

Have a good one,

Steven

intention

This is a good idea, Steven.

Well done on 14 days.

Marlow

Two weeks feels great don't it?! Keep up the good work and keep us updated.

DayTrader

Keep it up and you'll never have to relive that crap again. Recovery frickin ROCKS.

HumbleBee

Way to go, Steven! Congratulations on 14 days!

And good for you for seeking support and help from other sober friends and family before you act...that's really important; glad they're there for you.

Also, I'm always so grateful to be living in recovery when folks come along, like you just did, and describe exacly how I felt the last time I drank:

I recall this memory vividly and know it's not someplace I ever want to rerturn to. Thanks, Steven!

crystal67

14 days! WOW!! excellent

Keep it up, your setting a wonderful example for the rest of us to follow :-)

sobermax

Thanks Steven,

congratulations on this milestone.

Without the support of other people, I wouldn't be sitting here posting, but 'out there' slowly dying.

I recognise the feelings you describe precisely and never want them back.

x

Severian

Awesome

gardner

Way to go! Those first few weeks can be the hardest! Nice job.

least

Two weeks is about the time it took me to start feeling really 'good' again. And it gets better, it really does. Keep on staying sober one glorious day at a time.

Brucel

I know it's hard to believe it gets better, BUT IT DOES. Congratulations on your two weeks!!! God Bless