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New, but seasoned
Hi All,
I've been drinking off and on for over 20 years. Most recently, it has progressed and gotten much worse. Destroyed my marriage, alsmost lost my job and is comphromising my health at the current time. I'm afraid of what hasn't happened "YET", but will following the path I'm on. When I was married, I went to AA for a 7 month period with no drinking. Wife didn't love me anymore and said the no drinking thing was a hassle for her. Now almost 2 years divorced, I have upped the drinking ever since. Trying to quite but am having a hard time. AA and me don't fit because I'm a bit introverted. I am ok with the religious aspect but terrible in group sitiations. This site is great and I'd just like to share that.
Thanks!
I've been drinking off and on for over 20 years. Most recently, it has progressed and gotten much worse. Destroyed my marriage, alsmost lost my job and is comphromising my health at the current time. I'm afraid of what hasn't happened "YET", but will following the path I'm on. When I was married, I went to AA for a 7 month period with no drinking. Wife didn't love me anymore and said the no drinking thing was a hassle for her. Now almost 2 years divorced, I have upped the drinking ever since. Trying to quite but am having a hard time. AA and me don't fit because I'm a bit introverted. I am ok with the religious aspect but terrible in group sitiations. This site is great and I'd just like to share that.
Thanks!
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Join Date: Apr 2010
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Hi ironlung - I've gotten sober in the past and relapsed, too. I've only been sober about 40 days, but I know this time it has to stick. I could feel my health starting to suffer, and I was spending too many mornings in the bed hungover. Alcohol is a one way ticket you know..... I hope you keep posting and reading - it sure helped me!
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Join Date: Aug 2007
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Hi Ironlung! I did the same thing, increased my drinking during times of trouble and change. Instead of helping, it just made everything more horrible and unmanageable. We want to forget our problems, feel relaxed - but when we sober up all the junk is still there, along with the new stuff caused by getting drunk.
I drank for longer than you, and in the end I was drinking 24/7. There was no control at all anymore for me - ever. Death was on the horizon. When I found SR I was comforted by all the people who were just like me. If they could do it, so could I. No one else in my life understood where I'd been. I hope you find inspiration here, and will be able to have a new life - one filled with hope and joy. Let us know how you are.
I drank for longer than you, and in the end I was drinking 24/7. There was no control at all anymore for me - ever. Death was on the horizon. When I found SR I was comforted by all the people who were just like me. If they could do it, so could I. No one else in my life understood where I'd been. I hope you find inspiration here, and will be able to have a new life - one filled with hope and joy. Let us know how you are.
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Thanks for everyones replies.
I feel that this site gives me hope. The past month, I hit some all time lows. I thought that hitting a rock bottom would pull me out of it but my rock bottom may be death. I have a lot to loose, I have a 5 year old son who is my life and I drink around him which tears me apart. I have good freinds who support me quitting. I have a good job that I like. I am going to a counselor now which is helping. I am learning a lot from reading other posts on this site. I know if I don't change, it will end in devastation. Denial is a horrible thing, I think at least I'm at the point where I no longer deny that my drinking is a major and catostrophic problem.
I feel that this site gives me hope. The past month, I hit some all time lows. I thought that hitting a rock bottom would pull me out of it but my rock bottom may be death. I have a lot to loose, I have a 5 year old son who is my life and I drink around him which tears me apart. I have good freinds who support me quitting. I have a good job that I like. I am going to a counselor now which is helping. I am learning a lot from reading other posts on this site. I know if I don't change, it will end in devastation. Denial is a horrible thing, I think at least I'm at the point where I no longer deny that my drinking is a major and catostrophic problem.
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Join Date: May 2010
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Originally Posted by ironlung 
........AA and me don't fit because I'm a bit introverted......
......I am ..... terrible in group situations.
......I am ..... terrible in group situations.
There were a lot of things I didn't like about AA and HATED about AA......but I hated what I was becoming more.
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Daytrader, to be honest I don't get your sense of humor. That said, your point is taken and realized, I am not against going to AA again, despite me wanting to drink after a meeting because of the anxitey. If it will help me getter better then I will do it, I'm really tired of it all and definetely hate what I've become.
On another note, I need help with getting a sponser, I've never had one, even going to AA for 7 months. Any help is greatly appreciated.
On another note, I need help with getting a sponser, I've never had one, even going to AA for 7 months. Any help is greatly appreciated.
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