Aliss

Hi.

A dear friend referred me to this site. I am happy to be here.

My problem haha.

I can't stop....but for maybe one or 2 days at a time, usually those days I'm sick...

I have no idea how this came to be, and how it will all turn out.

Is scared.

Thanks for having me.

Dee74

Hi Aliss

I lot of people come here scared, anxious, not knowing what exactly to do or if they can do it.

I was one of them

Have you seen a Dr yet?
or ever checked out a recovery group like AA or one of the others like SMART?

those are two good suggestions for somewhere to start

Keep posting here too - you'll find a lot of support - you're not alone

welcome!
D

Aliss

Thanks.

I have been to AA then I just stopped going, always made up excuses, even though I loved being there. I havent told my doctor yet, but I am going to now.

I am scared of myself when I drink, I am excited to leave that behind.

I turn into a very bad person.

loveon2legs

Hi Aliss! and Welcome to SR!! you are going to find alot of support here, from alot of wonderful people!! I'm here everyday!!
I didn't like who I was either when I was drinking...one minute I would be happy.. the next minute yelling and being nasty....so many awful things have happened over the years due to my alcoholic behaviour, I'm 131 days sober and it feels wonderful!! life still isn't easy...and never will be.. but it has become mangeable...things just come together....as I'm sure you will find when the days awayfrom the bottle get bigger and bigger.
((Big Hugs))

Aliss

Thank you.

I can't wait for bigger better days.

Big hugs to you too.

Hevyn

Aliss, so glad to meet you! I was just like you when I joined almost 3 yrs. ago. I just read at first, and gathered up the courage to change my life. I've never been the same since finding this place and all the wonderful people who live here.

You have the desire to change your life, and that's something to be proud of. Many addicts never reach that point - never realize the thing they're using to make themselves feel better is sucking the life out of them. You can turn it all around and have the life you were meant to. Keep talking to us.

Aliss

Thanks Hevyn, I'm glad to be here and intend on stayin

OZboy

glad you joined us... Oz..

Aliss

:ghug3me too.

Rev

Aliss!! I am really stoked to see you here! Did I tell you everyone here was cool or what? I hope knowing everyone here helps you as much as it did me, and I'm really happy I can be here to help you out in this.

Rev

Anna

Hi Aliss,

I'm so glad you found us.

You will find lots of support here, so keep reading and posting.

Aliss

Thank you for the warm welcome guys.

Hey hey Rev!

I'm glad you are helping me too.

artsoul

Welcome, Aliss! You've come to a great place and I'm glad you're here. I remember being very scared and feeling so alone when I first got here. I stayed close to SR and it's worked so far (over a month now). Hang in there and keep posting - it really does get better!

Aliss

Wow, so I have returned.

Umm haven't been sobre since i was here last, my life is in shambles.

My license was suspended.

I just got fired from a job I loved.

I'm pale and feel sick almost everyday i am sobre.

Tonight I went to my first AA meeting since I quit going a year ago.

I hope this works this time.

I am willing to put fourth the effort and am commited to going to a meeting everyday this week....and hopefully the week after, and the week after that.

I am willing to try and save myself, because I am the only one who can make that choice.

I am willing to realise that I am worth it.

thank you.

least

You are so right: you're worth it. I am glad you're recommitting to sobriety. I tried and failed to stay sober so many times but here I am coming up on ten months. So it IS possible, if I can do it so can you.

Aliss

thanks

and congrats on your ten months!!

artsoul

So sorry to hear of your circumstances. I never thought I'd allow my drinking to get bad, but I found out (after going back to it for the third time) that I'm just like every other alcoholic. Given enough time I would've lost even more, including my health.

You're here and that's great - it's hard to admit defeat but it can also be the start of something much, much better. Hug and prayers.....

Aliss

thank you.

Dee74

Glad you're back Aliss
D

lildawg

I want to be the second person to say "if I can do it, you can, too."

Like you talked about in your original post from June, I became a person I didn't like when I was drunk. As you've seen yourself do, I screwed up many aspects of my life.

However . . .

I have been sober for 2 years, 8 months, and 26 days. I left behind that person I didn't like and have recently started to rebuild myself. I am slowly straightening out the messes I made in various aspects of my life.

You can do this, too. Just do what they say at AA. Keep going back. Look for the positives in life and focus on those.

Welcome back.