cscs

Hi everyone. I am so excited to see a June 2010 group. Makes me feel like I am not alone. Day 1 (for the third time in 2 years) coming to a close. Laura, when I read your post about how you would come home from the pool and have a glass of wine - that's me. I have two young boys at home and around 4:00ish I start to get the "itch". It was getting to the point where I would STRUGGLE to take one night off a week. And unlike my husband, I am not one who can just have one glass or one beer and be done. Anyways, thank you all for your strength, and I am so happy to be a part of this group!

sleepie

I am a failure this far in the June group. I hope to be a reliable member before the month is out- meaning I hope to be sober in June for the long run

Thank you for your patience and understanding.

Severian

Only if you quit trying.

MelindaFlowers

I am glad you are here CSCS. I know for myself that I can't go this alone. Welcome to the June Group (or Junebugs..LOL).

livefierce

I'm a newbie and a Junebug.

And this fits me to a T:
I have a doctor appointment tomorrow that fills me with fear and dread. I already had blood work done 10 days ago, and we're going over the results tomorrow. I am certain to hear how my drinking has affected my health. I'm also certain that I have to discuss my drinking with her. I'm so ashamed, and I dread having to admit my problem with wine.

lillyrose

Hun the moment you start thinking of yourself as a failure is the moment you become one. You're not a failure because you're still here. 2 tries or 20, you're still on the path to sobriety and that is what counts!

Dee74

Welcome cscs

I hope all goes well at the Dr, livefierce - I was terrified too but my results were much better than I expected - in fact they were pretty good

and sleepie, no one who keeps coming back to try again is a failure

D

cscs

Waking up this morning was truly a gift! My spirits are high and my boys seem to be responding to it. I LOVE seeing them giggle again. Day 2 and feeling good!

livefierce

Thanks for the encouragement, Dee. Every time I remember that I've got an appointment in X hours, a wave of anxiety hits me. I logged back in hoping for some support or encouragement, and there you were!

parsley

My start date was June 14. New to this all and looking for support.

cscs

Parsely,
We are newbies together! You are on day four already! Day two for me. You are doing awesome!

livefierce

Parsley, CSCS, we're in it together! Keep checking in, y'all.

Wilde10

Looks like there are quite a few of us here. This month is going to be a great one... So many women too!

cscs

Women rock! (Guys are pretty cool too

GoldenGirl

I started yesterday so I'm glad to have found you all
The post about pouring a cold glass of wine really resonated with me. I can feel a craving ...it's friday night.....but I am NOT giving in! I'm to those voices telling me to go and get a bottle.
Feel really good to be here

cscs

Feeling the "itch" too! ARGH! Made some tea and tuning out the screaming children in the living room. We can do this!

Wilde10

Of course men rock too! I guess it is another layer of comfort for me to be in this site... It is not only I am finding other human beens suffering from this hell or generous enough to be out of it and helping from their understanding of this. It is the fact that I am a mother (more than a woman) and I can speak without feeling someone is about to call social services... Another gender issue I guess. I would bet my head that if an alcoholic mother puts a foot in a hospital (at least in the UK) social services get immediately informed. I doubt this happens if it is a father. Or perhaps is my mind playing the victim woman here... It goes very well with alcoholism I think, playing the victim.

Severian

The drinking bone's connected to the party bone
The party bone's connected to the staying up all night long
And she won't think it's funny and I'll wake up all alone
'Cause the lonely bone's connected to the drinking bone

Wilde10

Ha, ha, ha Severian...

At least you can say that creativity is not linked to drinking in your case!

Severian

Thank's Wilde, but that's an old country music song that was playing in my head while I was mowing the lawn this afternoon.

Dang I miss my son! (the regular mower operator).