Of course i'm not giving advice at all but just some thoughts. If your family is against rehab (another term for you staying alive) then maybe you don't need to be living there or giving any thought to your moms opinions of rehab. After or during rehab you could look for other living arangements. When your sober you'll be able to find and probably keep a job and be out on your own. So perhaps *again i'm not giving any sort of advice* you should only concern yourself with saving you and not what your mom thinks of rehab?
From my own experience Rehab was amazing. Although I did relapse it gave me some of the tools to better manage myself and pick myself backup the next time.
Something isn't right with this picture.
Lets face it, you don't seem to want to quit. I mean, your mother tells you not to drink and you go ahead and drink anyway. But then when she tells you not to go to rehab you submit straight away? Hmmm
You are 21 years old. It is your choice to go to rehab. You said in an earlier post that you were ready. I think you should listen to that voice. Your mother is not a mental health professional. She doesn't seem to recognize the clear signs of alcohol and depression. I am not sure what she thinks will work and she does not sound very supportive.
There is a saying: If only youth knew. If only age could.
You won't even remember much about this guy in 5 years. I know it seems like the world at this moment.
I was a young girl quite like yourself but at more of a disadvantage--I didn't even know that I had a problem. Do you know how lucky you are to have recognized that you have a problem at this young age? You are so far ahead of the curve. Go with that advantage!
Don't spend your 20s being preoccupied by losers and not focusing on yourself. You can't imagine now how quickly it will all pass. There is more to life than these relationships.
You have escaped so far relatively unscathed. From the little that I have read you have engaged in some very risky behavior. Your mother seems unwilling to accept the reality of your situation. She may have her own reasons as to why she is unwilling to steer you in the right direction. She doesn't want you to be around "those" people. Guess what: You are one of those people. I am one of those people. I think you need to be surrounded by professionals that know exactly how to help "those" people.
SS I am so glad you didn't get hurt or hurt someone else. I was fortunate to have not hurt someone when I wrecked my car. I am actually grateful I got my DUI it woke me up, unfortunatly I relapsed, but I am working on that. My sister was killed by a drunk driver 10am walking to church of all things, So I am fortunate for all of us who haven't hurt anyone. Fortunatly they caught the guy, lets just say he's going to not be drinking or getting out of prison for awhile. Be safe alright.
Hi SS - just wanted to see how you're doing.....:grouphug:
So, when's your appointment today? I hope you can finally begin a course of action after talking to your new therapist. Let us know how it goes, OK? :grouphug:
Please update us with how the therapist session went.
Yesterday, I was in the school gym working out and I was doing some exercises in the class exercise rooms. No one was in there and then the teacher comes in. I asked her if there was a class starting and she said there should be a class at 11:15 but no one was in there. Anyways, a few mins later, this girl walks in for that 11:15am class. The teacher said that she was going to cancel since no one showed up. The girl pretty much just breaks down and said she NEEDED this class. Of course, this caught my attention while I was doing my lunges.
She tells us that after the Memorial weekend, her bf decides that he doesnt want to move in with her and that he wants to see other people. So basically i'm assuming they broke up. She was very upset and was obviously crying. Not only was she emotionally tied with this guy, she had already split the down payment on the apt with him. I think their down payment was first month's rent which was 500 bucks.
This girl is a PHD student and will be done in another quarter or so and is probably around my age, which is 27. She was saying that her ex was 27 so i'm assuming that they were around the same age and he was a PHD student too. We tried to comfort her and everything but of course she was just emotionally in pain.
It brought back memories for me because I have emotions too and it really sucked when my relationship went down the drain, especially when a lot of it was when I was drinking. The teacher said that oh, this guy is a jerk and you shouldnt be with him which is true. Being around alcoholics in meetings everyday, I forget that she is probably a normie. I told her that she needs some time to grieve because breaking up really hurts and it causes emotional stress. Then I told her that, she needs to release this stress in healthy ways. I said that being in the gym is a good way or even go see a counselor and talk about it and dont go out and party and drink.
After, I realized she probably doesnt go out and drink her feelings away because that is something I would do because i'm an alcoholic and she probably is not. My point is that you do need that grieving time. Besides the whole alcohol thing, you need your time to grieve over these situations. We can say all we want about how bad this guy is or how you are better off without him but until YOU are ready emotionally, it wont really matter what we say.
The alcohol and your current emotions is a deadly combination.
Well just had a very long very very difficult conversation with my parents. I guess I wasnít being as honest as I thought because they werenít aware how much and how badly my drinking wasÖ they are really worried and really hurt by what Iím doing and yet the whole time I was thinking ďGod I wish I had a drink right nowĒ and I would give ANYTHING to have some alcohol right nowÖ how fíd up is that?
But long story short Iím going to rehab tomorrow. I called the treatment hospital. It 3-5 days of detox and from there they decide what your best option is.
Iíve already been sober for three since my parents have been all over me so I donít need this detox but I guess we will see where it goes.
I wish I could reply to each and every one of you who have helped me in this thread and others but I am emotionally drained right now but I want you all to know how much you've helped me. You are ALL amazing people and without you I would NEVER have told me parents and would never have any chance to turn my life around. I mean that. You have no idea. You have all probably changed my life. If I can manage to get this under control you're the ones who got me to go to rehab so thank you so much bc I don't want my life to be over at 21 because of some fukin' asswipe who treats me like crap
I'm really glad you're going to treatment SS :)
Glad to read that you are getting help. Good for you! I wish I was that smart when I was 21. Take care in there.:You_Rock_
Just curious though um far as contact with other people...? Can I have a phone or a computer? I'm guess the answer to the comp is DEF NOT and the answer to a phone is probably not... but IDK. I don't want to be completely cut off from the world??
And like... after 3-5 days is it like "Oh peace out go out into the world now and just come back for a few hours a day" or...? I don't know really what the expect.
It really depends on the place. When I was in detox, I was there for 6 days. No computers, but then, there really was no time anyway. The days are spent in classes and meetings. No cell phones were allowed, but there were phones where you could make calls between classes and such. Don't worry about being cut off from the world. It's only for a few days and you'll be busy anyway. Just go with it and pay attention. Let them help you.
Hi SS - Are you going into a 30 day program? I think that's usually the minimum they recommend.
I've been to two treatment centers and if I remember right, there is a period of time when they don't allow contact with family or friends. It's not really as bad as it sounds, though. They do it so that everyone can concentrate on what's going on with THEM, instead of getting distracted by other people and the drama that can sometimes entail. So, it's a good thing.
When I went, it was a relief to be able to have a routine, a day filled with talking, meetings, classes and counseling (and some free time to do puzzles, walk, journal, read or whatever), good food and new friends going through the same thing I was. I wouldn't have traded it for the world. It's great that you're doing this now, while you don't have alot of other responsibilities like rent, job, even kids.
I don't think you'll regret it. All the best!!!!!!!!:grouphug:
SS.....I wish you well in treatment. Keep posting when you can but know that we you come out that SR is here for you and full of support.
I just want to add that while we support you and as you gain more self confidence in sobriety.....NO ONE made you do rehab but you. You made that choice to take action and I am tremendously proud of you. You are so doing the right thing and are on your way!!
I am sure plenty of others will offer more input on rehab but I just wanted to wish you the best and let you know that you are one strong woman!! Takes a lot to step up and do what you did!!!
I wanted to wish you well with your rehab journey. I don't know about the phone or computer, but being 'cut off' from the world might only help you focus more on you, and the program you're working.. you'll be better for it, if you work it.
Well my parents drove me to rehab this morning and we got there and they said they didnít have any beds left because the one I was supposed to be in was filled by an emergency person last nightÖ Iím supposed to go on Monday now. I will keep you guys posted.
you'll be OK for another 36-38 hours.....I know that Saturday nights are typically hard.
I think you are starting to heal.....you called Mr. Facey-space a non-complimentary name and realized he treated you like crap!.....think of the period without a phone and computer as time to heal yourself.
i promise you everyone (and us) will all still be here....don't give Mr. Facey-space any fodder for gossip, they thrive on that sh$$.....
you have a brilliant future ahead of you if you can beat this off and heal....you are stronger than you know....I wish you the best.
Today was a hard day.
My step dad and step brother (Mark BTW I havenít talked about him I donít think) were both crying and so was my Mom because I was being a complete jerk. I donít know whatís wrong with me. Iíve been angry, because of Ryan (My ex) and because Iím not drinking so that has messed with my moods as well. Theyíre just trying to help me but I keep trying to fight them, which is stupid because a lot of people arenít lucky enough to get the help from familyÖ I really really want them to go to one of those meetings for family members of alcoholics but Iím not sure they will. Basically my step brother and step dad were crying telling me how they love me and want to help me but they donít know how and they donít deserve the anger Iím displacing against them because they just want to help me and theyíve all been talking about how to help me and I keep fighting themÖI donít mean to its justÖ itís hard to let go of control and accept help ESPECIALLY for a problem thatís VERY difficult to admit to.
They had me quit my job at the Packie which was a good ideaÖ they donít let me leave the house w/o their supervision, Iím not allowed to shut the door and they took away my IDÖ I am craving a drink like crazy. I want to drink so badly. Meetings help. I honestly thought I was going to go INSANE so my Mom took me to a meeting and I feel better now but still. Itís just so hard to face life without alcohol. My parents donít even want me to work AT ALL but I canít handle that. I BEGGED them to let me work tomorrow and they finally caved. Working helps me get my mind off of things. The busier I stay the better. My Momís deal was I could go to work if I went to a meeting before work, which I was planning to do anyway..
I never knew life without alcohol would be so hard.
((SS)) - I'm sorry I'm late, coming in on this thread...been really busy at work, but I just want to say that I am SOOOOO glad you're going to rehab!!
I understand the anger, and I understand the feeling of not understanding how you you "never knew life without alcohol would be so hard". I know you can't see it, now, but you're life will be so much BETTER without it...it's just going to be rough for a while.
I've been really worried about you and keeping you in my prayers. I know a lot of people, here, have. My hugs and prayers will keep coming your way!
SS it will get better once you get a program of recovery in place. Quitting is physically rough. Takes much strength to go through the withdrawals and not to pick up the bottle. Staying sober is harder because it requires us to make changes in our life and relearn how to live life without the bottle in hand.
Once you get out of rehab there is plenty of support here and where you are. AA an option. Not just attending meetings but really working the steps.
I have made many changes in my life and am still making changes. I am early in my sobriety but there are so many out there who are living full lives in sobriety. 20, 30, 40 years sober.
Hang in there. It is rough now because the alcohol is gone and the sense of panic kicks. Just work for the moment.....sober. Recovery will help you sort through the rest.
All the best.
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