Bamboozle

Still coasting.

In one of those funks....you know the one where you feel that the last thing you want to do is stay sober.

I'm staying sober despite that.

Sometimes the funks are short...other times they drag.

Hit 426 days sober today.


If I picked up my situation would get worse. No need for that.


If you feel like sh!t...don't pick up. Ignore it. It's a fly buzzing around your head. Annoying, yes, but it will go away. It'll come back when you stink, though...but you won't always stink.

I'm pretty foul right now.

Toronto68

Bam, do you have a specific kind of depression, according to what you've been told? I can't remember if this came up before. When I was younger (at home) I used to try to bring attention to whatever my problem was, but of course it got downplayed and nothing was done. I tried looking into it while at university and that went no where. Then I just went on thinking I had ups and downs according to what was going on in my life and that it was "my fault" if it was happening. (Parental influence there, I suppose.)

I'm a mule, so it will take some time to force myself, but I am thinking about looking into it again. One of the reasons I haven't bothered is I figure it is a post-alcohol thing and that can apparently take a year or two; and I suspect that the alcohol issue would only cloud the issue. I'm anti-pills, generally. But I wonder.

Soph

Hi Bam, thanks for posting what so many of us (me for one) feel at times. I had a nice enough weekend but yesterday I was so out of sorts. Picking up crossed my mind in a kind of a way, but I had to ignore it, shake it off.

Good for you for staying sober! You are right - it's annoying, that fly - mine whispers to me that a chilled glass of Savignon Blanc will make everything better! - but I try to swat it as often as possible!

Hope you feel better!

Soph

24hrsAday

Hey Bam.. i Hate it When i Feel like That.. However, You Are Aware That it Will Pass. Sometimes That is All That Keeps Me Going.. Knowing That The Dark Moods Do Pass.. Take Care

coffeenut

Hey, Bam. Been thinking of you lately.

Is this something that a change in meds can help?

btw......426 days is freaking AWESOME!

Hevyn

Oh, Bam - I wish I'd come to that conclusion many years ago. You are a wise person. You will make it.

Dee74

426 days is nothing to sneeze at Bam - congratulations.
I hope you feel better soon, mate

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Brucel

This too shall pass, or thats what they told me. It did. Very few days any more get that bad that I attract flies. Working the steps with someone I found to trust in meetings is what did it. I continue the steps every couple of years to stay current on my madness and it seems to be working. God Bless
ps I heard that day 427 is the best. Way to go!!!!

Bamboozle

Thanks, people.

Dang, I sure can make a tasty steak.


Please forgive me my veggie friends...better yet don't read what comes next.

Wowza...I seasoned some flat iron steaks about 3 months ago, used a food saver, threw it in the freezer, forgot about it...and just threw it on the Foreman. It would have been better on a real grill, but this stuff is almost as tender as filet. Yum yum yum! Beefy goodness! It's nice and mid rare. Heaven in my mouth.

Bamboozle

Oh yeah, of course I thawed it before I grilled it.

I want another one.

24hrsAday

Steak... Yum!!!

Gypsy Feet

I had monkeys in my mind that were screaming and flinging poo all over the place today. 3 men on my last nerves, and I am getting none from any of them!! Anyway, I knew eventually all of that chatter would stfu, and it has. I am hopeful I will get better at avoiding the things that cause me discomfort as time goes on, just so long as I dont have that first drink.