aasharon90

Hi Im Sharon and Im an Alcoholic.

By the grace of my HP and people
like you here in SR I havent found
it necessary to pick up a drink of
alcohol since 8-11-90.

For that and u I am truely grateful.

I went to a meeting yesterday. It's
always nice to see newcomers and
old-times all together under one roof
waiting to hear and share the mess-
age of recovery.

I sat there listening as others spoke
sharing the ESH on how they are
keeping their own sobriety.

One in particular absolutely hit me...
not that it hasnt before. This person
shared how they had 22 yrs soberiety
and eventually went back out and
how hard it was getting back in to
working a program again.

I sat and tried to remain humble with
myself. Not to get cocky cause by the
grace of my HP that could be I in
her shoes if i quit following the steps
and principles of my recovery program.

Im still kinda in aw as to how would
someone with many one days at a
time collected together would go
back out?

We sit in meetings listening to others
share how they have had a taste of
recovery to only go back out and
hoefully return to tell us that alcohol
is still alive and well and kicking
butts big time.

That getting sober screws up ones
drinking.

I hear the message......

Do you?

I cant keep my sobriety if i dont
give it away is what i shared w/
the group yesterday as i held
their attention.

I also shared with them that i
may not always speak verbally
in meetings, but do do my sharing
online.

I share my own experiences strengths
and hopes with you guys here in
SR. That to me is giving away what
was so freely passed on to me....
the message of hope....to you guys.

It has helped me grow and change
into a responsible person in recovery.

Dee74

I try and never forget we're all just one drink away, Sharon.
Thanks for your share

D

Gypsy Feet

I hear you sharon. I have a friend back out there. I really care about the guy, and it hurts. He keeps stringing together a month or three, and then goes out. He was leading a meeting one day last month, and I said to an old timer sitting next to me that I really hoped this time would stick, and the old timer told me this story:

There was a man in the rooms of AA for 30 years. He would get time, usually 2,3 maybe 5 years, and he would relapse. He would be out for a short time, and always made it back. He died sober. At his memorial at our alano club, people in the program spoke, and many remarked on how grateful they were to have been given the gift of continuous sobriety, and how sad it was that this guy could never fully grasp it.

Then his family members spoke, and one after another, they thanked the fellowship. They said without AA, they would have never had such a wonderful father, brother or son in their lives.

For them, the principles he DID learn made him a better man. For them, the fact that a large majority of the time he walked in the sunlight of the spirit, was a gift only recovery could have offered.

I hurt for my friend. He is out there right now. I don't want him to die out there. But I remember that his HP has a plan for him, and it is out of my control. And some of us won't make it, some will die using. Hopefully that will convince others to give recovery a shot.