I Thought You Were A Friend
 

I thought you were a friend of mine
But when things get tough you drop me like a dime

You said that nothing would tear us apart
But Someone has already replaced my part….

I kinda figured that this wouldn’t last
This what we are living isn’t the past…

Never did I think that things would turn
Yet I can now feel how love can burn…

I keep thinking that things will change
Yet there is no Sunshine only Rain…

With the rain I can feel the pain inside
I try to look for a place that I can hide…

All the doors that were open
And all I could do was keep a hoping…

Even with the hope that I had
It all kept going very bad…

Should I close that door now
I think that I should but How?…

How can I close it when I have no control
All of the things that I touch turn so cold…

How can I continue walking this path
Every time that I do I feel as if I’ve been had…

Then I start to feel really sad
Is there anyway that I will ever be glad?…

When you’re with me I don’t feel abused
Nor do I even feel as If I’m being used…

But when your are gone from me
I start to be able too see
That I really wasn't ever free….

Can anyone tell me what true friends is all about?…
Every time I think that I have it figured out
I end up being filled with so much doubt….

I hurt so much when one goes away
Than I end up going astray
That is when I can no longer feel the suns rays
And than I wonder should I even play?….

My guard raises high where I let no one in
The light that was shinning turns oh so dim
And I think that I realized that I am not Him….

What happen on this journey that I have road?…
Why has everything in my Life turned so cold?…
Is it or could it be that I have already lost my soul?……..

How can I continue to live this way?…
There really isn’t anyone left to say hey
And in all reality, I don’t even feel as if I want to play………

So I guess that this life I will live alone…
Not too sure if I even want to continue to Roam
Probably will even loose my phone……..

I thought that I had someone special and free
But something happened and they weren’t for me
Now I only wish that I had never seen…..

If I live I will promise myself this
That I won’t allow myself to ever miss
Nor will I give any woman again
What I believe is that special kiss
I just hope to hell that I don’t continue to live…..

Written by

Vic
June 2009
All Right reserved

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:( Wow - so much pain...

Prayers...

:grouphug:..i'm so sorry your sad.....

..please just trust 'life'..many people care..oxo..Oz..

Thank you for sharing that, Vic.

Heart-wrenching and painful and beautiful all at the same time.

You wrote that nearly a year ago. I hope that love has found you again, even if it's a stronger love for yourself.

We love you here...:grouphug:

Always loving you Chancey...

Sher

I'm sorry you're sad too, Vic. It's a lovely poem, though. I'm hoping the hurt you're feeling will leave you.

May God watch over you and ease your sadness ..................love jo

These are just the thoughts that run through my head. I wrote that within probably 5-10 minutes. Not sure why they happen or what I even write until I am done and re-read them. So thanks

That was almost a year ago. I do a lot of these things

All is good!:c011: