BusyBe

Hi everyone,

So Im on day 25. I received a dui 2 years ago and had court ordered AA meetings. Never took them seriously but I went and made the most of it. I watched people receive their 30 day coins and other further coins and everyone standing up saying how many days they have been sober and in my head I always sorta chuckled and thought wow if I had to stand up and say how many days I had Id be lucky to get in a whole day or two. I never ever thought 2 years later my life would have risked so much and got to that point where I had to get sober to save myself and the people who love me. In 5 days I will be 30 days clean and Im actually really proud of myself. Its so freakin hard though. Especially special occasions and birthdays and brunches and today I had the worst day after work and wanted a drink so bad. I dont smoke or work out or eat out of anger hurt or boredom So it was really frustrating. I just cried. I guess I dont have questions or anything. Just wanted to talk and get it off my chest. Everyone says it gets easier. Im fortunate not to have to worry about taking it one day at a time. I just have to take it a couple days at a time. Sure does get rough.

joinedintime

Welcome to SR. It's not easy to admit that you have a problem until you reach the point where it's not easy to live with the problem. I reached that point in July of 2008 and have been sober since then. This forum has been a great help to me. Sometimes its just the fact that you know you're not alone. Take some time and read some threads. Whenever you feel the need ask for help and opinions and you will get them. They won't all work for you but some will and that's all that matters.

Dee74

Hi BusyBe

Congrats on your sober time!

I think support is pretty vital in this process, and I know you'll find a lot of that here.

Looking forward to seeing you around some more
D

OZboy

BusyBe, welcome..

Ronan

Welcome!
Posting here will be a great way to release some frustration when you're feeling bad; also you'll get plenty of ideas to help you along the way.

least

Welcome to SR! Congrats on your sober time. It DOES get better a day at a time. Early sobriety can be a rough road but it does smooth out after a while. Stick with it and your life can be better than you ever imagined.

Kmber2010

Congrats on being sober and welcome to SR!!! You are on track and you will find useful information and tons and tons of support here. Right now this is my only true form of support and I am so grateful it is here. When I am alone in the evenings (normal booze time) well I pop on and read and post.

So glad you are with us and keep on going!!!

Anna

Hi BusyBe,

Good for you!

And, crying is a good thing. Since I stopped drinking, I have cried more than a few times and it ends up being very therapeutic.

donbradmaniac

I quit on my own and it was easy.
People say i never had a problem. they say Im a dry drunk. They say awful stuff.
Ill say it again. I quit on my own and it is easy.
You want to know how ask me.

I have not had a drink since may 1982

BusyBe

wow thats awesome sober since 82!! Its good to hear you can help yourself on your own. I cant say if AA is the right path for me at the moment. I dont know if I can say I will be sober for the rest of my life. I still deep down inside hope I can one day be one of those who can have a drink or two without going overboard. Is that something everyone thinks at the beginning?? Am I kidding myself?? I mean an abuser is an abuser whether its every day or just on the weekends right? How many of you kept telling yourself well maybe down the road I can drink again and be able to monitor myself and discipline myself ??

coffeenut

Welcome to SR busy! You have lots of good questions....and you'll find the answer to many of them on your own....that's the good thing about SR...you move at your own pace.

Keep reading and posting!