10 months later...was that really me?
 

I have 10 months of sobriety today :c018:
Right at the moment, I'm at a point where I finally feel a bit more calm. This is still a work in progress, but wow...so many things have happened in the past 10 months.
When I remember how I looked, felt and lived before I got sober, I find it sometimes hard to comprehend how I was able to go on with it and bear that state for such a long time. I was in such pain and turmoil, and some of it was utter insanity. Because that was the point I was at. It was suicide or sobriety and I chose the latter.

I am so happy that today, I don't have to drink and live like this. That I don't have to wake up hungover, depressed and ashamed, that I don't need to hide the extent of my drinking.

Life can be good again, and all work I did in the past months was well worth it. Whatever difficulties could lie ahead, I know that I really want this. This forum has accompanied me in my recovery for at least the last 7 months and it has been a source of support and inspiration; so thanks to everybody....
Have a happy and sober day my friends :)

It's really you LOL

Congratulations :)

I remember being amazed it was me too...the old me seemed so very far away...and still does, and yet sometimes all that still seems so close as well...

Thanks for letting us ride with you on the journey :)

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Congrats on 10 months! I'm almost there myself and I also cannot believe the sheer amount of time and effort put into my drinking...it all seems so insane now. Sobriety is SO much better:)

Congratulations and I know EXACTLY what you mean. Why, why did we let it go on so long? So glad to have this be the very first post I read. Great way to start the day.

10 months is such an awesome time. I distinctly remember months 9, 10 and 11 and YES! I can do this. Your words brought those feelings right back to me, Thanks!

A huge congrats on your 10 months! I hope you let us know at 11 and 12 as well. Enjoy this time, you've earned it!

I feel the same way.

I fully accept that I was a total mess, and yet when I look back, it just seems unreal and I don't know how I existed like that.

Thankfully, we don't have to go back there again!

Congratulations on 10 months and your new found life LS. You give the rest of us inspiration!:scoregood

Ten months!! :c011: I know what you mean about looking back... I can't believe who I was back then. Good to know we don't have to live like that any more. :scoregood

Congratulations!
 

Congrats from a newbie! You are an inspiration!

Congratulations on 10 months, ls!

I totally agree with you when you say:

...I don't have to wake up hungover, depressed and ashamed, that I don't need to hide the extent of my drinking."

That was the beginning for the end for me, thank God and memories of it still keep me motivated to never want to go back there.

Way to go! :c011:

Great stuff!! You should feel very proud!!

Peace and Love x

awesome job amigo. i find another layer to my onion of sobriety every day.

kudos to you.

Congrats on your 10 months LS!!!! :c011: Great post!!

And I'm with you, Life can be good again!! We do recover!!