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Old 04-04-2010, 12:05 PM
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I am not doing too good- then I am.....just me

well- since I consider you all friends. I would like to tell you where I am..
my life is going really good, no complaints- other than being an alcoholic. I kicked coke and H a long time ago, C was the worst (never got full force with H) but I cant believe how easy it was to get rid of that C and how hard it is to quit drinking! I feel like its ok i guess? I dont know. I am wasting everyone's time. But I wanted to post- I get so much inspiration from you all.
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Old 04-04-2010, 12:53 PM
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You aren't wasting our time!
But, I'm intrigued by your statement that your life is going good despite being an alcoholic.

For me, my life wasn't going good because I was an active unrecovered alcoholic.

My life became unmanageable because of alcohol. I watched my life shrink from being one filled with activity, a sense of sureness and direction, to a daily dread of living and an almost paranoid fear of doing the simplest of everyday things.

If I have this right, everything is going okay except for your drinking and drinking hasn't affected the quality of your life? Just respecfully curious, because it doesn't usually work that way...
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8 days sober and i have my 1st craving to booze ... we can do it, dude.
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Old 04-04-2010, 02:51 PM
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This site exists for people like us Dub. You're not wasting our time.

I wasted a lot of my own time though by thinking my drinking was ok - hey it was legal - everyone drinks right?

I always paid my bills, everyone still liked me. I was a quiet drunk (well mostly but everyone gets loud and drunk sometimes right?)

And hey I wasn't as bad as that drunk, or that poor guy...and at least I wasn't on speed like that guy, or crack or heroin or coke...

and all the while, I was killing myself.

It's possible to leave it behind Dub - you just have to make the jump.
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(((Dubs)))

I was all over the place emotionally during early recovery. My moods swung around. I think it's part of the body chemicals getting adjusted. Alcohol really seemed to mess with my moods.

Are you still drinking? I will tell you, it took me some months to stabilize after I quit. I was in therapy and it helped. Having friends in recovery helped too. I had to learn to breathe again.

We are here for me, my friend.

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well- since I consider you all friends. I would like to tell you where I am..
my life is going really good, no complaints- other than being an alcoholic. I kicked coke and H a long time ago, C was the worst (never got full force with H) but I cant believe how easy it was to get rid of that C and how hard it is to quit drinking! I feel like its ok i guess? I dont know. I am wasting everyone's time. But I wanted to post- I get so much inspiration from you all.
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There Must Be Some Reason Why You Keep on Visiting Us Here Dubya.. You Can Quit if You Really Want To You Know..
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Old 04-04-2010, 04:18 PM
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Dear Dub,
You write that "life is good",What negative effects do you have from alcohol?
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hey fragrant
you bring up a great question.
The negatives:
I am sure I dont feel 100% everyday, wds, hangover whatever one would call it
Money spent- a lot
Health- I work out and love to stay in shape, its gone to crap, I still work out and exercise but don't feel like I am used to.
Family- bad role model, period.
I know I can do better....

Now for the positives
I get a 25 minute period of not worrying about things that need handling.

Thats pretty much it. One would think I could add all of this up and come up with a solution....
By the way- you are great, I am following your posts, best wishes to you sincerely.
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Old 04-04-2010, 05:32 PM
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Old 04-04-2010, 06:18 PM
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You do know what the solution is Dub, you just don't want to execute. There is no mystery here.
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Old 04-04-2010, 07:55 PM
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(((Dubs)))

That 25 minutes isn't worth it, though, is it? I'm here to tell you even that part goes away. It did for me, I wasn't getting any relief, I was just prolonging the misery. In fact, I was making it all worse.

Keep posting, my friend.

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