TOPIC: R U Aware Of What U R Doing? Hi Im Sharon and Im an Alcoholic. By the grace of my HP and people like u here in SR I havent found it necessary to pick up a drink of "POISON" since 8-11-90. For that and u I an truely grateful. I was sharing with a co-worker about the verbal and physical abuse I sustained as a child at the hands of my mom. Recalling how she was way back when. A Dr Jekel Mr Hyde personality. In my gut i felt she knew exactly what she was doing to me at that time of my life. A beautiful women made up and ugly when undone. I swore that if i had kids that i would never hurt mine as I was. And thank God I didnt. Even tho i was under the enfluence of alcohol for the first 4 and 6 yrs of their life, i was always worried and always on guard as to how i disciplined them. After i got sober in 1990 i worked my AA program and incorperated the steps in my everyday affairs to the best of my ability. Today they r grown and living happy healthy lives and i hoped they would. Could i have said or done anything differently back then id ask myself. I dont know because what i did and said was with everything I had learned in life prior their births. I did the best i could with what i had. Could my mom have done anything differently way back when she was hurting me so? I cant answer because she did what she could with me with only the knowledge and experience she aquired prior to giving me birth. For me today, all i do is share some knowledge to the newcomer about awareness of what they doing and saying to their loved ones. Do u know what u r saying or doing while u r under the enfluence of alcohol or drugs? Are u hurting someone physically or verbally? Are u aware of ur actions? Just remember when yrs catch up with u down the road, u will reflect back on the times u were raising ur kids, being married, ur jobs and how u acted or behaved towards them. We r so unaware of the hurt we afflict on loves one until it is to late. Today u can arm urself with good knowledge and wisdom thru the principles and steps of recovery guiding u along the way so ur family members are not statistics of bad behavior due to u being under the enfluence. |
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