Freeport

With time, you really will enjoy things more without drinking. It's been 10 months (and a day) of sobriety for me, and I understand what you're going through. It's an association, like anything. I never smoked but I hear people trying to quit say, "I don't know to do with my hands." How do we nonsmokers cope with unoccupied hands! Booze is same way. For years, I'd sit down and watch a movie with a three or four or five beers, and at first it felt strange and uncomfortable not to do that. Now, I have a Coke, water, or nothing, and you know what? It's no big deal! I remember details of movies better and hear and enjoy music more. The time I wasted for years on drinking, I'm investing into my family and my own guitar playing.
You hear repeatedly to give it time, but it's true. I really don't even remember physically what it felt like to be intoxicated. I don't miss it, but I'm smart enough to know that one sip of beer would be a painful, toxic, potentially lethal reminder for this alcoholic.

Boleo

You described exactly how I felt when I was stuck in a relapse cycle. I suffered when I drank and I felt something was missing in my life when I did not drink.

It was not until I learned how to be comfortable in my own skin when not drinking that I broke through the 90 day barrier. What makes me fell good about my recovery is the peace of mind, joy and sense of purpose that seems to come from living a spiritual life.

Abstinence is not drinking and feeling bad about it.

Recovery is not drinking and felling good about it.

That is why my signature reads >>>>

Spawn

you don't have to do alone,......."meetings"

Spawn

pop,......coffee,........tea?

SomeCallMeTim

The big one for me was music. It was my biggest escape. I would turn it up and fantasize about what life would be like if things were better. It seems like it's time for you to try some new hobbies.