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Memories
Hey all,
Just sharing something that made me a little misty today. Was at the grocery doing some shopping and the store had this goofy little Easter display…You know the bunny egg cups, candy dishes, hand towels with cute little chicks, placemats, etc. Anyhow, that display really hit me -- got me thinking of my mom who used to make/paint ceramics like the ones at the store and always larded me up with those goofy holiday figurines when I’d come to visit. Felt like a sap standing there all teary eyed. Aaaargh.
She died six years ago, a really ugly death. The last three or four years of her life she was on this cycle of getting sick, going into a nursing home, getting released after getting stronger (because she wasn’t drinking!) and then falling back into nightly drinking again.
She would have been 80 this year.
For years, I hated that I was drinking the way she was and feared I’d end up like her -- sick, feeble and pretty much a mess physically. I finally found a way to stop through AA and counseling. I’m praying it will stick and that I can change the story.
I have five months today and will have six months on Easter Sunday. I’m pretty grateful for a lot of things.
ddog
Just sharing something that made me a little misty today. Was at the grocery doing some shopping and the store had this goofy little Easter display…You know the bunny egg cups, candy dishes, hand towels with cute little chicks, placemats, etc. Anyhow, that display really hit me -- got me thinking of my mom who used to make/paint ceramics like the ones at the store and always larded me up with those goofy holiday figurines when I’d come to visit. Felt like a sap standing there all teary eyed. Aaaargh.
She died six years ago, a really ugly death. The last three or four years of her life she was on this cycle of getting sick, going into a nursing home, getting released after getting stronger (because she wasn’t drinking!) and then falling back into nightly drinking again.
She would have been 80 this year.
For years, I hated that I was drinking the way she was and feared I’d end up like her -- sick, feeble and pretty much a mess physically. I finally found a way to stop through AA and counseling. I’m praying it will stick and that I can change the story.
I have five months today and will have six months on Easter Sunday. I’m pretty grateful for a lot of things.
ddog
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Originally Posted by Doodledog 
Hey all,
Just sharing something that made me a little misty today. Was at the grocery doing some shopping and the store had this goofy little Easter display…You know the bunny egg cups, candy dishes, hand towels with cute little chicks, placemats, etc. Anyhow, that display really hit me -- got me thinking of my mom who used to make/paint ceramics like the ones at the store and always larded me up with those goofy holiday figurines when I’d come to visit. Felt like a sap standing there all teary eyed. Aaaargh.
She died six years ago, a really ugly death. The last three or four years of her life she was on this cycle of getting sick, going into a nursing home, getting released after getting stronger (because she wasn’t drinking!) and then falling back into nightly drinking again.
She would have been 80 this year.
For years, I hated that I was drinking the way she was and feared I’d end up like her -- sick, feeble and pretty much a mess physically. I finally found a way to stop through AA and counseling. I’m praying it will stick and that I can change the story.
I have five months today and will have six months on Easter Sunday. I’m pretty grateful for a lot of things.
ddog
Just sharing something that made me a little misty today. Was at the grocery doing some shopping and the store had this goofy little Easter display…You know the bunny egg cups, candy dishes, hand towels with cute little chicks, placemats, etc. Anyhow, that display really hit me -- got me thinking of my mom who used to make/paint ceramics like the ones at the store and always larded me up with those goofy holiday figurines when I’d come to visit. Felt like a sap standing there all teary eyed. Aaaargh.
She died six years ago, a really ugly death. The last three or four years of her life she was on this cycle of getting sick, going into a nursing home, getting released after getting stronger (because she wasn’t drinking!) and then falling back into nightly drinking again.
She would have been 80 this year.
For years, I hated that I was drinking the way she was and feared I’d end up like her -- sick, feeble and pretty much a mess physically. I finally found a way to stop through AA and counseling. I’m praying it will stick and that I can change the story.
I have five months today and will have six months on Easter Sunday. I’m pretty grateful for a lot of things.
ddog
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I have a lot of memories that I can't let myself think about or I'd eiher start drinking again, or worse. Sometimes I let myself remember for a couple seconds but usually I have to distract myself with thoughts of anything else I can get into my mind. There's a lot of pain in the past, that's for sure.
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Congratulations on 5 months, Ddog!
Memories of my mom make me teary eyed too. It'll be 4 years in October since she passed. I wish I would've been sober when she died. I was told that she had worried about me alot.
I can only draw comfort in thinking she's looking down on me now and is proud for me getting and maintaining a good life in recovery.
I'm sure your mom feels the same way. Treasure the memories - it keeps our loved ones close to our hearts.
Hbee
Memories of my mom make me teary eyed too. It'll be 4 years in October since she passed. I wish I would've been sober when she died. I was told that she had worried about me alot.
I can only draw comfort in thinking she's looking down on me now and is proud for me getting and maintaining a good life in recovery.
I'm sure your mom feels the same way. Treasure the memories - it keeps our loved ones close to our hearts.
Hbee
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Originally Posted by Doodledog
Hey all,
Just sharing something that made me a little misty today. Was at the grocery doing some shopping and the store had this goofy little Easter display…You know the bunny egg cups, candy dishes, hand towels with cute little chicks, placemats, etc. Anyhow, that display really hit me -- got me thinking of my mom who used to make/paint ceramics like the ones at the store and always larded me up with those goofy holiday figurines when I’d come to visit. Felt like a sap standing there all teary eyed. Aaaargh.
She died six years ago, a really ugly death. The last three or four years of her life she was on this cycle of getting sick, going into a nursing home, getting released after getting stronger (because she wasn’t drinking!) and then falling back into nightly drinking again.
She would have been 80 this year.
For years, I hated that I was drinking the way she was and feared I’d end up like her -- sick, feeble and pretty much a mess physically. I finally found a way to stop through AA and counseling. I’m praying it will stick and that I can change the story.
I have five months today and will have six months on Easter Sunday. I’m pretty grateful for a lot of things.
ddog
Just sharing something that made me a little misty today. Was at the grocery doing some shopping and the store had this goofy little Easter display…You know the bunny egg cups, candy dishes, hand towels with cute little chicks, placemats, etc. Anyhow, that display really hit me -- got me thinking of my mom who used to make/paint ceramics like the ones at the store and always larded me up with those goofy holiday figurines when I’d come to visit. Felt like a sap standing there all teary eyed. Aaaargh.
She died six years ago, a really ugly death. The last three or four years of her life she was on this cycle of getting sick, going into a nursing home, getting released after getting stronger (because she wasn’t drinking!) and then falling back into nightly drinking again.
She would have been 80 this year.
For years, I hated that I was drinking the way she was and feared I’d end up like her -- sick, feeble and pretty much a mess physically. I finally found a way to stop through AA and counseling. I’m praying it will stick and that I can change the story.
I have five months today and will have six months on Easter Sunday. I’m pretty grateful for a lot of things.
ddog
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