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Old 02-10-2010, 07:17 PM
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Hello my Friend Lenina-
I can't postpone the meeting. There will be couple of hundred people there that have flown in to be there, and I am presenting strategy etc that I have been working on for weeks....you are always a support and I REALLY appreciate you. I honestly have no desire to medicate this. Its like a perfect storm..I am getting sick (from all of my things, stress, work, drinking I am sure doesnt help, contagions if that is a word).
I will try your suggestion, and appreciate it.
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Don't Quit Trying Dub!!!
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Old 02-10-2010, 07:28 PM
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(((Dubs)))

Here's an old folk remedy you can try. Rub Vick's VapoRub on the bottoms of your feet before you go to bed. My friend swears it knocks out colds pronto! I never remember to do it until it's too late. It can't hurt, right? LOL Be sure to slip on some socks or the sheets will get all nasty from the oil!

Also, I use EmergenC vitamin drink. You can get it at any pharmacy and most grocery stores. Put it in a 16 oz bottle of water. It comes in different flavors but don't take it at night. The B 12 can keep you awake! It seems to knock out colds for me and makes me feel better.

Hang in there, my friend!

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Old 02-10-2010, 07:34 PM
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the dude abides. going to bed with my puppies soon. they can sense I am sick...funny how dogs know that! Got a bunch of music peeps coming in and we'll see what happens. I have decided not to obsess over that.

Love you all! Not to sound like Ozzy. I do mean that- the love part.... I have another hour in me tonight but thats it i think. I will let others post. Lets stay in touch.
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Old 02-10-2010, 09:40 PM
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hey man, I feel the same, just about to post on here too.
I really dont know what to say, apart from I feel ur frustration man....

At least you're trying mate, that's a lot more effort than a lot of people put in, and you should be proud.

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but my work and traveling is triggering me big time.
So the reason you won't go into detox right now is because of a job that triggers you to drink? Hmmmm, something's not right here. I realize that you have to make a living to keep a roof over you and your families head, food on the table and so on, but is it worth dying for? That's the bottom line Dub. I'm just going to be flat out honest here. Ever since I met you here on SR you've been struggling. You'll put together a few weeks, maybe a month or two then something happens that you drink or use again. Reminds me so much of myself. What I had to do and what you need to do is completely surrender. Like the others have said, you need to put your Sobriety first, above anything else. What good is this job if you end up in the ICU at a hospital throwing up blood with Cirrhosis of the Liver? How much is this job going to help you if you end up hitting a child on a bicycle because you had one drink too many?

It's time to get serious Dub. You've been struggling with this for way too long. What kind of medical leave act does your job have? There has to be some way that you can go back into detox and start some kind of treatment before April. You have to want this more than anything in the world.

What's your bottom my Friend? What's it going to take for you to surrender?

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Old 02-11-2010, 05:15 AM
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Originally Posted by serenityqueen View Post
So the reason you won't go into detox right now is because of a job that triggers you to drink? Hmmmm, something's not right here. I realize that you have to make a living to keep a roof over you and your families head, food on the table and so on, but is it worth dying for? That's the bottom line Dub. I'm just going to be flat out honest here. Ever since I met you here on SR you've been struggling. You'll put together a few weeks, maybe a month or two then something happens that you drink or use again. Reminds me so much of myself. What I had to do and what you need to do is completely surrender. Like the others have said, you need to put your Sobriety first, above anything else. What good is this job if you end up in the ICU at a hospital throwing up blood with Cirrhosis of the Liver? How much is this job going to help you if you end up hitting a child on a bicycle because you had one drink too many?

It's time to get serious Dub. You've been struggling with this for way too long. What kind of medical leave act does your job have? There has to be some way that you can go back into detox and start some kind of treatment before April. You have to want this more than anything in the world.

What's your bottom my Friend? What's it going to take for you to surrender?

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i Agree With Judy Here Dub.. it Takes What it Takes.
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Old 02-11-2010, 07:17 AM
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Not really sure what it IS that you are doing Ded that qualifies as "trying"

Thinking that you would like to be a non drinker at some point in time is *not* trying.

As far as taking the time off work that you will obviously need to do, no one is indispensable. It all comes down to you. Do you really want to get and stay sober? If so, stop lying to yourself and get whatever help that you will require and do it.
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Old 02-11-2010, 07:58 AM
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I argued with myself like you are Dub for about 10 years - no-one or nothing could have persuaded me to be ready until I was ready, for some reason. Even knowing full well the health risks, having kids that need and love me wasn't enough. Having said that, I'm only 5 days in, but I know this is it this time.

Thinking of you ((((((Dub)))))))
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Old 02-11-2010, 08:17 AM
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I really hope you can 'make' (not 'find') the time you need to get sober, whether it's rehab or home detox, before 'something' happens to make the decision for you... something you can't 'undo'.
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Old 02-11-2010, 08:21 AM
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Feel i gotta add to what daisy said..You know when you,ve had enough with this thing,
nearly twelve yrs continuos nightly ritual.. daily as well weekends an time off..Gotta a
small confession here.. Did 15 days for me the most ive done in this timespan... I picked
up a bottle of wine day before yesterday.. I Pre~empted this might happen# Result not
impressed with the 2hour buzz accompanied by 2hour wear off..To wake an go to work, and feel groggy for like 10 hours.
on the unpleasent sickfeelin of hangover/withdrawal..dont feel guilt shame blame anger.
just a reality check that says its no longer what i wanna do anymore..So in effect am
back on day 2.. Ok so here we go again.:wtf2
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Staying in addiction treatment 'no matter what' has saved me from a whole lot of suffering and pain. Keep making forward progress in you recovery efforts and IMO, life will keep getting better...Peace Dude.
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Old 02-11-2010, 05:14 PM
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thanks to all of you- you all are an inspiration. I know those are words and I know it takes action...what a great group of people. I continue to fight this so thanks again. dont know what else to say.
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Old 02-11-2010, 05:20 PM
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I continue to fight this

I'm not a big AAer, but will quote what they so often say: do'nt fight it, surrender to the fact that you cannot drink. Surrender and accept it for the truth it is. I fought it over and over and got nowhere until I finally accepted that I cannot drink. I surrender, I will fight no more forever. Fighting is useless as alcohol will always win. I hope for the best for you Dub. You deserve a decent life, I hope you can create it.
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Old 02-12-2010, 08:39 AM
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do'nt fight it, surrender to the fact that you cannot drink. Surrender and accept it for the truth it is. I fought it over and over and got nowhere until I finally accepted that I cannot drink. I surrender, I will fight no more forever. Fighting is useless as alcohol will always win.
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Old 02-24-2010, 06:20 AM
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How are you doing today Dub?
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Old 02-25-2010, 05:37 AM
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hey friends
I am doing ok but still drinking 5-6 beers a day. Have planned time off from work as previously mentioned, which will be late next week. I have cut back drastically for a couple of weeks to hopefully minimize the WDs. Planning to hack it out at home for 5 days, I will have someone with me and know to check my BP etc and if it goes up or if I start feeling weird I will go to ER. I am really serious about this plan, and deeply feel this will be the time that sticks. Planning to go to AA every day which worked great before.....
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Old 02-25-2010, 08:12 AM
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Planning to go to AA every day which worked great before.....
Maybe something to think about, dubs. AA is a way of life. A life lived according to spiritual principles. A program of action with specific, precise directions that leads to being recovered.

It's not really a stop-gap measure of going to meetings and feeling better for a while and not drinking for a while. Many people use it like that who are unwilling to follow the directions, but they are really missing the point, hiding out in meetings so they won't drink for another day. AA's 12 Steps is a transformative experience that removes the obsession to drink, and then some.

Don't have an obsession? Then why are you still drinking?
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Old 02-25-2010, 08:34 AM
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Any method of recovery has to be something that will work for you in the long term.

And, for me, I had change everything from the inside out. It was hard work, but so worth it.

Dub, I hope you find a way to get sober and to stay sober.
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I'm glad you're taking these steps dub...I hope you can parlay this into something lasting and permanent mate...we're alcoholics....getting sober is a challenge but the real marathon is about staying sober

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