I can't live like this any longer

Old 01-25-2010, 08:52 AM
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I can't live like this any longer

Wanted to say hello, this is my first post. I've been an alcoholic for many, many years and have made some feeble attempts to stop. No plan really. I was just thinking I don't want this new year to be like all the ones in the past. I'm physically/mentally and emotionally sick and I need to heal each of those areas.

Today is Day 2. I'm lucky I don't have withdrawals when I "attempt" to quit. Nothing. Although I drink a pint of vodka every single day for the last 3 years (except for 32 days in Sept).

Right now all I can do is NOT DRINK TODAY. But I know that is not the solution. I am considering all the options and programs available and need the one that fits me best.
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Old 01-25-2010, 08:56 AM
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Hi and Welcome,

I'm glad you found us and that have decided to live a sober life.

I agree that having a plan is a good idea because recovery is an ongoing process. I try to work on all aspects of my life, physical, emotional and spiritual, every day. And SR is my lifeline.
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Old 01-25-2010, 09:08 AM
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I tried desperately to avoid A.A. I had an addictions phycologist, tried some other women in recovery group.. etc..

When I went to the doctor, it seemed like all I was doing was vomiting my problems all over him and getting nowhere. The other sobriety groups were over an hour away. So, A.A. it was. Thankfully! It's been nothing but a sheer miracle for me.

This is just my experience. Which is all I can speak from. Certainly others have had better luck at A.A, alternatives. Just be sure to give it a try. It's not the largest recovery group for no reason.
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Old 01-25-2010, 09:10 AM
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Welcome to SR. Glad you want to join us.
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Old 01-25-2010, 09:20 AM
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good luck you sound as if you have reached point you need to quit
change other things in you life and I think you will find it easier, doing the same just without the booze will not work
I have been giving up for couple weeks now
I found changing my routine worked and feel very positive now
going to the gym instead of reaching for a drink, then it becomes a different cycle than the vicious one you think you are caught in
I have gone from "I can't" give up to "I am"
all the best and hope you find the best approach for YOU
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Old 01-25-2010, 09:25 AM
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I'm glad you found SR and I wish you all the best.
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Old 01-25-2010, 10:07 AM
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Hi and welcome. We look forward to hearing more from you. Well done on making the decision to quit.
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Old 01-25-2010, 10:18 AM
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Welcome to SR and congrats on your decision to live a sober life. Sobriety isn't always easy but is well worth the effort.

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Old 01-25-2010, 02:36 PM
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Hi and welcome...glad you've joined this forum.
Healing thoughts coming your way xx
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Old 01-25-2010, 07:44 PM
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Old 01-25-2010, 07:48 PM
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You really can find a better way to live with sobriety
Many of us are winning over addictions.
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Old 01-25-2010, 08:33 PM
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welcome to SR!

i'm physically/mentally and emotionally sick and i need to heal each of those areas.
It's not very often that a newcomer realizes all the different areas of their life that alcoholism has effected. This disease can and will destroy ever aspect of your life . . . if you let it.

I cannot express just how much AA has helped me and like many others, I fought it with everything I had in me. I was going to do this my way! From the first time I realized I had a problem and put myself into treatment to when I finally got Clean & Sober, I wasted 25 years of my life. I told myself that I wasn't like everyone else. I thought if I just stopped drinking and doing drugs I'd be ok. But that actually made things worse because once I stopped drinking and drugging, all that left was a sober drunk. I had all the same thoughts and behaviors, I just didn't numb my feelings anymore. The shame, anger, embarressment etc just got worse. In AA I learned how to live life on life's terms, how to work through my issues without numbing them and how to let go of all the issues that made me pick up in the first place.

Take things One Day at A Time, Keep it Simple and remember, If Nothing Changes, Nothing Changes. Recovery is a complete change in lifestyle. But believe me, the past 4.5 years have been the absolute best ever! I've had many things happen since I've been in Recovery that were quite difficult to bear, but I survived each and every one of them without picking up. I lost both of my Parents, my health is deteoriating drastically, I had to stop working due to health issues, financial troubles . . . but AA taught me how to make it through everything that has happened without turning to that drink or drug.

I hope you'll Keep Coming Back, share as much as your comfortable with sharing and remember that we are all in the same boat so we support each other.

God Bless,

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Old 01-25-2010, 09:09 PM
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Hello and Welcomre :-)
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Old 01-25-2010, 09:22 PM
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Welcome. Its great to have you here. Stick around and you'll get to see how great it is to be here too
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Old 01-25-2010, 10:36 PM
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I'm glad you are here!

You aren't alone. I've gone back and forth with AA and found that it is solidly the most helpful thing I have found to remain in recovery.

Whatever path you choose, the road to recovery can be amazing.
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