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Old 01-09-2010, 11:28 AM   #1 (permalink)

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One of the worst things for me about when i was still drinking was the hopelessness that I felt. I would momentarily try to shake myself up to feel slightly better about my life only to be brought back down to a state of hopelessness after a celebratory binge out in town.

I would buy new clothes and then of course want to go and wear them out, so i would go out into town and to see some chicks, but of course as soon as the booze was down my neck then I would be off. New clothes would usually end up with oil (dont ask me how but I always used to seem to get motor oil on my clothes?!! LOL), vomit or just general crap all over them and I would be back to that pitt of depression and despair that only another drink would get me out of. Back to square one yet again... only I could feel my alcolholism growing in darkness and power.

I feel friggin great tonight. The compulsion to drink has been removed on a daily basis at the moment and I feel a great sense of hope.

I have learned to not wish for the world all at once in recovery. If I buy new clothes I can wait to wear them out... There is no rush!! Things will all slot into place in their own time... Life on life terms. As long as I put my side of the bargain in then i have faith that I will be rewarded. This feels great to have this faith. Not in a divine power but in the power of "recovery" from alcolholism and drug addiction.

I am so gratefull to be out of that pitt of hell and despair that I was in.

Thankyou all for giving me hope!!!

peace and Love xxx
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Old 01-09-2010, 11:49 AM   #2 (permalink)
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....and thanks for passing the hope on.
"Know that at any moment in your life, you have the choice. You can either be a host to God,
or a hostage to your ego.
It's your call.
Stay inspired [in spirit]"
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Old 01-09-2010, 02:16 PM   #3 (permalink)
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Gratitude is always a good thing.
Experience, Strength And Hope - Pass It On.
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Old 01-09-2010, 02:38 PM   #4 (permalink)
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I'm glad you're doing well, Neo, and I agree that sometimes, hope is all we have.
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

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Old 01-09-2010, 03:03 PM   #5 (permalink)
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Originally Posted by NEOMARXIST View Post
Thankyou all for giving me hope!!!
Right back at ya!

As Rick James once said, "Sobriety is a helluva drug." (That may have been cocaine and I may have changed his quote a little.)
"It may be hard for an egg to turn into a bird: it would
be a jolly sight harder for it to learn to fly while
remaining an egg. We are like eggs at present. And you
cannot go on indefinitely being just an ordinary, decent
egg. We must be hatched or go bad." - C. S. Lewis
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Old 01-09-2010, 03:48 PM   #6 (permalink)
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Yes, like Joe McQ says "It's hard to live very long without hope."

Thanks for the reminder to be grateful. I have to be constantly reminded. And yes I can relate to the pitt of depression and despair. Sometimes I start thinking I have it rough. Then next thing I know im sitting next to a guy who just came in off the same street we lived on, talking about being grateful to be in a warm building for an hour. Boy does that make me right-size quickly.

Faith was hard for me. I always think about this guy:
Joe A

He talks about arriving in AA with nothing but a pair of overalls. No socks, shoes, underwear...But still resisting. He says something like "How can a guy with no underwear think he's in a position to strike up an bargain?" lol........I'm grateful I don't have to be "that guy" all over again today. Still practicing though..
"My solutions are the problem..."
Search the internet for the "Joe and Charlie Big Book Study .mp3" for an AA view on Alcoholism and a Solution to it.
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