Ghostman

Hi everyone!!
I did have another support group I used to post on..
but since I know everyone so well on there, I didn't feel comfortable asking
for advice or help..

*deep breath*

Okay, I take prescription meds... which help me with my ADD...
but also Anti-depressants (bupropion)

But then I also have been drinking more and more alcohol...
It is partly because I am in a bad marriage and i got tired of her lies and so on.. So we are at the point of seperating, my 1 and a half year old son is what has kept me there.

Then there is a girl I really like...
but since we live far apart, our relationship as friends has gone a bit downhill lately, and that is just driving me into more drinking etc...

Okay, you are probaly going to say i am a basket case, but there it is!!
Isn't confession supposed to be good for the soul??

Believe808

Welcome to SR Ghostman

I could blame everyone and everything for my using but the bottom line was I am an alcoholic/addict and powerless over the first drink or drug.

For me when I got honest and stopped making excuses for my drinking and drug use, that was when I started to get better.

Ghostman

Yes, thank you, but isn't that what I am doing right now?

Trying to be honest and put it out there?

Believe808

Yes I believe you are making a start. So what are your plans for getting and staying sober? Have you a plan, I use AA for my recovery.

Ghostman

I don't have a plan... Since I had stopped doing meth several years ago,
I always thought I was doing good since then..
I am just now realizing I may have a problem..

Horselover

Welcome to SR Ghostman. Sorry about the trouble with these boards today. It will get better.

As far as your confession, I didn't see a question in there and so I will leave it as "Welcome."

Ghostman

Hey Thanks!

CAPTAINZING2000

really ought to leave the ladies along until, you're divorced.

Oh, don't drink while medicated, bad idea

mirage

Welcome Ghostman..glad you found SR! Sorry to hear about your problems..I understand why you'd be concerned about it. All I can really speak to is that I know for me, drinking never made relationships better. I find it easier to deal with things when I'm not tired/hungover/crabby. I hope you find a way for things to get better soon!

Redlion

Well done on quitting the meth. I would take this is a sign to yourself that you have the power to deal with some of the urge to try to counter your unhappiness with drugs. Why not give yourself a pat on the back for that and remind yourself that you're already on a path towards recovery; you've already come a few steps on the way and now you're here perhaps the next few steps will be easier.

Kjell

You could have been reading my life story. I also quite meth years ago, but I kept drinking b/c I thought meth was my only problem or that somehow is was a larger problem than all the other crap I did. BIG MISTAKE. Alcohol caught up to me, among a few other things, and I've had consequence after consequence and lost much over the past 20 months.

The fact that you're posting on here says a lot. Please start working on your recovery if you're serious about quitting. No time to waste!

Good luck and welcome.

Dee74

Hi Ghostman

Welcome to SR

You'll find a lot of support and encouragement here.
Hope to see you around more.

I have to add my voice to the chorus and say drinking and taking meds is not a great idea - it makes the anti-ds pretty much worthless.

Have you thought of seeing your doctor as a first step to tackling your drinking, Ghostman?

D

Ghostman

Thanks!
Yes, I don't think I am an alcoholic, but I realize I need to slow way down though.. you are right, I think it just makes everything worse if anything.

Ghostman

Oh yes, good point!
I didn't think about that, mixing meds with alcohol.

Ghostman

Thanks!! I like the way you think!
That is positive energy right there!

Ghostman

Hey, I really liked what you wrote.
IT is great to have someone that relates to you in some ways..
I did think that I was cool after I quit meth, but that is a mistake, your right..
That is how I ended up with other problems just recently..
I guess I started thinking I was superman for a while, after I was able to stay away from meth...
But no, I am not, I just found new and different problems to deal with now..

Ghostman

No, never thought about that..
I don't want to really go there with a doctor..
I think I am better off with like a sponsor or something like that,
if I can find one that is..

Dee74

It's your call Ghostman - but I recommend everyone sees a Dr - for some of us detox can be rough.

D

TTOSBT

Hi ghostman,
Welcome!

I too had a problem with meth. I quit that 15 years ago and have never touched it again. After a couple of years of complete sobriety, I started to drink. Because alcohol was never a problem for me. Right? Wrong. I just switched addictions. It was not an immediate problem, it was progressive, just like they say. I wasted a decade trying to drink like a normal drinker. It finally brought me to my knees. I have now been sober from alcohol as well, for a year and a half. I wish I had done this years ago but it is what it is and I am thrilled with my life today.

Keep reading and posting. Only you can say whether you are an alcoholic. But I can tell you that no one can sponsor you unless you are willing to surrender and able to admit to your innermost self that you are an alcoholic.

Maybe a therapist would be a better fit? Good luck.