Class of December 09
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Join Date: Dec 2009
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Welcome to all the new classmates!
I'm also feeling depressed. This happens in January to some extent but not this bad. Yesterday, I started taking a B-complex. Today, I'm going to take a short walk even if it's freezing. I haven't exercised very much in the last 3 years.
Oh, and I'll be doing some cleaning today, 55. Good therapy!
I'm excited to report that today is 30 days for me.
I'm also feeling depressed. This happens in January to some extent but not this bad. Yesterday, I started taking a B-complex. Today, I'm going to take a short walk even if it's freezing. I haven't exercised very much in the last 3 years.
Oh, and I'll be doing some cleaning today, 55. Good therapy!
I'm excited to report that today is 30 days for me.
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Join Date: Nov 2009
Location: New Zealand
Posts: 151
Originally Posted by seeker7 
Welcome to all the new classmates!
I'm also feeling depressed. This happens in January to some extent but not this bad. Yesterday, I started taking a B-complex. Today, I'm going to take a short walk even if it's freezing. I haven't exercised very much in the last 3 years.
Oh, and I'll be doing some cleaning today, 55. Good therapy!
I'm excited to report that today is 30 days for me.
I'm also feeling depressed. This happens in January to some extent but not this bad. Yesterday, I started taking a B-complex. Today, I'm going to take a short walk even if it's freezing. I haven't exercised very much in the last 3 years.
Oh, and I'll be doing some cleaning today, 55. Good therapy!
I'm excited to report that today is 30 days for me.
but im sober
and 2010 is looking much better for me so far.i was thinking this morning it would be so cool to still be in this particular thread in say 6months...i would be super stoked!
day at a time tho.
seeyas
nd
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Join Date: Dec 2009
Location: Ohio
Posts: 133
Hey y'all!
Have I mentioned lately how grateful I am that we're all here?
It helps so much to have this place to check into, even more that you all are in such similar places in your recovery and taking it all day by day right along w/ me.
You are an inspiration, thanks for helping me stay positive.
(I will now insert as many smilies as possible for untox's benefit)
:wtf2
Hee, I think I just made a smiley sentence.
Okay, other than being completely eaten up- doing okay on day 22!
Have I mentioned lately how grateful I am that we're all here?
It helps so much to have this place to check into, even more that you all are in such similar places in your recovery and taking it all day by day right along w/ me.
You are an inspiration, thanks for helping me stay positive.
(I will now insert as many smilies as possible for untox's benefit)
:wtf2Hee, I think I just made a smiley sentence.
Okay, other than being completely eaten up- doing okay on day 22!
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Join Date: Jan 2010
Location: Washington
Posts: 69
I was hoping I could jump right in here, I am going on my 4th day sober...it's a start. Trying to even choke out a hello in group but I guess my butt's in the seat and that's what counts. I take so much strength from every post and give prayers in return.
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Somewhere west of the Mississippi
Posts: 224
I'm sure sleep is a problem for lots of us. It has been for me the past few nights. The flip side is that even though my sleep is awful, I still feel better during the day than I used to. Hoping that the sleep thing will fix itself with time.
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Join Date: Dec 2009
Location: Ohio
Posts: 133
How will drinking help you solve pressing problems?
In my experience it only made my problems worse.
One thing that I know is that Alcoholism is a progressive disease, I have seen the evidence of this in my own life and the lives of many I know.
Drinking may seem like the easy way out of your problems, but that's delusional.
I wish you best unbroken.
In my experience it only made my problems worse.
One thing that I know is that Alcoholism is a progressive disease, I have seen the evidence of this in my own life and the lives of many I know.
Drinking may seem like the easy way out of your problems, but that's delusional.
I wish you best unbroken.
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Join Date: Dec 2009
Location: Ohio
Posts: 133
Hey all : )
One thing I love about my sobriety is the way I feel when I wake up in the morning, rested and ready... I still have 'stuff' to deal with (problems, life in general) but I'm noticing these things don't seem nearly as insurmountable as they did a few weeks ago.
I do have occasional boughts of sadness or negativity, but I've found that they pass in an instant if I make an effort to focus on the positive... a yoga stretch, a few minutes outside or just taking a few deep breaths and I'm feeling good again.
Thirty- 16 days is awesome! I hope you are feeling better?
One thing I love about my sobriety is the way I feel when I wake up in the morning, rested and ready... I still have 'stuff' to deal with (problems, life in general) but I'm noticing these things don't seem nearly as insurmountable as they did a few weeks ago.
I do have occasional boughts of sadness or negativity, but I've found that they pass in an instant if I make an effort to focus on the positive... a yoga stretch, a few minutes outside or just taking a few deep breaths and I'm feeling good again.
Thirty- 16 days is awesome! I hope you are feeling better?
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Join Date: Aug 2009
Location: midsouth
Posts: 2,331
Unbroken - sorry to hear that... but it takes some of us a few go rounds before we figure it out for ourselves... too stubborn to admit/ or maybe too afraid to see that it won't get any better this way. If you must, try again... if it brings you back to a place you don't wanna be, you're always welcome to come back here. There are more than a few of us on here (myself in that group) who have had to go out again and come back. In the meantime, keep on "looking at this site as a place to change"... Keep reading.
I'm not so sure I'm feeling better to be honest. But of all the emotions that I've felt since sobering up (which are a lot), rage seems to be the most comfortable/most familiar, and for some reason (comfort?) I seem to be holding on to it.
Woke up all of a sudden this morning from a dream where I was drinking with my father (who hates me)... funny thing, unlike most other dreams I've had where I got back to drinking, I *knew* this one wasn't real. Not because it didn't seem like it, I could see/smell/hear everything in full realism--but because my father offered me and another a beer... and admitted he only had two so he offered to share one with the other person. My father has never shared a beer in his life, to the best of my knowledge, lol.
But either way, I'm still sober, hoping that this anger leaves me soon, or I learn to deal with it... anger was a problem for me before, I thought I was past that.
I'm not so sure I'm feeling better to be honest. But of all the emotions that I've felt since sobering up (which are a lot), rage seems to be the most comfortable/most familiar, and for some reason (comfort?) I seem to be holding on to it.
Woke up all of a sudden this morning from a dream where I was drinking with my father (who hates me)... funny thing, unlike most other dreams I've had where I got back to drinking, I *knew* this one wasn't real. Not because it didn't seem like it, I could see/smell/hear everything in full realism--but because my father offered me and another a beer... and admitted he only had two so he offered to share one with the other person. My father has never shared a beer in his life, to the best of my knowledge, lol.
But either way, I'm still sober, hoping that this anger leaves me soon, or I learn to deal with it... anger was a problem for me before, I thought I was past that.
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Join Date: Nov 2009
Location: New Zealand
Posts: 151
hi all!
its pretty plain to see that sobering up forces you to face your problems head on. there no liquored up sidestepping, avoidance etc. myself...im dealing with flat out boredom...all my 'fun' in the last few years has come from drinking. now im not drinking i dont know how to have a good time...mostly im staying at home with my girlfriend which is awesome! but im not a home body, i wanna keep doing stuff: going out with friends, musical jamming, socialising, getting out in nature, etc. but at present im struggling to enjoy anything...its freaking hard, because its wen i feel like this that i want to drink. BUT i know that drinking, although initially fun will just lead to misery like before & before & before...so my alternative is to harden up and just be bored & flat. im hoping that i will slowy start to get some 'natural' enjoyment of life back...currently wen i go out & socialise i feel im 'pretending' & 'going through the motions' of having a good time...not actually being happy. I just gotta be patient i guess! and keep making positive choices & i think activley asking my friends if they wanna go do stuff that doesnt involve drinking even tho i get bored. is a good thing to do.
oh also...today i got a sponser!
i am thankfull im sober & gratefull for so much...its just so hard, this initial period...obsessing over alcohol all the time!!! i cant wait for life to get better!
keep strong guys
nd:ghug3
its pretty plain to see that sobering up forces you to face your problems head on. there no liquored up sidestepping, avoidance etc. myself...im dealing with flat out boredom...all my 'fun' in the last few years has come from drinking. now im not drinking i dont know how to have a good time...mostly im staying at home with my girlfriend which is awesome! but im not a home body, i wanna keep doing stuff: going out with friends, musical jamming, socialising, getting out in nature, etc. but at present im struggling to enjoy anything...its freaking hard, because its wen i feel like this that i want to drink. BUT i know that drinking, although initially fun will just lead to misery like before & before & before...so my alternative is to harden up and just be bored & flat. im hoping that i will slowy start to get some 'natural' enjoyment of life back...currently wen i go out & socialise i feel im 'pretending' & 'going through the motions' of having a good time...not actually being happy. I just gotta be patient i guess! and keep making positive choices & i think activley asking my friends if they wanna go do stuff that doesnt involve drinking even tho i get bored. is a good thing to do.
oh also...today i got a sponser!
i am thankfull im sober & gratefull for so much...its just so hard, this initial period...obsessing over alcohol all the time!!! i cant wait for life to get better!
keep strong guys
nd:ghug3
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ND, I hear you loud and clear about not enjoying being a homebody... I'm not built that way either, but I've been forcing myself to like it for a few years now (I got the idea I should like being stable long before I thought of being sober... I did a few things backwards) and... I think that was a major factor in how liquor turned from "being fun" to "being something I had to do". Don't know when it happened, it just did.
Now I'm trying to get back into life, but I spent most of my 20s thinking it was the right thing to do, keep away from my previous group of friends and go to work etc (I might have been right about staying away from my friends--most are in prison/dead/or far worse off than me now). Dunno yet, but it's been seeming to me like I just wasted a bunch of years and accomplished nothing--and like it's too late to get back on track with being a normally socialized 29 year old.
I guess what I'm saying is... if you figure it out, please post it? I'd surely like to know anything I can about being my age and happy (spent most of my life around much older people).
And I'm doing much better now.
Blackbird--that was the initial thing that attracted me to sobriety... I had my doubts at first, but once I experienced that lightness or whatever you call it, that's the feeling I've been "chasing" ever since. Thank you for reminding me to see it... it'd sorta gotten lost in all the emotional stuff.
Take care y'all,
TB
Now I'm trying to get back into life, but I spent most of my 20s thinking it was the right thing to do, keep away from my previous group of friends and go to work etc (I might have been right about staying away from my friends--most are in prison/dead/or far worse off than me now). Dunno yet, but it's been seeming to me like I just wasted a bunch of years and accomplished nothing--and like it's too late to get back on track with being a normally socialized 29 year old.
I guess what I'm saying is... if you figure it out, please post it? I'd surely like to know anything I can about being my age and happy (spent most of my life around much older people).
And I'm doing much better now.
Blackbird--that was the initial thing that attracted me to sobriety... I had my doubts at first, but once I experienced that lightness or whatever you call it, that's the feeling I've been "chasing" ever since. Thank you for reminding me to see it... it'd sorta gotten lost in all the emotional stuff.
Take care y'all,
TB
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Join Date: Dec 2009
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blackbird- i am with you on still having pressing issues but waking up and feeling rested and ready to deal with the issues that life has to offer that day.......
day 10 for me
congrats to those of you who are hanging in there and adding to the count
unbrokenchain- hope that you are able to see that the best way to tackle trying times are sober...........but as i am sure you have already figured out everyone is here for you when you return
day 10 for me
congrats to those of you who are hanging in there and adding to the count
unbrokenchain- hope that you are able to see that the best way to tackle trying times are sober...........but as i am sure you have already figured out everyone is here for you when you return
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Somewhere west of the Mississippi
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Celebrating one week today. :day6
Trying to count the good things instead of the bad this time around. One good thing is I am more clearheaded at work all day so I'm getting a lot done. My energy is better and more focused.
Trying to count the good things instead of the bad this time around. One good thing is I am more clearheaded at work all day so I'm getting a lot done. My energy is better and more focused.
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