I'm home
 

I am home from the place. It was some much needed insight and rest.
I have an appointment with a half way house Dec 7th. It is a 6 to 9 mo program. I have to get public assistance and food stamps for me to stay there. My dad came to the family meeting and it was amazing. My dad has really been there for me. And I have even started to try and be civil with his wife.
I have my trusty NA book that my therapist gave me and perosnalized. I have read about 40 some pages already.
I had a mild panic episode upon leaving today. I am still a little shakey. But I will be ok.
I am now on some meds to stabalize my moods and anxiety.

I have been diagnosed with Bi polar 2, anxiety, mood disorder and borderline personality disorder. They have me on like 5 different meds. They kickjed my butt up until yesterday. I started welbitrin yesterday and started feeling good again. And today too.

I juts wanted to tell you guys whats up. I am still in my coat so I am going to get settled and I will be back.
I will be going to meetings. Even if I dont want to.
I am not thinking about a job or bills or anything except recovery for awhile.
Thats going to be my full time job for a little while.
I missed you guys and thought of you all often in my 7 days gone.

I want to add that reading the NA text has really shed alot of light on the program for me. It really answered alot of questions and squashed some ideas I had about 12 step.
I also watched half of My Name Is Bill W while in treatment. Didnt watch it all because there wasnt time.

So glad to see you back and see you are getting the help you need Sweetie:ghug3

(((Trish)))

I'm glad to see you, but SOOO glad to see that you've gotten some help and sound willing to do what it takes to get well. I know you never wanted all the "labels" of mental illness, but you will probably be surprised at how much better you feel when the chemicals are straightened out with the meds.

I have thought about you, so many times, and said many a prayer to "take care of my Trish".

Love, hugs, and prayers!

Amy

Welcome home Trish! :hug:
:scoregood

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It's good to see you back, Trish!

Yay! so glad you're doing better. Leaving the hospital was scary for me too, but you have a an outpatient plan so you're not totally being kicked out of the nest.

That is too cute.

You like that? Thats how much I love yous guuyssss.

Welcome home, (((Trish))).

My cats are goin nuts..LOL. AWWWW

Mommy's home!!!! Nothing like cats going crazy over you to make your heart smile:)

Welcome back! I know I don't post much on your threads, but I do always read them and I always find your insights very helpful! I'm glad you're back!

-Goat

Welcome home! I am so glad for you that you seem to be doing what you need to do for yourself. Bet you were as happy to see your cats as they were to se you!

Trish, get used to goofy slogans. :)

One day at a time!

Welcome "home" :)

welcome home Trish ... we surly missed you around here , good job on takes the best job you will ever get and thats workin on your soberity .. ~ huggles Endzy ~

I really have to say that reading the book has shed alot of light. It really has explained alot. It isnt like I thought it was. I really had formed my own idea of how it was. But reading just that little bit opened my eyes to alot I didnt relize.
I used a few of them to help other patients wanting to know about recovery. LOL imagine that. LOL
I am going to call the hotline again tomorrow and see if I can find a ride while I wait to go to sober living. I didnt know you could go right into sober lviing. I always thought you ahd to go to treatment first. And as long as I get public assistance I should be in.
I am so scared and nervous but so relieved at the same time. I ahve completely surrendered and it feels weird, but I feel relief at the same time.

Yay! :ghug3

what he said!