RohnertWestfiel

I have posted in the past and read a lot of items on here. and sad to say no matter how many times I heard that moderation hasn't worked for anyone else I let that voice back in that said "come on you can do it" I was at a wedding this past weekend in Vegas and just woke up the next morning and don't really remember much.... everyone said I was fine I was just having fun but why is that fun. I want to get better but totally keep getting in my own way. well I"m back to day 2 after being at month 6... I'm feeling like a loser.

eureka

Definitely not a loser. That voice is sneaky.

I already responded to your post in November so I will not say anything else.

Wolfchild

Welcome back.

parentrecovers

it's a cunning disease. don't beat yourself up. just try again and do things different this time. hugs, k

Anna

You're not a loser.

Addiction is a relentless disease and denial is a huge part of the issue.

I'm glad you're here.

Dee74

Hi again Rohnert

I agree with what others have said here...you're not a loser...this thing really is relentless...

for those of us who have crossed that alcoholic line, we just have to remember nothing ever changes with our drinking....ever.

Welcome back
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RohnertWestfiel

Thanks guys it's funny how that mad at yourself feeling is so familiar when you are this close to it. The reason I lasted the last 5 months was because I held on to that and I will give that a try and also do daily AT LEAST check in's here so I'm crossing my fingers. I am also shocked I didn't go on a week or month bender... the other thing that makes me nervous is I"m going on my Honeymoon a week from today for 2 weeks. My hubby is totally supportive so hopefully I can just keep the voice in MY head away.

Thanks so much for all the support.