ViciousCycle

I have league tonight.....all of my team drinks.....I am on day 4........I decided to be proactive and shot them all an email encouraging winning tonight and dropping the line that I was not drinking because I was taking a pain med for my knee.....not exactly honest but I want this to go easy.......not that they would ever pressure me, maybe I did it for me?

The team we are bowling does not drink at all so this should all go pretty well I hope.......I feel determined.......wonder how I will bowl without "aiming oil?" LOL........

sailorjohn

Well, I hope so too.

Dee74

I bowl every bit as bad sober VC

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FNW

Have great fun vc!

ANEWAUGUST

Have fun VC....

Way to be proactive in your recovery!!

dojoro

please post and tell how it goes. I will be faced with a similiar situation soon and I am not sure I can go it alone with just willpower. To many voices still inside my head. I think they are waiting for this moment. I may have to avoid it. I hope you stay sober and bowl well.

Jo

OZboy

X X X..good bowling..Oz

firestorm090

Is it legal to bowl without a drink, lol.

Hang tough tonight and don't worry bout the gutter balls, after a few of those, it's a real victory just to keep the ball on the lane, lol.

ViciousCycle

Ok.......bowling report.

I have the shakes.......way too much Mt. Dew and Skittles.....I did awesome....bowled 175, 165, 165......more importantly, I had FUN. I realize that all the beer was KEEPING me from fun. I was more worried about teetering a bit on the lane than throwing the ball right!

Second big thing? I don't have to wake up tomorrow wondering....."did I act drunk?"
"did anyone notice?" "what were my scores?" "did my team win any games?" "did I put my ball back in my locker?" ISN'T THAT AWFUL?????????

I have alot more money in my pocket.

Lastly, my drive home........no looking in the rearview worried about a cop pulling up behind me.....I actually smiled and talked to myself.....I was PROUD. It was the most relaxing ride home.....I just smiled and took a deep breath in.......I kept saying, "way to go Wendy, way to go." That may sound weird but if you know how captive I was....it led to some paranoia to drive.......

How in the hell did I EVER think I needed to drink to have fun?

Thanks for listening and your posts.

You can do this too Jo.

Richard54

Sounds like you've nailed it this time VC ...Bravo!

mirage

Awesome, VC!! So glad to hear it!

dojoro

So glad it went as planned. More importantly so glad to hear about all the positives as a result of not drinking. I have been focusing on the negative. I can completely relate to all you said and I hope when put in that situation I can do it too. You don't need to drink ot have fun!

Jo

Tazman53

A major discovery for me as well!!!!

Congrats on the bowling and staying sober and all of the discoveries about sobriety!

Jo I have found by focusing on the posotive I become more postive!

I have heard many say that they stop them selfs from drinking by thinking about all the bad things that have happened to them due to drinking............... very depressing!

I fought the urge to drink by keeping an attitude of gratitude, I focused on all the good things I enjoy due to being sober, that is not depressing at all!!!

In the rooms I have heard many say that if one maintains an attitude of gratitude a drink is not an option..... I agree.

Sikkisirus

Its great you had a fab time - a lot of my pubs darts team don't drink and they still have a rare old time

Threshold

Discovering THIS was a total turn around for me in choosing sobriety over using. At first I was all pouty over what I could no longer do, then it was like DUH...it's all about what I CAN do that I had no access to when I was using. The truth is I CAN use again, that option is always open to me...but as soon as I take it, all other doors close...so why would I choose that when it costs me everything else?

so I choose freedom, I choose feeling good, I choose no hangovers, I choose tasting food, enjoying sex, self esteem, seeing myself grow as a person, etc.

it's like having the option of eating one things that will make me sick, fat and ill for a really long time, or having 7000 great things that I can eat as much as I want of and feel good after.

ViciousCycle

Well said Thresh, and everyone else too..........I wish I did not forget things like this down the road.......maybe this time I won't. It felt good waking up today and remembering every little detail about the night........nice.

Know what else? Karma......it's real......I won the football pool at bowling last night!
Sweeeeet!!!!!

wanttolive

That's awesome VC. I've been to watch a few people in bowling leagues around here and I give you alot of credit for staying strong! It seems at the ones I went to see everyone was drinking (well it is WI) including me. I don't think I could go watch the leagues right now and be as strong as you!