thiskidknows

is it these i shoul;d be looking at as i get some but not all, i get pins and needles in my hands, i shake badly, i wake up sweating, but cold/clammy too touch, then after a few hours i'm cold. i don't know.. i only drink about a bottle of vodka a night which i think is about 25 unitts that what i been told...I don't know what's wrong with me. nobody does but drinking and using helps. i'm stupid i know. sorry

Cognitive (possible affects):

- Concentration and attention span impaired.
- Confusion
- Racing or recycling thoughts (highly distracting).
- Thoughts scattered and incoherent.
- Rigid thinking and lack of (normal) required flexibility.
- Difficulties with abstract and conceptual thoughts.
- Cause and effect reasoning impaired.
- Themes and threads connecting events not recognised.
- Prioritization (management of one's time and energy) impaired.

Emotional (possible affects):

- Emotionally dead or emotionally hyper.
- Small events of little consequence treated as catastrophic.
- Valent thoughts (not bonded with reality/experience) difficult to shake.
- social withdrawal.
- Recovering alcoholic believes they are going, or have gone, mad.
- Lack of emotion affects personal resolve to stay sober.

Memory (possible affects):

- Recently learned information (within last 30 minutes) quickly forgotten.
- New skills or routines not learned or assimilated naturally (if at all).
- Information retained but then lost after days/weeks.
- Developmental and childhood memories broken (patchy early memory).

thiskidknows

I keep reading the emotionally dead and emotionally hyper part does that mean it could be drink related and not "mental" related? as that is me, i'm never calm unless its "induced"..so i'm doing this to myself, i'm "causing" even more problems for me?. when i'm hyper i do crazy things. on a bipolar test they done i scored 45 but i don't know what it means and go back monday. i don't know. they just stick labels on me and i don't like it. they wanted me to go to brenchley unit (personaility disorder unit near where i live), but i refused cause i dono't think i do ahve one. I get confused. the nosies are triggers for me and when i get triggered i don't cope.

smacked

I also hope that you get some professional help.

As long as you stay drunk or drugged up, there wont be a clear view of what's going on with you, nor a proper plan for any sort of relief.

That of course, is your choice.

thiskidknows

iab there any1 fron london or kent that cn hekp me i am drunk on vofka

smacked

if you come back online, and still need help, please consider calling emergency services if you need it!!

barb dwyer

TKS wrote -
Hon, you only proved that you can't do this by yourself.

And for calling the hotline, simply ask for a woman.
Some towns, people will even meet you and take you TO the meeting.

IT's different in different towns, of course -
but *we* go to whatever lengths
to help someone get sober.

We have to
to keep OURSELVES sober.

So don't look at it that you are being a 'bother'
to any of us.
You're doing US the favor
of helping US stay sober another day.

I hope you'll choose to call again.

thiskidknows

im still drunk. i;ve used smack. i';ve pushed all mny good friends away,. i;m now nothing in this world.

Dee74

There's some really good advice here TKN.

Do something different - pls reach out - it sounds like a cliche but it really is true:

nothing changes if nothing changes.

D

thiskidknows

i will try emailing. i'm wasted. i'm drinking and using i feel numb though. i cant do this on my own. i've spoken to my drug worker and she's gonna call me back in a bit. i'm messing up and she's away next week. i'm scared that i won't get out of this.

Dee74

keep postng here too TKN.
You're not alone

D

thiskidknows

I'v made a huge mistake smoking heroin wasn't enough now i've started injecting, i don't want this but needed it, my drug worker wants me to think about goin on the script before my habit gets out of hand. she's away next week but cause i told her what i'd done i'm seeing a collegue of her's tuesday. I've just brought another 40 worth of gear. I don't know how to stop, i know i need to and i want to before it kills me. each time casue i drink as well i'm risking killing myself. i need to stop. i keep trying to send an email but i'm not sure what to say. is there anyone who will help me, i need i think a sponsor someone who understands and when i get a craving or want to use or get wasted i can speak to, but i've nobody in real life that i can call.

Threshold

I'm praying, yes, there are many someone's who will help you through this, I am praying one will connect with you. I'm overseas so the logistics, other than online, don't work, but if PMing here will help,. I'll do all I can.

You don't have to keep using, no matter what you have on hand, no matter what you just bought, you don't have to use.

I do understand so I can say honestly, you don't have to use.

did you use that link someone posted earlier about getting local help?

It's not a voice on the phone, but we are real here.

thiskidknows

I've been tryin to email them but i don't know what to say other then i'm in trouble with drinking and drugs. I did end up using again but after 2nite i don't want to again but i am addicted now. and i don't want to be. i need help, i have my drug worker but only see her once a week although can contact her daily if i need to, but sometimes its a night when i need to talk but have nobody. i will keep trying with the email. i need to go sleep now though as i'm feeling wasted,.