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Day 27… another early post for me today. Wife went to the market… Jr. is watching Star Wars (he is a boy obsessed)… and I’m trying to finish up some things I didn’t get to yesterday… but my stomach is killing me… erg. I think I’m going to declare a family movie day, .
Mirage: our due date is January 23rd-ish. Our first was only 6 days late… oddly enough… he was born in a Winter Olympiad too! Lol… I thing the family should take up curling,
Asta: I feel for you too! Professions that demand continuing education is a drag. I used to teach high school and that was something I never looked forward too. Especially since teachers have to pay for the additional classes out of their own pocket… but I guess you can write them off as an unreimbursed job expense though, right? It’s still a downer… teachers don’t make enough for what they do… they enter an emotional and physical war zone everyday and don’t get danger pay!
Thirsty: Good job on one more day! You’re doing so well I’ve lost track of your count! What are you up to?
Take care everyone!
Mirage: our due date is January 23rd-ish. Our first was only 6 days late… oddly enough… he was born in a Winter Olympiad too! Lol… I thing the family should take up curling,
Asta: I feel for you too! Professions that demand continuing education is a drag. I used to teach high school and that was something I never looked forward too. Especially since teachers have to pay for the additional classes out of their own pocket… but I guess you can write them off as an unreimbursed job expense though, right? It’s still a downer… teachers don’t make enough for what they do… they enter an emotional and physical war zone everyday and don’t get danger pay!
Thirsty: Good job on one more day! You’re doing so well I’ve lost track of your count! What are you up to?
Take care everyone!
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Tytan..."only 6 days late"..Lol! Clearly you weren't the one carrying him! Curling sounds really.....exciting.
Yesterday started out crappy and ended on a high. The Christmas tree fell over...fully decorated..water spilled, etc. Actually it happened twice. I was not a happy camper. Went to 5 diff stores to find a better stand. When I got home, the task was a little overwhelming, so I went to a friends to practice some songs we wanna "record". (Just for fun.) Anyway...got home late and viola! The tree was up and all decorated and the house was clean! My little elves were busy while I was gone. It was awesome. AND..my friend and I got our first song on a CD so I was wired.
Day 23 today..been feeling a little down, but not hungover. I'll take it.
Hope you all are doing well! Big hugs out to you!
Yesterday started out crappy and ended on a high. The Christmas tree fell over...fully decorated..water spilled, etc. Actually it happened twice. I was not a happy camper. Went to 5 diff stores to find a better stand. When I got home, the task was a little overwhelming, so I went to a friends to practice some songs we wanna "record". (Just for fun.) Anyway...got home late and viola! The tree was up and all decorated and the house was clean! My little elves were busy while I was gone. It was awesome. AND..my friend and I got our first song on a CD so I was wired.
Day 23 today..been feeling a little down, but not hungover. I'll take it.
Hope you all are doing well! Big hugs out to you!
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Day 28… crazy. I went to a “family” Christmas gathering last night solo… it was hosted by a friend… we were both her without our wives this summer and totally boozed it up together (over the summer that is)… I was dreading the party because I knew I was going to be offered lots to drink… my wife had some school work to finish so it was just me and my son going… we were there first… erg! And of course I was offered a beer upon my arrival… drat! But I was like, “maybe later, but soda water sounds really great to start with if you have any.” I always say this with a slightly pained look and a pat to my belly like I might be dealing with a little indigestion… “of course we have soda water, do you want ice?”… it was that easy. I wasn’t offered another adult beverage for the rest of the night.
My wife was really proud of me. She called me while I was at the party and asked how the drinking was going… she sounded so excited when I told her I hasn’t had anything. “See you can do it! Even without me around.” I think she knew it was going to be a challenge going to a party hosted by an old drinking buddy… but I prevailed. At least for one more day!
Have a great one everybody!
My wife was really proud of me. She called me while I was at the party and asked how the drinking was going… she sounded so excited when I told her I hasn’t had anything. “See you can do it! Even without me around.” I think she knew it was going to be a challenge going to a party hosted by an old drinking buddy… but I prevailed. At least for one more day!
Have a great one everybody!
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Good job Tytan... A lil' ol' indigestion goes a long way. That is cute--and I've had similar experiences with being offered "adult beverages" at events.
Well, I messed up y'all. Sorry. I couldn't deal with the weekend, and the internet constantly messing up prevented me from doing most homework--and I say most. I could have thought up something, I'm sure. But I let it get me into a cycle of anger/frustration/feelings of uselessness and pointlessness of my existence...
Seeing as I'm in the middle of finals, now is not a time I can go through the withdrawal parts... maybe later on in the week or next week for sure. This sure doesn't feel great. I didn't even want to drink come Monday, but I didn't want to go through the shaking and all that either. Too much to do, too much to make up for having had those flus and all that. And yet I'm convinced it's all my mind telling me this--these two weeks would have been so much easier without liquor, but now I don't really know what to do.
Sorry.
Take care of y'all selves.
TB
Well, I messed up y'all. Sorry. I couldn't deal with the weekend, and the internet constantly messing up prevented me from doing most homework--and I say most. I could have thought up something, I'm sure. But I let it get me into a cycle of anger/frustration/feelings of uselessness and pointlessness of my existence...
Seeing as I'm in the middle of finals, now is not a time I can go through the withdrawal parts... maybe later on in the week or next week for sure. This sure doesn't feel great. I didn't even want to drink come Monday, but I didn't want to go through the shaking and all that either. Too much to do, too much to make up for having had those flus and all that. And yet I'm convinced it's all my mind telling me this--these two weeks would have been so much easier without liquor, but now I don't really know what to do.
Sorry.
Take care of y'all selves.
TB
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Yeah, what Tytan said, TB. I can't imagine trying to do this with no one around to distract me, which is what it sounds like for you, for the most part. Hang in there..you're doing the best you can, and it sounds like you're in a better place over all.
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Day 30 of this madness!
Erg… I walked by the commissary today and they had some shipping boxes marked Sam Adams… good American Beer is hard to come by around here… and the surprise commissary shipments were always a treat… not just dread. I wonder is Sam Adams makes soda water. Lol.
Well… November is definitely winding down… where do you think everyone went? This is the only thread I post on… I only have time for one and I’m not ready to give up on this board… Being that we’re the November we’re not going to get any new members… hmmm… any thoughts? This is my group… so I’m up for some ideas.
Erg… I walked by the commissary today and they had some shipping boxes marked Sam Adams… good American Beer is hard to come by around here… and the surprise commissary shipments were always a treat… not just dread. I wonder is Sam Adams makes soda water. Lol.
Well… November is definitely winding down… where do you think everyone went? This is the only thread I post on… I only have time for one and I’m not ready to give up on this board… Being that we’re the November we’re not going to get any new members… hmmm… any thoughts? This is my group… so I’m up for some ideas.
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30 Days for Tytan!! 
That's great...so happy for you!
I know...it has been reeeally quiet here as of late. I'm thinking maybe it runs hot and cold? Maybe everyone's doing so well they don't need as much support? That's what I'm hoping! Plus they could be busier with the holidays. If it really does go stagnant, don't be afraid to join a different month, too, if you need more interaction...I'm sure you'd be welcomed there, too!
Anyway, day 25 for me..
That's great...so happy for you! I know...it has been reeeally quiet here as of late. I'm thinking maybe it runs hot and cold? Maybe everyone's doing so well they don't need as much support? That's what I'm hoping! Plus they could be busier with the holidays. If it really does go stagnant, don't be afraid to join a different month, too, if you need more interaction...I'm sure you'd be welcomed there, too!
Anyway, day 25 for me..
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Day 31! Wow… It’s pretty hard to believe…
Congrat’s on 25 days! That’s awesome!
So… have you noticed a December group? I’ve also noticed the October groups get s smattering of posts. Would it be weird to start a new thread consolidating all three months? “October, November, December 2009”?
Just a thought.
-Tytan
Congrat’s on 25 days! That’s awesome!
So… have you noticed a December group? I’ve also noticed the October groups get s smattering of posts. Would it be weird to start a new thread consolidating all three months? “October, November, December 2009”?
Just a thought.
-Tytan
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Day 32!
Last night after making my post... I told my wife I'd made it to day 31. She was to proud of me she was sat on my lap and gave me a big kiss and said, "if you were going to meetings i bet they would give you a coin or something." "Yeah, probably" "You deserve a coin". At when time to took her wallet and pulled out a real AA coin. She gave it to me saying, "My grandma has a million of these and gave me one a long time ago... it's probably for one year of sobriety but who cares. It's your now, but you have to promise to keep it in your pocket from now on.”
It was very sweet.
Last night after making my post... I told my wife I'd made it to day 31. She was to proud of me she was sat on my lap and gave me a big kiss and said, "if you were going to meetings i bet they would give you a coin or something." "Yeah, probably" "You deserve a coin". At when time to took her wallet and pulled out a real AA coin. She gave it to me saying, "My grandma has a million of these and gave me one a long time ago... it's probably for one year of sobriety but who cares. It's your now, but you have to promise to keep it in your pocket from now on.”
It was very sweet.
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Congrats Tytan
And Mirage, and Future, and everybody else hanging in there.
I decided to come back to reality... Just don't want to take it anymore, always being half-sick really. It's a risk, because I still have papers to write, tests to take... But I'm going to try. I hope that I don't have bad withdrawals. Due to the timing, though, I have to keep open the possibility that I might have to keep it up, if only to be in a good enough state of mind to take these finals.
Please don't hate me y'all.
Take care of y'all selves,
TB
And Mirage, and Future, and everybody else hanging in there.
I decided to come back to reality... Just don't want to take it anymore, always being half-sick really. It's a risk, because I still have papers to write, tests to take... But I'm going to try. I hope that I don't have bad withdrawals. Due to the timing, though, I have to keep open the possibility that I might have to keep it up, if only to be in a good enough state of mind to take these finals.
Please don't hate me y'all.
Take care of y'all selves,
TB
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Congrats to everyone not doing what I did on Wednesday. So depressing, and apparently I was depressed. I used the excuse that husband was out of town so I convinced my self that no harm, no foul. Of course that's the biggest crock of you know what. So back on day 2. Tytan, I'm so happy for you that your marital thing is straightening out. And Mirage thanks for the PM. It really meant a lot. I'm so upset with myself, I'm sitting here crying while I type this. Guess it's good I sit far enough away so I don't damage the keyboard. I really don't want to screw up the holidays. Just got to keep my act together. SR really helps a lot. Guess enough depressing yak. I'll be back tomorrow. Back to chores that got ignored.
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(((((((hugs to all))))))
Holiday season kind of sucks...............I won't be reporting in much....it's too hard right now.........I can't seem to find my sea legs..........I have every reason in the world to be happy right now..........just can't seem to "see" it.....or "feel" it........not on the inside. No one knows how it is, how lonely you can be in a room full of people..........is it not being happy with yourself? I have one more paper to write this weekend for school, then I am done..........literally.......I have no more money to pay for school........so I cannot go any further..........too bad,,,,,,I got all A's.............I am just an older lady that was going for a nursing degree........since I was single I thought it might help pay the bills............Hmmm...? Just venting........thanks for listening.......
Holiday season kind of sucks...............I won't be reporting in much....it's too hard right now.........I can't seem to find my sea legs..........I have every reason in the world to be happy right now..........just can't seem to "see" it.....or "feel" it........not on the inside. No one knows how it is, how lonely you can be in a room full of people..........is it not being happy with yourself? I have one more paper to write this weekend for school, then I am done..........literally.......I have no more money to pay for school........so I cannot go any further..........too bad,,,,,,I got all A's.............I am just an older lady that was going for a nursing degree........since I was single I thought it might help pay the bills............Hmmm...? Just venting........thanks for listening.......
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Don't give up VC - I bet you everyone here knows exactly how you feel.
Things do get better when you find you can love yourself yes IMO - and the way to start doing that is to stop abusing ourselves, stop drinking and stay stopped.
I'm sorry about school too - are there any scholarship or trainee schemes available?
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Things do get better when you find you can love yourself yes IMO - and the way to start doing that is to stop abusing ourselves, stop drinking and stay stopped.
I'm sorry about school too - are there any scholarship or trainee schemes available?
D
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Day 33!
Thirsty: Great to have you back 100%!!!
Mirage: I am a lucky man… the best thing is that I finally know just how lucky I am.
Asta: Day 2 is way better than Day 0!!! Hang in there… I’m going to need to lean on you guys pretty soon. Dodging all these happy hours and what not are easy when I have my wife to go home too… but she leaves next Friday morning (for the birth)… I will have a week on my own before I join her. The “no harm no fowl” voice has already started talking to me… but my “stay sober game plan voice” is talking a little bit louder. I totally understand where you are coming from… and I’m a bit worried about my week alone. Drinking always starts as a boredom thing for me. ERG! But, I’m staying focused! Eye on the prize, right? This will be good practice… I’ll have a year away from my family next year in Pakistan. Erg! And VC, you are right… the holidays are very lonely… I want to stay sober and saver this year’s Holiday… I won’t make it home in time for Christmas next year.
Dee: Welcome back!
Thirsty: Great to have you back 100%!!!
Mirage: I am a lucky man… the best thing is that I finally know just how lucky I am.
Asta: Day 2 is way better than Day 0!!! Hang in there… I’m going to need to lean on you guys pretty soon. Dodging all these happy hours and what not are easy when I have my wife to go home too… but she leaves next Friday morning (for the birth)… I will have a week on my own before I join her. The “no harm no fowl” voice has already started talking to me… but my “stay sober game plan voice” is talking a little bit louder. I totally understand where you are coming from… and I’m a bit worried about my week alone. Drinking always starts as a boredom thing for me. ERG! But, I’m staying focused! Eye on the prize, right? This will be good practice… I’ll have a year away from my family next year in Pakistan. Erg! And VC, you are right… the holidays are very lonely… I want to stay sober and saver this year’s Holiday… I won’t make it home in time for Christmas next year.
Dee: Welcome back!
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((VC))
I had a longer reply, but my internet connection killed it. Basically, it was that since I've known you, I've known you to be persistent. You got to college once, no reason you can't get back there again if the situation changes.
The other thing was, I second Dee on the scholarship thingy. Because most are for freshmen/ young women/ what have you, I'd largely dismissed that option but recently won some even after the deadline... by applying really. There are a couple major sites that have info on that... I'm sure your financial aid office has those sites posted on their wall.
The other thing I thought up, actually the first I thought really (it came up in a discussion last night) was you might find someone to pay your whole way. If your grown (ie proven at life...) and you're getting all A's in nursing... the state of California would probably like to talk to you. We import nurses, can't get enough... and they pay the whole way if they're willing to stay, I believe. Other states/hospitals/somebody might be willing to pay for you if you promise to go work for them... Just an idea.
Take care of yourself what ever you do
Tytan, Mirage, Asta, keep on hanging in there.
We can all go forward...
Take care everybody, I gotta sleep so I can wake up for my vacation. I'll talk to y'all later.
TB
I had a longer reply, but my internet connection killed it. Basically, it was that since I've known you, I've known you to be persistent. You got to college once, no reason you can't get back there again if the situation changes.
The other thing was, I second Dee on the scholarship thingy. Because most are for freshmen/ young women/ what have you, I'd largely dismissed that option but recently won some even after the deadline... by applying really. There are a couple major sites that have info on that... I'm sure your financial aid office has those sites posted on their wall.
The other thing I thought up, actually the first I thought really (it came up in a discussion last night) was you might find someone to pay your whole way. If your grown (ie proven at life...) and you're getting all A's in nursing... the state of California would probably like to talk to you. We import nurses, can't get enough... and they pay the whole way if they're willing to stay, I believe. Other states/hospitals/somebody might be willing to pay for you if you promise to go work for them... Just an idea.
Take care of yourself what ever you do
Tytan, Mirage, Asta, keep on hanging in there.
We can all go forward...
Take care everybody, I gotta sleep so I can wake up for my vacation. I'll talk to y'all later.
TB
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