Today
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Join Date: Oct 2009
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Today
My first post yesterday brought lots of great response and I got to know a little about the group. It was a good feeling to know I would be welcome here.
Yesterday I did not make it through but I knew I would not. I had a friend come from SF and the event was a party. But, I took it very easy and am not sick today. I won't see him for a long time.
Today is the day. My wife is behind me, I told my boozing buddies that this is it. I have lined up some cool things to do in the place of the bar. I want Oct 25 to be the day.
I have said this 300 times in the last 3 years. We will see what comes...
Thanks for your support.
Yesterday I did not make it through but I knew I would not. I had a friend come from SF and the event was a party. But, I took it very easy and am not sick today. I won't see him for a long time.
Today is the day. My wife is behind me, I told my boozing buddies that this is it. I have lined up some cool things to do in the place of the bar. I want Oct 25 to be the day.
I have said this 300 times in the last 3 years. We will see what comes...
Thanks for your support.
My first post yesterday brought lots of great response and I got to know a little about the group. It was a good feeling to know I would be welcome here.
Yesterday I did not make it through but I knew I would not. I had a friend come from SF and the event was a party. But, I took it very easy and am not sick today. I won't see him for a long time.
Today is the day. My wife is behind me, I told my boozing buddies that this is it. I have lined up some cool things to do in the place of the bar. I want Oct 25 to be the day.
I have said this 300 times in the last 3 years. We will see what comes...
Thanks for your support.
Yesterday I did not make it through but I knew I would not. I had a friend come from SF and the event was a party. But, I took it very easy and am not sick today. I won't see him for a long time.
Today is the day. My wife is behind me, I told my boozing buddies that this is it. I have lined up some cool things to do in the place of the bar. I want Oct 25 to be the day.
I have said this 300 times in the last 3 years. We will see what comes...
Thanks for your support.
i loved the pubs and i loved being drunk
today a few months later i'm much more healthy my eyes are a normal colour the liver pains are a distant memory
i have lost a little weight and i feel good to be me again
my kids have their dad back and its all good
you can do this my friend and having your wife behind you really is a massive help
well done on taking the first step to a much better life
Congrats on deciding to live a sober life! It's so much better than when drinking. Think of the money you'll save and the horrible things that can't happen to you. No black outs, no dui's, no wondering what you did last night... Yes, living sober is the way to go!
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Join Date: Sep 2008
Location: The Swish Alps, SF CA
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I have said this 300 times in the last 3 years. We will see what comes...
If this attempt doesn't work can you be open to a new experience? trying AA? So you don't have to do this alone?
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Join Date: Sep 2008
Location: The Swish Alps, SF CA
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It would be nice if my thoughts were not so completely and constantly thinking about this. I wonder how long before that stops.
Alcoholism is a mental obsession with a physical allergy, this is what the obsession part looks like, it will try every trick you know to make you drink, it will make you happy (I need a drink) it will make you sad (I need a drink) friends will visit (I need a drink) I have a lot of stress (I need a drink) and so on
In my experience it never goes away until addressed, until you take action to make it stop, this is what's called "white knuckling" and personally I'd rather drink then go through that again.
If it proves troublesome, doesn't stop, or you should drink again, come see us in the twelve step forum, we found a way that has worked with us.
Be careful.. life is going to hand you much harder 'excuses' to drink than "my friend was here and we had to party".. what are you putting in your recovery toolbox that will protect you when life really hands you a reason (excuse) to get sh!tbombed?
I wasn't able to stop obsessing about drinking until I had come to a place in my mind and likely my spirit that knew I didn't want to ever drink again. I became convinced it would ruin my life, and I became excited for my NEW life. Before I was 'done'.. I obsessed and obsessed about it a lot.
What support do you have? What is your treatment plan?
I wasn't able to stop obsessing about drinking until I had come to a place in my mind and likely my spirit that knew I didn't want to ever drink again. I became convinced it would ruin my life, and I became excited for my NEW life. Before I was 'done'.. I obsessed and obsessed about it a lot.
What support do you have? What is your treatment plan?
Hi Sandpoint. Be proud of your decision, it's great to have you here with us.
I obsessed about drinking/getting sober for awhile, but trust me - that will all ease up with time. This is a new life you are about to embark on and it takes some adjustment.
For what it's worth, I had many false starts and was here for a few months before I actually got up the courage to pour out my last beer. That was 1 yr. 9 mos. ago & I have not picked up again - thanks to SR and the comfort/encouragement I received here. I was no longer alone, and that was huge. I drank heavily for over 25yrs. & in the end, daily. As they say, alcoholism is a progressive disease. No one wants or expects their first few innocent drinks to turn into a living hell - but when we finally see the light, we can get well and have a beautiful new life.
I obsessed about drinking/getting sober for awhile, but trust me - that will all ease up with time. This is a new life you are about to embark on and it takes some adjustment.
For what it's worth, I had many false starts and was here for a few months before I actually got up the courage to pour out my last beer. That was 1 yr. 9 mos. ago & I have not picked up again - thanks to SR and the comfort/encouragement I received here. I was no longer alone, and that was huge. I drank heavily for over 25yrs. & in the end, daily. As they say, alcoholism is a progressive disease. No one wants or expects their first few innocent drinks to turn into a living hell - but when we finally see the light, we can get well and have a beautiful new life.
I'm glad you're trying again to live a sober life.
I had to be at the point, where there were no longer any excuses to drink. There were only reasons to be sober, and I had to do whatever it took.
I had to be at the point, where there were no longer any excuses to drink. There were only reasons to be sober, and I had to do whatever it took.
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Join Date: Oct 2009
Location: St Paul MN
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I have an attitude or frame of mind that I cannot live like this anymore. I have been moving closer to this for the last year. There are times when I feel very serene about this decision and look forward to getting back to where I once was but I have continued to fail only because I wasn't really committed.
I am tired of it all. It is a total ******** way to live. I have that for sure.
As far as a plan? That is tough. I hate to say this to the people here in AA and I don't say it to my religious friends but I absolutely do not believe in a higher power in any way shape or form. That is all I will say about that but... AA is centralized around that concept and I can't handle that idea at all.
I am going to learn a language, which is a life long dream, go to the gym more, start yoga soon (procrastinating) and stop going to dinner with my 2 boozing buddies every night. Beyond that, I think that I will look inside of myself and try to grow every day so that this isn't white knuckling it, which is exactly what it is right now and so I can eventually get past this f'ing thing.
Every time I get in this forum, and read or write, i start crying.
I am tired of it all. It is a total ******** way to live. I have that for sure.
As far as a plan? That is tough. I hate to say this to the people here in AA and I don't say it to my religious friends but I absolutely do not believe in a higher power in any way shape or form. That is all I will say about that but... AA is centralized around that concept and I can't handle that idea at all.
I am going to learn a language, which is a life long dream, go to the gym more, start yoga soon (procrastinating) and stop going to dinner with my 2 boozing buddies every night. Beyond that, I think that I will look inside of myself and try to grow every day so that this isn't white knuckling it, which is exactly what it is right now and so I can eventually get past this f'ing thing.
Every time I get in this forum, and read or write, i start crying.
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
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Location: Serene In Dixie
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Hi again...
Living as a non drinker required change and action for me.
I had to form new ideas ...set goals....change friends.
That's why I found AA immensley useful.
I wish you the best as you find your way....
Living as a non drinker required change and action for me.
I had to form new ideas ...set goals....change friends.
That's why I found AA immensley useful.
I wish you the best as you find your way....
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Join Date: Sep 2008
Location: The Swish Alps, SF CA
Posts: 2,144
I hate to say this to the people here in AA and I don't say it to my religious friends but I absolutely do not believe in a higher power in any way shape or form. That is all I will say about that but... AA is centralized around that concept and I can't handle that idea at all.
regardless, whatever route you should decide to take we are here for you, there are good resources here should you decide to utilize them
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-three-aa.html
As far as a plan? That is tough. I hate to say this to the people here in AA and I don't say it to my religious friends but I absolutely do not believe in a higher power in any way shape or form. That is all I will say about that but... AA is centralized around that concept and I can't handle that idea at all.
Not all better, getting better
Join Date: Feb 2002
Location: The Beautiful Inner Banks of NC
Posts: 1,702
I have an attitude or frame of mind that I cannot live like this anymore. I have been moving closer to this for the last year. There are times when I feel very serene about this decision and look forward to getting back to where I once was but I have continued to fail only because I wasn't really committed.
I am tired of it all. It is a total ******** way to live. I have that for sure.
As far as a plan? That is tough. I hate to say this to the people here in AA and I don't say it to my religious friends but I absolutely do not believe in a higher power in any way shape or form. That is all I will say about that but... AA is centralized around that concept and I can't handle that idea at all.
I am going to learn a language, which is a life long dream, go to the gym more, start yoga soon (procrastinating) and stop going to dinner with my 2 boozing buddies every night. Beyond that, I think that I will look inside of myself and try to grow every day so that this isn't white knuckling it, which is exactly what it is right now and so I can eventually get past this f'ing thing.
Every time I get in this forum, and read or write, i start crying.
I am tired of it all. It is a total ******** way to live. I have that for sure.
As far as a plan? That is tough. I hate to say this to the people here in AA and I don't say it to my religious friends but I absolutely do not believe in a higher power in any way shape or form. That is all I will say about that but... AA is centralized around that concept and I can't handle that idea at all.
I am going to learn a language, which is a life long dream, go to the gym more, start yoga soon (procrastinating) and stop going to dinner with my 2 boozing buddies every night. Beyond that, I think that I will look inside of myself and try to grow every day so that this isn't white knuckling it, which is exactly what it is right now and so I can eventually get past this f'ing thing.
Every time I get in this forum, and read or write, i start crying.
I don't really care for their boards or online meetings (though don't let that discourage you from checking them out and making your own decision!) but they do have an excellent "toolbox" section. In there you will finde suggestions of how to deal with situations that are likely to make drinking more likely. Like your buddy visiting, or your friends wanting to "take you out", or having a really bad day that you just want to forget about for awhile. These things will happen and you have a much better chance of making it through sober if you have some kind of plan in place instead of "winging it".
Another good site is LifeRing Home Page
Alot of similar stuff, from a slightly different angle. You can also join us over in the Secular Connections forum here on SR. It's not the most active forum here, but there is a nice group of folks that will offer advice and unconditional support to you.
I wish you all the best on your journey. It really is a journey in that it is truly life changing. Take care.
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Location: Oxnard (The Nard), CA, USA.
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I work a secular addiction treatment program and it has been very effective in bringing me wholesome results. Some of my treatment plan includes going to AA once or twice a week. I go to the meetings for the fellowship. Nothing like being in a room full of people striving to get and maintain sobriety even if I work a different program than the one laid out in the Big Book. It helps me maintain my commitment and gives me some accountability to be in a meeting not to mention that sober friendships give me a social outlet.
I also do much more to maintain a continuing treatment program: SoberRecovery, CBT, therapy, mindfulness, Buddhism and expanding and developing a wholesome life style, just to name a few of the things I do to have a healthy mind/body.
I also do much more to maintain a continuing treatment program: SoberRecovery, CBT, therapy, mindfulness, Buddhism and expanding and developing a wholesome life style, just to name a few of the things I do to have a healthy mind/body.
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