what about when you're done with trying to have a relationship?
 

OK, I'm drunk. I'm so drunk I can hardly hit the right keys.

Up till today I had 48 days without a drink. It's gone.

I have a woman living with me now, that I thought would help me stay sober so I let her move in four weeks ago and she is driving me insane. I'm going to be honest here, because I have no one else to tell this to tonight, and have been keeping it a secret for too long now. It won't be a secret after Monday, because I've decided to start a 16 week out patient program to get on track with my life.

On second thought, I'm going to back off here and at least express the truth instead of deleting this post. I'm going to start with my own sobriety come Monday, then I'm going to find out how to reverse my decision to be around this lady. We are not romantically involved, she is renting a room from me, but she wants alot more than I can give her, so she stabs me with the fact that I'm not attracted to her, she tries to make it out that "we" have a future, which is not even on my mind at all. She was once a close friend, now she thinks because I let her move in that it is more than it is. I'm not attracted to her that way!!!!!! I'm sick inside and don't know what to do, for she has no where else to go. So I went and got drunk, which I always do when confronted with situations where I don't know what to do.

That's where I am tonight.

:hug: FS,

Sorry to hear about losing the 48... glad to hear about the program. Don't run away from it now....

I know nothing at all about relationships, but you've got all my virtual hugs and I hope things get to looking better...soon.

Hang in there,
-TB

Yeah i had a few of those so drunk i couldn't hit the right keys!!!!

The outpatient thing sounds a positive move, so well done for that...hopefully you will learn some tools to help with your sobriety:-)

Don't worry too much about your days gone, if you aren't sober and your life is still unmaneagable who gives a **** if is 48 or 4800?!

When you start outpatient you can tell the lady that you have been advised to be alone in this period of you working on yourself, which won't be a lie as they will imply this anyway and then give her a few weeks notice in order to find somewhere else...yeah it won't end well i am sure but that doesn't sound like a bad thing....stop taking in strays...for now;-)

Bad firestorm :a043:

Sorry your hurting D. I tried to fill the hole in my life with men, strays, booze, drugs, and anything else that could distract me. I think you have an idea now where a different path starts. That better life is waiting for you friend.

firestorm
 

hi fire, sorry to hear about your situation, it sounds like your thinking of solutions though so this isnt the end of the world. I am 48 days sober , and I know how your probably beating yourself up. What we have to learn is when things are bugging us we cant drink it away, we cant take it out on ourselves because thats how we ended up in our nightmare. It sounds like the lady might of took advantage of your situation you just have to be totally honest and you will feel good about yourself for that and then you can work on yourself, instead of hurting yourself. Good luck !
jeff

FS....i am disappointed..nothing else to say..:wtf2


..i know i don't spell so good..but i mean what i say..stop kidding
your self..try again..your good friend..Oz..

Hey FS, sorry to hear that things are tough. You have some good advice on what to do next & how to move forward. I know its tough but you can do this.

Its 3 am & I am watching a movie & surfing here at the same time as my distraction. Working pretty good right now. Check out that out patient program & get back on track. We are all pulling for you. :ring

Take Care,

NB

((firestorm))
Good plan 4 the OP treatment.
Lot's of good advice here that's been offered.
Love the honestly. U R a good man, working on U. U could of just had a casual fling and made this situation worse 4 both of U. Hope the hangover isn't so bad, keep that as a reminder.
Stay strong.

To be honest Firestorm, This woman is not someone you need in your life right now. She is causing tension and stress, and may not have your best interests in mind. Getting sober is hard, and you need all your energy focused on recovery. Good luck with the inpatient program.

I agree 110% with what 51anna has written above. Just focus on your sobriety. Glad you are getting back on track ASAP!

There is a very good reason why they don't encourage any big changes the first year of sobriety! I took a new job two months into sobriety and it was a mistake. I think that we often feel we are "okay" long before we really are.

When I look back at my first six months, I was the ultimate dry drunk. I didn't even know what "dry drunk" meant at the time. Now, reading my diary from a year ago today the warning flags were all over the place.

I know you haven't asked for advice regarding this lady in your house, but I would have to echo what others have said: it sounds like it is not at all good for your sobriety.
Great idea to begin an outpatient program: it might help you figure out what to do about this situation.

I'm sorry to hear that you drank. I've done that too many times when I was really stressed out. But as I always found out, the drinking only made the stress worse.

So you drank. Forgive yourself for your relapse and start over again. Learn from it and move forward again. You CAN do this.

i fell asleep a few times behind my comp trying to type a post or a reply here, cause i was too high:)...

take care firestorm, and try to get back on track!

Sorry to hear that Firestorm... Best wishes... You can do this...

:c020: :c016:

Her life is not your concern, yours is. She is an adult, probably at least semi intelligent and resourceful, and can figure something else out.

That being said, you and I both know you're the only one here to blame for the choice to get drunk and I'm glad you have a better path laid out for you come Monday. Good luck, friend!

My head is really pounding this morning, and I feel as sick as ever. I know I shouldn't have drank over this person, and I need to learn different ways of coping with stress in my life, so I'm glad that tomorrow I have an opportunity to begin learning new coping skills for these types of situations. I made a mistake last night by going out and that just added to the mistake of being around this lady who is now residing with me. She loves to argue and I just had enough yesterday, so I left and got stupid. Now, she's the same but I feel like hell. That's not too bright on my part.


Thanks for all your help, I know I can do this, and I am trying as hard as I can, but I need help. Thanks again.

Glad to hear your sobering up... I know when I drank I struggled to stay away from it the next morning. No I couldn't be an alcoholic hahahahaha.... anyway man you know that you can't drink anything away. Just take it from here and make sure to get the help you need

Hey firestorm. I'm sorry that you're going through this.

Relationships are such a killer. I know you say you're not involved but this situation is affecting you. Boundary issues??? Whether it may be that she doesn't respect yours or you haven't laid down the law for her?

Maybe you're concerned about hurting her feelings?

I'm going to share with you where I'm at when it comes to other people. If it helps and I hope it does, great. ;)

While trying to figure out how to conduct myself with others there is one thing I keep in mind as well and that's how THEY are treating me. Are they respecting my space? My boundaries? Are they doing it after I've told them how I feel? If all the answers there are "no" then this is how I proceed........... I quit worrying about how they feel. I let go of the fact that they may get upset when I tell them "you've crossed my line, YOU'RE DONE!!!" And just pull the plug. Rip it like a band-aid. I know that sounds a little dramatic, however sometimes I feel people need to just get it and there's no being nice about it any more. It's either them or me. And it's going to be me.

I'm so glad you're going to get a plan in motion for yourself. I do hope you're going to do that OP thing. Once you get the coping skills to deal with this stuff life will get better.

Good luck!! Let us know how it all goes.