Hi I'm a Newbie and I'm an Addict.
 

I've always searched for information on recovery and each time has always led me into this forum. Today I decided to become a member... and to share my story with you. I've been an addict to opiates for over 5 years. For the past two years I was on and off Suboxone. Back in may-july i got a lil out of hand and snorted heroin and coke. I stopped that july 4th and stuck with the subs till recently last week I had my last 1mg sub...on the 3rd day of being sober i felt like i needed a fix... so i snorted roxy's... been doin 30mg-90mg of them this past weekend. Mind you I never snorted roxy's before. Today I was good up until 5 minutes ago. I sniffed my last roxy. After today I refuse to become a slave to the opiates. I'm tired of not having control over my life. I've been through withdrawel before. And I know this week is going to be HELL. Which is why I'm posting. I feel expressing my experiences might help release some built up emotions. For only a select few know of my addiction problem. Thanks in advance for the people taking the time out to read this and actually caring. -God Bless

Welcome JSoBeRz -

Keep reading SR and posting. One day at a time.

Hi and WELCOME! You've found a great place with lots of support and help and people who care. I'm an alki myself and don't know anything about opiates, but plenty of folks here do.

Keep posting, and again, welcome.

Welcome to SR :)

Welcome JSoBeRz
You'll find a lot of support and encouragement here.
You've made a few good choices today :)

Also feel free to check out our substance abuse forum
Substance Abuse - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

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I'm so new here I hardly feel like I can "welcome" you the way others can. But keep comin back...these folks are awesome!

welcome....keep posting...this is a great place with great people

I beleive everything happens for a reason. So maybe you are here for a reason. I am glad you are here.
SR was very crucial for me when I first began recovery. And still is to this day.
I know you will find alot of support and info here.

Welcome to SR! Glad you found us and joined the family!:ghug3

-Day 1
Just about lunch time at work. Feeling pretty good. I feel like the withdrawal hasn't even begun yet...the day is still young and all I can think about is should I pick up something for tonight. Fighting it through, just a bit nervous on whats to come. Trying not to think about it.

Greetings.... You can do it. Figure out what you need and go for it! Humbly
on day 77.

WoW Day 77 is really inspiring! I know what I need... but I just CAN'T Go for it! You know? :headbange

:welcome

JS,

Welcome, I'm an opiate addict too so I understand your pain.

You never think you're gonna become an addict when you start taking pills so you?

I saw your other thread and I'm a bit worried about you, please take care of yourself.

Much Love,

Faerie

thank you all for all your moral support! I didn't relapse and get that last hurrah and i faught it through... its now over 24 hours...and i'm feelin pretty bad...i just want to sleep. but cant... taking cough syrup for my coughs and some motrin for the acks.

- Day 2
I surprising don't feel that bad! Which I find really weird and a bit worried. I do have stomach cramps and some diarrhea here and there... but other than that I physcally feel okay.

JS..Welcome to SR. Lots of support here, and Congrats on your clean time!!

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Thank You Beautiful! :ValB011: