Welcome to SR Mirage.
The thought of attending a meeting of any sort scares the crap outta me.
The vast majority of the folks in meetings were scared crapless to go to that first one.
I was not scared really, I just did not want to go!!!! But I wanted to find a solution for my alcoholism after many years of trying to find a solution by myself and just getting worse and worse I knew I had to really do something or I was going to die!
BTW the last 5 years of my drinking I did alone in my garage, one of the signs of being an alcoholic is drinking alone.
It wasn't supposed to happen to me.
Me either, I had this macho male BS that almost killed me!
Keep coming back here no matter what, you know there are ladies only meetings in some areas, I could never have stayed sober in the cyber world, I needed that face to face support.