ashleek

Ya know, I just wanted to say I feel a little bit better today. With all the positive responses and seeing my life in someone else's words gives me so much hope. I want to say that my neighbor (who is on perk 30s) came to the house this morning. She was so high her eyes were rolling in the back of her head. I thought to myself "thank you God that I am sober just for today". Seeing her like that made me feel so good about myself because I know that about 15 20 days ago I looked stupid like that too. I don't have any urge to use whatsoever and so I think things are going pretty good. I just hope that maybe something I say to her one day will make her open her eyes and see she shouldn't live like that. But I'm not too worried about it, her sobriety will come with time when she is ready. I just want to be the inspiration for someone else. Hell yeah this has been so hard but you know what was harder? Joansen for that pill everyday, calling people till I found it. I lived my entire life around that pill. Life is easier now and I know it will continue to get better. I can't wait till I can say I've got 30,60,90 days. I'm going to make this one day at a time and each day gets just a little better, enough to keep me going!!

ashleek

My signature means a lot to me and for those of you who don't know the song I want to say when I got out of detox I heard it, like God played it for me. So, it is kinda my theme song that helps to keep me sober. Music is a big part of my recovery. Listen to the words, they are oh so true!!

YouTube - Godsmack - Serenity

ashleek

Well, so everyone knows I have had a really good day today! My family and I went to a festival, I came home and cleaned my house and done the dishes. Those vitamins help so much!! Not to mention a rockstar once or twice a day. So, this gives me some hope my body is getting well. I still feel a little like I'm floating on a cloud sometimes. It's hard to explain, I feel so light (not dizzy) just light as a feather. So when that feeling goes away I'll feel a lot better. Thanks everyone for keeping me on my toes here. Your comments are very much appreciated!

swampy

ashleek,
I am soon on day 3 after an alcohol relapse.. It sucks right now, as i had close to 19 months clean. I feel like s...t, mentally, physically, and spiritually. But, I am trying to move forward with my sponsor and meetings again. I really don't know what to say, but this site is great for support and you are not alone. take it easy.

ashleek

Swampy, you hang in there. The odds are stacked against us. But if we take one day at a time, just go one day it will get easier. I know you must feel horrible just know that we are all here for you too! Keep coming back!

ashleek

So, today is a better day! Things keep getting a little better. The only thing I am dealing with is this feeling of being light as a feather. I feel like I am floating. I'm not dizzy or anything and it's so hard to explain but I have talked to someone else about this feeling and they said when they came off opiates that they felt the same way as well. Is this normal? Has other people felt this way as well? I am just curious as to why I feel this way. I wonder is it the brain trying to restore itself? I'm not looking for medical advice just curious if anyone knows why we feel this way when we come off of opiates?

ashleek

Day 14 ya'll and still going at it. The past two days have not been so good. I have been craving and having a lot of anxiety again. So I am going to a meeting tonight and made an appointment with an addiction therapist. So I am going to go on and go to my meeting tonight even though I am very hesitant to go because I don't like going places I have never been or talking to new people. I know I need to to stay well. So wish me luck everyone. Oh and I feel a lot better, things are better. I am going to make it, I know I am going to make it.