Hello everyone,,, well its the beginning of day three for me and I feel ok. I just want to say a real special thanks to Tazman because it was your words that really kicked me into gear to get started....."you will stop drinking when the desire to not drink becomes more than the desire to drink". thanks for that it helped alot. its pretty hard to imagine never having a drink but i guess i wont cross that bridge yet,, my head is already alot clearer however yesterday and the day before was shocking everything was weird and i didnt really know what i was doing. I was also wondering where do i find this AA book that everyones talking about? I live a big to far out to go to AA but if the book is online or something..........id love to check it out..